Diddy Kim. ☮

32/366

2012-02-01T06:38:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum

Rise and shine people. Its 0559. I just got back from the hospital. Yes, I was sick. For those who read my tweets two days ago, you knew what happened. I was admitted to the hospital due to heartache. The capacity of my heart could no longer contain the feeling of missing someone so much. It bled again due from old scars.

Lol nasty joke. I was sick but its not me who got admitted into the hospital. Its my sister. She had stomach aches since morning (mind you, she was 9-months pregnant) so later that evening, mom called and asked me to go and stay with her overnight since mom was sick too (she had cancer, remember) My phone died and my iPod too. So I charged my iPod and not my phone. Smart enough. No one was going to text me anyway c:

I packed my bag; face towel, toothbrush, iPod, instant camera, notebook and a pencil. So my brother in law sent me. We dropped by at mcdonalds 'cause I was too hungry, haven't eaten since noon. I carried my teddy, dinner, bag and bottle around like a child. So when we arrived at my sister's bed, everyone was kinda looking at me, carrying around my teddy like mad. I'm so qt c: Around 11 pm, my sister was being moved to a private room at the end of the ward because her husband paid for it and of course, she is a medical officer in that very hospital. The main highlight here is priority to the officers. Ahuh.

Later that night, my sister insisted on calling her husband. Her phone died. Sweet. So, I had to use the one at the staff nurse reception. He asked too many questions; "Was she about to deliver?" "Had she done the check up?" "Had she done the VE?" Mofo. I didn't even know what was VE. I think it stands for Vaginal Examine. Eh. I don't know. Weird but I'm positive about the V that stands for Vaginal. He came a few minutes later and done the VE himself (since he is a medical officer too) A husband, checking his own wife. Thats... cool. I was there, stucked in the corner reading my book when the staff nurse looked at my direction and said "Adik, pergi lah masuk dalam sana (glanced at the pantry) ke adik nak tengok?" I was like goddamnit no. I didn't want to be there watching someone checking a freakin vagina. So I quickly moved away to the pantry and tried not to listen whatever weird sound it might produce.

I was too deeply lost into my reading that I didn't realise it was about time to deliver the baby. My brother-in-law found me at the pantry and said "Labour room" I was like oh no no no shiz man shiz shiz. I got on my feet, grabbed my bag and book and to the labour room we go~ but oh well.... I wasn't allowed to be in there so I had to sit on one of the stupid benches there and I tell you now, it smelled weird. I sit down anyway and focused on my Temple Run and Cooking Dash. There this one guy who walked passed by and suddenly talking to me. I had my earphone on so when he talked to me, I didn't hear anything so I just stared at him like he was a mad man.

Later, I got a phone call from mom and she said "Kakak dah bersalin dah. Baby boy!" I was like ahuh. I was only a few feet away from the labour room. What. Really. Ok. It took me a few seconds to get that around my head and I was like, damn shiz. I got a nephew! Whooo c: When she didn't get out of the labour room for about an hour or so, I decided to go back to the room and waited there. I read my book and constantly switching my positions because I tell you what, the chair provided was not comfy at all. It was around 3 when I retired to bed. And it wasn't my bed. It was a concrete floor. I restrained myself from sleeping on the bed because my sister would be there any minute and it would be embarassing that the staff nurse found me sleeping on the bed. So I braced myself and slept on the floor with my pashmina as my blanket. I felt like a beggar already. The difference was, there was an aircond.

I couldn't really sleep (because I was sleeping on a concrete floor) when mom called and asked which room I was in. A few minutes later, my sister arrived then my parents. My sister talked to mom about the process of delivering the baby boy and I didn't notice how but I found myself telling dad that I was scared, I even ran away when my brother did that VE thing on my sister. He mocked me saying "habis tu taknak mengandung ke" I was like "Baru 17" "habis bila? Umur 35?" I pretended to sleep and let the question floated in the air and disappeared like a bubble.

Now, here I am in my own bedroom in my house. I am so hungry. I think there was something wrong at my kidney part last night but I didn't tell anyone. Let this be our secret. Shall we?

24/366

2012-01-24T14:38:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

So here I am sitting like a fool in my room while listening to moments when suddenly I hear my family talking about me with my second sister. They purposely talking really loud just to make sure that I hear them. I am so depressed, so I turn on my volume to maximum and lost in my space with one direction and try very hard not to cry.

Day 24/366 has just started half way and I have already feeling miserable and feel like dying. One thing I can't stand most is when my family talk about me, outside my bedroom door. As if they are talking behind my back. Like what is wrong with you guys. All you have to do is like complaining to everyone else about how stubborn I was being, just because I go against you for telling me to take education as my course in university, about how I don't want to talk to you guys about my driving test.

There is nothing to talk about because for all of these 17 years of living, no one, no even a single soul listen to me, being there for me when I have problems at school or whatever. There is not even a single soul trying to talk to me or even ask how was I doing at school. There is not even a single soul trying to know all of my friends and you guys go all freak out when I have male friends which I never even go out with for 17 years of living. You guys go all mad and psycho over the fact that I have male friends and talking bad about my friends. I know not all of them are up to your level but please, respect my friends. I have never even go out with them so why do you have to freak out and talk bad about them when you don't even know them?

You are getting really mad at me because I avoid talking and meeting you guys, that's why I confine myself in my room for two days. Its because I am not bloody okay and I don't want to do the talking or giving explainations because at the end, I will be the one to be blamed on. Not even a single explaination can change the fact that it was my mistake. Even all this while, no one ever want to listen to every thing I say. Those times when I have stories from school, there's no one ever listen to me with interest. So don't ever blame me if I cannot bring myself to talk to you about everything and I keep it inside. You think its easy to watch my friends and their mothers become bestfriends? You think its easy to realise that I have no one to talk to?

I did hate you when I was small because I didn't think you ever loved me or even paid attention to me but as I growing up, I don't hate you anymore, I respect you and I love you. Its just that, the whole childhood years that we have lost would never come back and we will never be the same. From my whole childhood years, talking to myself about every single thing, it distanced us and it will never be the same again. You can never replace my childhood years, growing alone and trying very hard to be a useful girl to community and a good daughter to my family and getting mad at me because I don't want to talk to you about everything. You cannot blame me because its too late and I can't do anything about it anymore.

I cry myself to sleep almost every night because I really want to have a really close family but I don't. If I could only have this life for one more time, I will try my best to fix everything and change myself and become a good daughter. I just feel that its not right to blame me for not telling you everything, for not being a close daughter to you. Its just not right anymore because its just too late. You cannot expect me to turn to you when something happens in my life, because I have spent the past years, turning to no one but myself.

You plan my life without even asking me what I really want to do. Now, if you ask me what I really want to do, I don't know anymore. I am hurting too much, just too much that I don't know what I want anymore. I'll go with your plans if that makes you happy. I'll be a teacher. I'll be a teacher, get a job and get paid. I will do as you wish because I don't know what else to make you happy, I don't know myself anymore, because keeping everyone happy has always been my job since I was small, and I will do as you wish. Just don't talk behind my back, I will do as you wish. I know you have always thought that I am stubborn, always go against you and the black sheep in the family, but I know everything that happen in the family without you knowing me know. I love this family, its just that its invisible and I don't show them because at the end, no one cares.

I am a strong girl named Nadiha and always will be that way no matter how hard life knock me down. I'm okay.

23/366

2012-01-23T22:00:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

Its day 23/366 people and I feel really.... numb. I was unable to describe and get hold of myself last night so I couldn't write about it just yet except on tumblr. Here we go. *inhale* As some of you guys know, I had my driving test yesterday. I was feeling really nervous and I had a stomach pain (I always get stomach pain whenever I am nervous) so I tried to ease myself and watch barbie. The result? I failed.

It was suck really and I nearly cried. I flunked both categories, on track and on the road. So yeah, I am a big sucker of all times. The one on track was really disappointing. I had only one obstacle left before I passed my on track test and I flunked it. It was stupid because yes, it was my fault anyway.

The one on the road was a major disappointment as well. Big, major, huge, massive. Use whatever word it was. It was really really... urgh. I had only drove not even half way, not even out on the road yet when I did that mandatory mistake and I was told to drive back into the academy. I seriously was shocked and I didn't know what was my mistake. Like, omg what the hell did I do wrong. So I had a tiny little argument with the tester in the car and he was like "no, you don't blame your teacher. He has nothing to do with this. It is you. It is you who don't understand" I was like, no I was not trying to blame anyone. I was just telling you that I was doing whatever my teacher taught me. Freakin weird.

Soon, I realised, there was no need to give explainations. It was obviously my mistake and I should be kicked out of the car like right away. So I flunked both and needed to wait for like another three weeks or so before another driving test. My friends flunked one test and passed one test so they only need to repeat that one test before getting a license. Holy mother of cheese, what is air. I feel like I am the stupidest and useless person ever lived.

The fact that I wouldn't want to cry in public so I waited for my dad to pick me up and I was going to cry at home. Sadly, my driving teacher called me over to send me home and he was shocked to acknowledge that I actually flunked both while the other two boys flunked only one. You guess what happened after that. He kept on nagging and sorta raised his voice and complaining and getting really mad at me. He was so disappointed, he told me. He said that driving test was such an easy test so I shouldn't have flunked or at least, passed one.

I forced myself to hold back the tears and waited until I reached home. I didn't know why I cried, really. The fact that I felt really bad at myself for disappointing everyone or I felt sad that I have to kiss all my plans to go out to places goodbye. Even at that very moment, I still cared for people first before myself. I felt really bad for making everyone mad at me. I felt really bad that I didn't do my best and I needed to repeat my test. I didn't care about how myself was feeling. They didn't even care about mine.

To make myself feeling more miserable, cookie was not here with me and I felt really, really upset, disappointed and useless. I really want to talk to him and cry freakin hard and let go of everything and start all over and I want him to comfort me like he usually does when I am feeling down or I feel useless. The fact that he was not here when I needed him the most broke my heart.

I felt really lonely last night. I tried to understand that maybe he was busy with studies and couldn't make it for me or maybe if he tried to make it there for me, it was his simcard being a dipshit. I tried to understand, really. I always understand, right?

New chic look!

2012-01-23T11:15:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

As you all know, I have finally, finally get my hands on base codes and edited it for real for the first time. I usually too lazy to get my hands on codes but last night, I was feeling down so I need something to occupy me and it did occupy me for 7 hours.

A million of thanks and full credits given to:

Basecodes: Nazihah Anuar
Original Template design: Queenka-Ballerina
Header: Dolce-Zati
Cursor and cute icons: Drikoti
Back to top icon: Rebecca
Back and forward icon: Kintanti
Background: Mocha

My blog is fully by me. I added and replaced codes so there is nothing that is similar to the original skins. I mixed up everything I like from other skins and made up my own. So I have given credits to everyone whom codes I used c:

I am usually not a pinky type but I guess, I'm a girl afterall and I like pink.

Getting married.

2012-01-18T18:59:00.004+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

First of all, PLEASE do not freak out by the title. Nadiha is not getting married. Yet. ;)Well, it was just my imagination and I really want to write it down ( I can't stop smiling) This is bad, how my imaginations have gone wild lately. That's for not working and not having anything to do at home every single day. Lol c: I have always imagine myself in the next few years time, graduating from college, get a good job and meet someone special and start a new life. I mean like, thats what girls do. Oh, that's what I do. Imagining things.

You know how I spent my childhood listening to 90s english music. You know, how jiwang it is but not in a disgusting way the way 90s malay songs are :p I spent my childhood watching romantic english movies and read romantic english novels. So, a few days ago, I was watching Glee movie and there this one part where Diana sang a song and I suddenly remember of one of my childhood movies that is My Bestfriend's Wedding. I miss Julia Roberts and Cameron Diaz. Oh how lovely 90s was!

I have always imagined and sorta wished my wedding would be some kind of more to a childish wedding. I really want to have a private wedding where only my friends are invited there with their partners and we will dance all night long and laugh and have fun. Urgh, sounds like in movies don't you think? Hehe but I seriously want that. Oh no, don't worry. I still am a muslim lol. I know this kind of wedding does sound a bit western.. I just really want to have a childish wedding where all my childhood love songs are played and we are going to dance and I will be in his arms and he will gonna whisper something sweet and make me laugh. It must be awesome like, to have a childish man, the one who is funny and can be so sweet and serious at the same time, the one who make the relationship and marriage not boring because we are gonna live together for the rest of our lives, the one who loves classic english songs and novels like I do, the one who loves me so much he couldn't see anyone else but me. Having that kind of childish wedding where only laughters, classic love songs in the air, where everyone gonna dance with their own legal partners and their kids, that kind of my imaginary wedding c:

I'm a fun person to be with, I laugh a lot so I hope my future life partner will be a person fun to be with, crack jokes a lot, love to tickles me and will do everything he does to make me his even after we get married. James and Amal's wedding was childish, that's what Mal told me. I was so happy for them though I don't really know them but I wish the best for them throughout their lives.

I wish I can have a childish wedding too, one day :)

Listening to this song while updating. My childhood song and it shall be my wedding song too c:

Tutorial pashmina style #2

2012-01-05T15:25:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.
Tak jawab dosa, kalau jawab Allah sayang :>

Ni tutorial pashmina Didy yang kedua. First one was a video tutorial. Macam jilaka sikit. Kali ini, pictures tutorial. Maaflah, Didy memang tak pandai buat video. u_u Didy buat tutorial kali ni sebab ramai yang tanya macam mana nak buat style twitcon Didy. K tipu. Dua orang je tanya. hewhew u_u tapi takpelah, nak share. Style ni pun Didy dapat from my beloved Koman, dia yang ajar through text. Bapak ah susah nak explain through text tapi pandai-pandai lah figure out sendiri. So here it is~

Easy cheesy right? A few steps and you can style it! If tak faham a few steps, you can always ask me via formspring or my twitter. Have fun everyone c: xo

Mistakes

2011-12-21T19:10:00.000+08:00

How does it feel when you think that he loves you but somehow, his feeling is all fake. It is an act.

He makes you feel like a princess, he whispers "I love you" to your ears, he kisses your forehead, he has his arms around you when you both walk together, he puts you to sleep every night and sing till you fall asleep. It is all an act. He laughs at you when you finally asleep, thinking how stupid you were for falling for such a thing. You fall for him.

On saturday nights when he calls in to say that he cannot go out for a movie, he actually stays in with his lads and tell them all how stupid you were for falling for you stupid "I love you" that is nothing but meaningless. He has never felt the same way you felt for him. It is all an act. He bets to make you fall for him. His lads bet that you will never fall for him and his lads lose because you do. You actually did. You have fallen really hard.

Days go by and you guys seem to drift apart and one night, you want to surprise him so you go to his house, bake his favourite chocolate chip cookies, to only find that he is in bed with another girl. She is so sexy, with blonde hair, she has curves and they are making love. You stand there, watching them lose into themselves and you find yourself numb. You just stand there throughout the night to only watch him, cheating on you, loving another girl.

When reality strikes in, when you finally wake up from your own made-up fairytale, you just break down all over again and cry all night. Tears stain on your pillow, you don't want to eat or do anything. When you think that you are okay, you just cry all over again because it hurts so much than what you ever think it will be. That it chokes you, it makes you hard to breathe and you feel lifeless. You have fallen so hard that you couldn't even stand on your feet again.

Funny when he knocks on your door with flowers and your favourite cake, you find yourself taking him back into your life and forget everything that had happened because you really want him in your life, you cannot see your life without him or anyone else. Things like that happen so many times and each time, you find yourself taking him back because you are so pathetic, you just want him in your life. That even though you know, all of his "I love you" are lies, you just want to live by lies if that keeps him with you. You never think of loving someone so much.

He is so perfect that you always ask yourself, why does he choose me. Why me. Why not the other girl? Why not the curvy girl? Why not the breathtaking cheerleader girl? Why me?

You wake up every morning to see his picture as your wallpaper, thinking how you miss him, falling in love with him every single day and you are just happy to be with him. Your definition of happiness is him. You go to bed every night thinking how he could have get other pretty girl, who is like thousands better than you.

The feeling when you are with this perfect man of your life that it suddenly grows into one of your insecurities. You are really insecure about yourself because he is so perfect that you doesn't suit him at the tiniest chance at all. You compare yourself to other beautiful girls. You compare yourself to other smarter girls. You compare yourself to other rich girls. You compare yourself to other girls with self confidence. You compare yourself to the girls who have everything you don't have. You keep on comparing till you cannot see your true self because your true self is much more uglier that you cannot stand to be. You keep on comparing till you cannot see you own capabilities and specialities anymore. You forget how beautiful you are with no make up on, you forget how stunning you are in those long skirts and blouses with your hair tied in ponytails. You forget about who you are.

That is the feeling when you get such a perfect boyfriend. The feeling of never being good enough. The feeling of insecurities. The feeling of stupidity. The feeling of low self esteem.

I write this as a review of my never-ending insecurities and the love story between Colin and Mariah, the two characters in Keeping Faith by Jodi Picoult. Its a really adventurous, heartbreaking book. You just cannot flip through another page without finding yourself wiping your tears.

I am not a good writer, I don't know if this has touched your heart or not, but I just hope I can write beautiful lines and stories that will touch every heart available. Lots of love, x

Mistakes

2011-12-21T19:04:00.000+08:00

How does it feel when you think that he loves you but somehow, his feeling is all fake. It is an act.

He makes you feel like a princess, he whispers "I love you" to your ears, he kisses your forehead, he has his arms around you when you both walk together, he puts you to sleep every night and sing till you fall asleep. It is all an act. He laughs at you when you are finally asleep, thinking how stupid you are for falling for such a thing. You are easily fall for something sweet and romantic and you think that he is the one.

On saturday nights when he calls in to say that he cannot go out for a movie, he actually stays in with his lads and tell them all how stupid you were for falling for you stupid "I love you" that is nothing but meaningless. He has never felt the same way you felt for him. It is all an act. He bets to make you fall for him. His lads bet that you will never fall for him and his lads lose because you do. You actually did. You have fallen really hard.

Days go by and you guys seem to drift apart and one night, you want to surprise him so you go to his house, bake his favourite chocolate chip cookies, to only find that he is in bed with another girl. She is so sexy, with blonde hair, she has curves and they are making love. You stand there, watching them lose into themselves and you find yourself numb. You just stand there throughout the night to only watch him, cheating on you, loving another girl.

When reality strikes in, when you finally wake up from your own made-up fairytale, you just break down all over again and cry all night. Tears stain on your pillow, you don't want to eat or do anything. When you think that you are okay, you just cry all over again because it hurts so much than what you ever think it will be. That it chokes you, it makes you hard to breathe and you feel lifeless. You have fallen so hard that you couldn't even stand on your feet again.

Funny when he knocks on your door with flowers and your favourite cake, you find yourself taking him back into your life and forget everything that had happened because you really want him in your life, you cannot see your life without him or anyone else. Things like that happen so many times and each time, you find yourself taking him back because you are so pathetic, you just want him in your life. That even though you know, all of his "I love you" are lies, you just want to live by lies if that keeps him with you. You never think of loving someone so much.

He is so perfect that you always ask yourself, why does he choose me. Why me. Why not the other girl? Why not the curvy girl? Why not the breathtaking cheerleader girl? Why me?

You wake up every morning to see his picture as your wallpaper, thinking how you miss him, falling in love with him every single day and you are just happy to be with him. Your definition of happiness is him. You go to bed every night thinking how he could have get other pretty girl, who is like thousands better than you.

The feeling when you are with this perfect man of your life that it suddenly grows into one of your insecurities. You are really insecure about yourself because he is so perfect that you doesn't suit him at the tiniest chance at all. You compare yourself to other beautiful girls. You compare yourself to other smarter girls. You compare yourself to other rich girls. You compare yourself to other girls with self confidence. You compare yourself to the girls who have everything you don't have. You keep on comparing till you cannot see your true self because your true self is much more uglier that you cannot stand to be. You keep on comparing till you cannot see you own capabilities and specialities anymore. You forget how beautiful you are with no make up on, you forget how stunning you are in those long skirts and blouses with your hair tied in ponytails. You forget about who you are.

That is the feeling when you get such a perfect boyfriend. The feeling of never being good enough. The feeling of insecurities. The feeling of stupidity. The feeling of low self esteem.

I write this as a review of my never-ending insecurities and the love story between Colin and Mariah, the two characters in Keeping Faith by Jodi Picoult. Its a really adventurous, heartbreaking book. You just cannot flip through another page without finding yourself wiping your tears.

I am not a good writer, I don't know if this has touched your heart or not, but I just hope I can write beautiful lines and stories that will touch every heart available. Lots of love, x

Lifeless

2011-12-20T16:11:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Tak jawab dosa, kalau jawab sayang c:

Its been 20 days since I last posted anything in this blog. Rindu blog *peluk screen laptop*
Blur pula nak bagitahu apa dalam blog ni sebab selalunya meracau dalam twitter je. Lagi senang dan cepat lepas tu ramai orang baca dan senang mencari publisiti murahan. Eh.

Hari ni nak cerita pasal cerita basi selepas habis SPM. Gelabah habis conteng baju, bajet bajet taknak guna dah baju ni. Haha memang taknak guna dah pun ewah. Siap bawak marker khas lagi untuk conteng ni tau. Sehari sebelum last paper, birthday kita! Hewhew.Sedihlah birthday girl kena celebrate dalam hall. Tsk tsk u_u

Selama lebih 18 hari duduk meracau dalam bilik, seharian online, tumblr, twitter dan bukan lagi facebook. Sumpah macam biawak hidup dah ni bosan sangat. Saya dah dapat lesen L! Wohoooo, bila lah nak dapat lesen P ni. Tak sabar nak pergi JB dengan KL dah ni jumpa kawan-kawan saya. Lepas SPM bajet nak jumpa semua tapi sorang pun tak jumpa lagi sobs sobs. Sedih ah camnik!! u__u

Sabtu lepas keluar dengan minah-minah kesayangan. Tak semua sebab ramai yang busy dan ada yang sudah terlepas ke negeri-negeri lain. Takpelah, yang penting dapat makan pizza hewhew. Dapat beli buku baru, baju baru dan menghabiskan duit. Lol macam takde life gila u__u Sebelum keluar tu ada jugak lah habiskan masa dekat satu jam fikir nak pakai baju apa. Last-last I grabbed my jumper, basic tee, cotton shawl and flats. Tu pun still in doubts lagi. Alahai susahnya nak pilih baju. Semua buruk ;'(

So the girls went back home at 3. Saya ditinggalkan. Thanks to Bella and Eya for asking me to stay a little more longer. Met the girls! They are so pretty aren't they. Forever insecure. Forever jealous u__u

Had an awesome day on saturday. Looking forward to meet all my facebook friends and myspace friends in future! Lots of love, x

Bantal golek

2011-12-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum semua.

SPM dah habis, saya nak pergi bergolek atas katil saya dan tidur sampai tengah hari esok.

Selamat malam semua.

Self esteemness

2011-11-04T16:09:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I have a confession to make.
I have a very low self esteemness.

Are you surprised? I am surprised, myself though I have expected it. People look at me as a girl who has friends around me, make jokes, is not even shame to look different from others.

The truth is I am not. I see myself as a pretty girl, that no one could ever be the same as me but I don't really say it out loud. I am scared of those views from people. Those harsh comments can kill me anytime so I keep it inside. I would stand in front of mirror, looking at my own reflection, imagine myself differently from what Allah has make me. No way.

I would deny it when someone told me that I'm pretty. I was stuck in a situation where I was scared that if I said yes, people would bash me saying otherwise or if I said no, people would still bash me saying I was being such an attention seeker for them to keep telling me that I am pretty.

Another example of my self esteemness will be when someone tell me that he likes me, I'll go "no way i'm not smart, I'm not pretty, I'm not rich you can have someone better than me" or "no you are joking. You just pretended to like me to test how easy I am to fall for something like that" eventhough deep inside I really want him to know that I like him too!

I always think that I am not good enough for someone that no one likes me or ever wanted to be like me or there a lots of girls who are way more better than me.

I am always unsure of myself, so full of insecurities, feeling of never being good enough, feeling of people will hate if I do this or don't do that. The fact that I am scared of people views on me really haunt me down thoroughout my life.

Maybe this low self esteemness is because of my past. The past wasn't a pain in the ass but it taught me a lot to always put people first, to always consider about the consequences before doing anything.

Thank you so much to do those who had killed my remaining self confidence in the past till none are left for me to keep moving on with my life. It takes me years to build mine again from the remaining pieces and it still is. It isn't finished yet but what most important thing that counts is I learn a lot thoroughout the process. I learn that nobody is perfect, there will be always people who dislike you no matter how kind you are, there will be always people who do the judge, there will be always people who keep pointing fingers to everyone else.

So, here I am, promising myself to be just the way I am, to learn to accept myself the way I am, to start appreciating what I have that not everyone has, to let people to know me, to slowly open my heart to those few people who have been trying hard to be in that cosy place in my heart.

Trust me, the process of building my self esteemness cost me a lot of tears, happiness, laughters, learning process, smiles, loves, hatred, and people around me.

It wasn't easy, it has never been easy and it will never be easy to gain all the strength back from nothing that left, from all the painful memories and scars.

Just remember that you are not alone. I tell myself to keep holding on, that things will be alright in the end. I am beautiful, no one could say otherwise.

Rome wasn't built in a day.

Why is he so special?

2011-10-22T00:14:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

I have a pet and it's a horse. My horse is a male and obviously, he is taller than me which made me feel so secure. My pet is friendly to everyone though. He likes to be called cute and handsome. I don't know why do I have to call a horse handsome? Gosh, my horse is a psycho it is. He is special because you can never have a horse like I do. He is such a special pet because I love him. That made him special, really. He doesn't stay at my backyard or anything. He's living really far away, thousands of miles away in a cosy and beautiful place without me. I wonder if he's missing me cause I'm missing him so bad. Its been a year now since I first have him as my pet. I never thought that he would choose to be my pet instead of others. I wonder why. Since my pet is a male, he surely had had a girlfriend. Well, his girlfriend was a horse too. With a long hair it is. So beautiful, I'm so jealous.

In 8 minutes time (Now: 2352) my pet will be officially seventeen years old. He's older than me though.. but who cares. He's my pet and he should know where he stands! Lol. I wanted to celebrate with him though but lots of things happened since yesterday and everything is going really awkward between me and my horse. I wonder why. I was feeling down since yesterday, I just want to talk to my horse but he surely won't listen or worse, he will reply me gitu-gitu je. So better don't or I'll get hurt. I don't know why my horse is being such an insensitive pet! I'm your owner, how could you?!

God knows how much I love my pet. I could have a hedgehog or a hamster as my pet but I don't know why I got you, a horse, as my pet! Gosh, it's so hard to take care of you, to give you good food. You think you're such a star, do you horse?! Oh my, this horse.. acting like a boss.

But

Horse, I really want you to know that despite everything I tell you that might hurt you, being such a pain in the ass, being so clumsy and stupid, being such an ugly owner, I love you, pet. It hurts so bad that I can't show you how much I love you because it will be really really awkward. I wanted you to know so bad that I really want you to be with me all the time but it hurts to even think that it won't happen. I seriously want you to understand by explaining but you don't understand me and I did mess it up yesterday. I wonder why is it everytime I try so hard to put people's feelings first before my own, I still end up hurting them twice as bad. Sometimes, my horse likes to be around me, sometimes my horse doesn't. What should I do then?! I just want to stop being such a shameless girl, such a shameless owner who god-knows-whoever-reading-this-are-calling-me-a-slut-right-now show so much affectionness to you, my dear pet. I'm such a shameless girl, and I can't handle myself.

Happy birthday to my pet, horsie who is officially seventeen years old today. If you ever read this, which I know you don't, won't and never will open my blog to read this which is really awkward to see a horse tapping on keyboard and scroll down my blog... I want you to know that you are special.

and happy birthday to arwah Hakimi who should have been twenty if he's still around.

Saengil chukha hamnida.

ex-oh-ex-oh 0014 in the morning
(I purposely stay up late tonight to wait till midnight to post this!)

Are you being thankful enough?

2011-10-02T16:51:00.000+08:00

Assaamualaikum. Tak jawab dosa, jawab dapat pahala :)

I just came back home from school. Oh yes, I have sunday school, for those who don't know. It's been a long time since I last posted anything on this blog. A month ago, I guess? Been very busy (yelah sangat) with study (bleh) and social networks which I have to get rid of the addiction, like, right NAW.

So, today in English class, while Mrs. Nani was marking our trial papers, she told us about Mrs Narimah condition, one of our school teachers who are currently on sick leave for quite a while... like a year or something cause she has this cervix cancer. She is now in Stage 4 and the doctor predicts that she will only have like a month left to live. We were all in shocking state. She's such a nice teacher, though she never tought most of us, really.. but we are quite close to her due to co-curicullar activities and stuffs.

What will you do if you have been told by someone that you have only one month left to live? What will you do, really and personally? Do we even have enough time to 'beribadat' and kutip all those pahala that might be not enough yet? Do we even have enough time to go to masjid and sembahyang like 674542892 rakaat a day to qadha' all those solat that we accidently or purposely left? I seriously think, do we even have time to breathe, talking to the moon and sun, watching the sun sets, feel the breeze, travelling all around the world, visiting all the beautiful places that we could only see from pictures, standing under the rain?

No. I don't think that one month is enough to do everything that we really wanted to do before we die. We are still here, so lazy to keep our arses up because we don't know when is our time to leave the world, to leave everything we love behind. Most of my readers are of my age. We are too young and we don't really see many deaths happening right in front of our eyes. That's why we are being like lazy cows because we think we have lots of time left. We think that if we don't do this now, we can do this later. If only we know how much time left on our own "imaginary clock", we won't be doing what we are doing now.

We complain too much on everything. This is wrong. That is wrong. This shouldn't be like this. This shouldn't be like that. We never thanked Allah for all the little tiny blessings that He gave us up until now. We always forget Him. We always forget that at one moment, He could lose the patience and take everything that what is His. We don't always get what we want, cause Allah wants us to love what we already have. Even if it's small or big, be thankful for what we have. People on the other side of the world are suffering from all sorts of problems. Don't we feel grateful and thankful to Allah for all the blessings? Can't you just sit and think for a moment? Look around you. Think, feel, be grateful. Count all those little tiny blessings. We only see those big blessings till one point, we forgot all those tiny little blessings. We become greedy, cause we wanted more or we wanted things to be much better than it is now.

If only you could see all those Mat Salehs yang uolls puja-puja, their lives aren't that great. It's a big disaster. They seek for help, to get away from all of these messes, but they don't know how. This returns to the biggest blessings that me and most of my friends have now, that is Islam and iman. It's really difficult for someone who isn't born as Muslim to open his heart and soul to actually see Islam. We should be really thankful that we were born as Muslims, that even how big our mistakes are, Allah will still be here for us and forever will.

I made mistake till one day, Allah took something that was so precious to me, from me. At that moment, I thought my whole life was completely in the dark. I couldn't see anything and that was when I knew, that I had forgotten all about Him. I had loved this something so much that I forgot, Allah is the only love that will last forever. I really cried so hard when I went to Him. I was in pain. I was in the situation that I didn't feel blessed nor loved by Allah. I cried so hard because I wanted Him to love me, to bless me. I made mistakes by forgetting Him, turning my back on Him. I didn't want Him to forget me. I was scared..

Alhamdulillah, I get what I have always wanted now. I feel blessed. I feel safe. I feel loved. I feel happy with myself. I become a mature person who think first before doing something. I seek for Him before making any decisions. Alhamdulillah. I feel really blessed. No one could ever tell the feeling of being blessed, the feeling of being safe, like you are actually under His arms, protecting you. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. I do forget to be thankful sometimes, but I keep reminding myself, I don't want to make the same mistakes. I was a rebellious teenager before. I didn't want to listen to mom nor dad. I had always think that I was right and everyone was wrong. I thought that people are hating on me, they didn't love me. No. People around me are loving me, needing me as much as I need them. The only thing I am scared about is, Allah will take back these blessings from me. I keep praying to Allah, I want this life, myself and people around me to be blessed forever. Insya-Allah. I keep my faith, to always trust Him, to always believe in Him that He's up there, watching me, protecting me, planning for only the better for me and my friends. I don't complain too much now. I'm seventeen. I should just accept everything as they are. Less complaining make my heart feel a lot more lighter. I love this life, and I couldn't stop thanking Allah for giving me all those big and tiny little blessing to me, my family, to the people whom I love the most, to my friends, to my Muslim brothers and sisters. I couldn't thanked enough. May Allah bless Mrs. Narimah good soul. Amin.

"In life, we tend to forget how fortunate we are. Too much focus is given on what we do not have rather than we have. Tough times do not last, but tough people do" - Adapted from The Star Online

Thank you so much for giving me this blessed life. Thank you, Allah.

Favourite girls in the world

2011-09-05T11:44:00.001+08:00

Went to an Iftar with Eya, Nabila, Hanis, Elin and Aimi. Met Nabila (pakai glasses) for this first time after 4 years knowing each other from Friendster! :* Agak ah lame, stay kelate sesame tapi tak jumpa, mak oih malu okay! ^^ And yesh, jumpa schoolmate, Aimi, my pweetty Hanis yang dah lama tak jumpa, and Elin, new girlfriend Hihi pweetyyy okay diorang ni :D Agak ah, kita pakai hijab macam sakai, tertarik sampai ke atas D; Nasib tak obvious sangat. Kena lebih hati-hati lain kali bila pakai hijab! D;

Selamat Hari Raya ke-6. Maaf Zahir Batin x

Siapa lagi penting selain Ibu?

2011-08-14T18:22:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt (tak jawab dosa, kalau jawab dapat pahala :p)

Alhamdulillah dah masuk hari ke-14 puasa! Puasa penuh tak? Tak penuh tak moleh duit raya :p
So today, nak share story sikit. It's a true story, semoga boleh jadi pedoman buat semua yang degil-degil dengan mak tu, tak degil dah. Insya-Allah.

Dia ni student and result mid-term dia hari tu agak lah teruk which aku tak tahu dia dapat berapa A. So, dia and other students yang dapat rendah kena panggil dengan pengetua sekali dengan parents untuk majlis konsultasi and try to figure out what they can do to help these students to achieve in studies. So, ibu dia ni ibu tunggal. Bapa dia baru je meninggal. So, her mother bawak motosikal from Setiu, Terengganu all the way to Kota Bharu which is about 100+ kilometres lah jugak just untuk hadir Majlis Konsultasi dengan pihak sekolah sebab anak dia tak dapat result bagus.

After Majlis Konsultasi tu, a few days later ada Majlis Berbuka Puasa dengan pelajar asrama. So, mak dia stay rumah saudara sebab taknak ulang-alik jauh kan. Pengetua invited her personally and nak jugak mak dia datang sebab nak bagi sumbangan atas kegigihan mak dia datang all the way from Setiu. So, bila Majlis berbuka puasa tu, mak dia tak datang. Later on, pengetua figured why mak dia tak dapat datang. Rupanya, mak dia keguguran bayi sebab bawak motosikal jauh sangat, alone, all the way from setiu to Kota Bharu just untuk hadir perjumpaan ibu bapa untuk bincang hal anak dia. Masya-Allah. Hebatnya pengorbanan seorang ibu.

Agak sebak aku bila dengar cerita tu. Ya Allah. Macam tu sekali pengorbanan seorang ibu sehingga keguguran bayi dalam kandungan just sebab bawak motosikal nak hadir perjumpaan ibu bapa dengan pengetua. Kalau aku lah jadi budak tu, sampai mati aku takkan dapat maafkan diri sendiri sebab aku tak belajar betul-betul sampai result teruk, mak kena hadir perjumpaan dengan pengetua nak bincang result aku and keguguran. Aku akan rasa, aku yang buat adik aku mati. Ya Allah, semoga jasad bayi tu ditempatkan di Syurga. Amin.

So korang, jangan ingat kita belajar ni, kita dapat result teruk ni, diri kita sahaja yang kena affect. Orang lain especially parents lagi lah. Kadang-kadang sebelum buat sesuatu, kita kena fikir apa kesannya kepada orang lain. Kalau kau tak belajar, tak terkesan kepada orang lain, dan kau sendiri pun tak kisah then its fine tapi masalahnya tak. Alangkah kecewanya seorang ibu kan. Insya-Allah, mungkin ada hikmah di sebalik semua ni. Kalau that girl tetap tak berubah lepas apa yang jadi, aku tak tahu lah. Keras sangat kah hati tu?

Cuba muhasabah diri sebab bila kita muhasabah diri, kita menghindarkan diri kita daripada segala perkara yang keji. Kalau dah rasa nak jugak lawan mak, tak nak jugak belajar (macam aku :p), nak jugak ikut boyfriend, cubalah tenung wajah mak bila dia tengah tidur. Tenung dengan hati yang lapang, fikiran yang kosong tanpa sebarang kekusutan. Insya-Allah akan terdetik di hati tu, sedikit pun tetap akan ada, sayangnya dekat mak, kasihnya dekat mak, ingat segala pengorbanan mak. (I got this tip from my chinese teacher)

Kasih Ibu membawa ke syurga. Bila Ibu redha, insya-Allah, Allah pasti redha.

Semoga kisah ni beri pengajaran buat kita semua di bulan yang mulia ni. Piss ^^V

Salam Ramadhan

2011-07-31T18:39:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum (tak jawab dosa, kalau jawab dapat pahala :p)
Salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak buat semua umat Islam di Malaysia mahupun dunia. Alhamdulillah masih panjang umur untuk menyambut Ramadhan bulan penuh keberkatan pada tahun ni. Tak tahu pulak tahun depan kita sempat ke tak kan. Selawat dan Salam ke atas Rasulullah SAW

Ramadhan datang menjenguk kembali so here are a few tips to stay fit, energetic, healthy and full of barakah

1. Baca Quran.
   - Baca sebanyak mana yang mampu dan biar consistent. Nasihat kepada yang baru nak mula beribadat, lakukan secara moderate. Sedikit tetapi berterusan lebih baik daripada banyak tetapi jarang-jarang :)

2. Senaman
- Bukanlah maksudnya bersenam sampai separuh mati, tengok adik kecil minum ais kosong pun air liur meleleh. Keluarlah meronda keliling rumah, hirup udara segar sambil menunggu waktu berbuka. Kalau asyik tidur dalam rumah sebab terlalu lapar pun makruh jugak okay! ;)

3. Sahur yang berkhasiat
- Okay, I'm not sure if this is good for you people, but selalunya kalau sahur, aku minum air yang manis lah macam milo panas or kalau suka horlicks then horlicks pun boleh. Kita perlukan glucose (sugar) sebagai tenaga sepanjang hari kita berpuasa. so takde lah lesu dan tidak bersemangat. Remember, bangun sahur babes!

4. Malam Lailatul Qadar
   - malam yang lebih baik daripada seribu bulan. so buatlah amal ibadat sebanyak-banyaknya (nasihat untuk diri sendiri juga :p) Insya-Allah semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih bermakna dengan Allah memberikan ganjaran berlipat kali ganda.

5. Membazir
   - Jangan nak membazir sangat bila pergi bazaar ramadhan oteh! ;) Ni mesti semua dah siap baju raya en. Aku jugak tak buat baju raya tahun ni, so yeah just guna tahun lepas punya je. Jangan membazir okay :)

For more tips online check out this video or google it! ;)

Tudung dan lovebite

2011-07-29T18:26:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt. (tak jawab dosa, kalau jawab dapat pahala :p)
Agak ah title nak mengancam, nak set injuksi ape ke benda untuk menarik semua makhluk tuhan baca post ni. Ceh ceh agak ah :p So tadi time tengah tengok Princess Hour (cerita lama) search matluthfi dekat youtube. Lama dah tak tengok si Mat tu dekat YouTube. Apa khabar orang Aussie agaknya? cewah, Orang Aussie tew! Ternampak pulak seorang awek ni (rupanya dah lama rakyat Malaysia start Vlogging) Pergh agak ah en. cool pulettew. Tak syioknyew views sikit sangat! So, apakeheinyew title nak menarik perhatian sangat ni?

Agak ah ada jugak manusia zaman sekarang pakai tudung tutup lovebites. Ewah, apa ke bodoh kau ni? Agak ah en, kau nak pakai tudung, leklu, sapkoklu aaa. Niat pun dah tak betul, astaghfirullahalazim. Memang ada yang kena gigit sampai ropong leher tu kang. Seperti yang awek dalam video tu cakap, kau tak sedar ke apa yang kau buat ni sudah menjatuhkan maruah mereka-mereka muslimah yang memakai tudung dengan niat kerana Allah swt. Kau dah la buat dosa dengan lovebites haram jadah tu, lagi nak pakai tudung nak tutup. waklu. Tahu pulak malu, takut dengan mak. aku sebat karang. Disebabkan kau, dan mereka-mereka yang konon bertudung, habis tercalar maruah kami-kami yang bertudung dengan muka tak bersalah ni.

Agak ah sebab tu ada status kutuk perempuan bertudung. Rupanya disebabkan golongan macam ni lah, kami dipandang rendah. Dipandang rendah macam mana? Alkisahnya ada kawan aku ni, pakai purdah dan jubah memang macam minah Arab Timur Tengah la en, keluar pergi Allamanda, terserempak dengan mereka-mereka yang jahil agama ni kan, slumber badak je cakap "eleh pakai purdah sebab style lettew" ewah sedapnya mulut. Memang sedap mulut kau bercakap tu yang semua jantan dah try comolot dengan kau tu en. Kita jangan pandang hina kepada golongan yang menurut perintah Allah. Jangan nak hina sangat lah kan. Dah tak cukup lagi ke dosa kau pakai baju kain tak cukup tu, nak menghina golongan yang menurut perintah Allah ni? Dah rasa diri kau tu baik sangat? Takpe, janji sembahyang. Aah, semua pun sembahyang, even yang sembahyang penuh khusyuk ni pun masih takut dengan azab Allah, kau buat slumber badak je? Kau ingat kau ni boleh masuk syurga macam tu je, macam dalam kisah nabi yang pelacur dapat masuk syurga hanya kerana ihsan terhadap binatang ataupun wanita yang melakukan zina tetapi insaf dan mengadu kepada Rasulullah tapi tak sempat kerana ajalnya sudah tiba sebaik sahaja dia melahirkan anak? Kita manusia biasa.

Memang geram gak ah kan, tak kata semua yang pakai tudung ni confirm punyalah bau syurga, tak kata jugak semua yang tak pakai tudung ni confirm tak cium syurga, neraka jahanam lah jawabnya. Tak jugak kan. Mana tahu, Allah berikan Hidayah, daripada tak pakai tudung kepada pakai dan ada juga Allah tarik Hidayah daripada pakai kepada tak pakai. So sebelum nak mengata agak ah dulu en, seperti entry aku sebelum ni. Aku malas nak ulas panjang lah en. Janganlah disebabkan seorang yang pakai tudung sebab lovebites, habis kau post status mencaci sana sini kata perempuan bertudung itu ini blablabla. Aku memang respect ah minah ni even video dia tak famous macam anwar hadi ke matluthfi ke apa en, but still opinion dia tu sangat berguna *clap clap*

Apa lagi? mari ramai-ramai share video dia, insya-Allah bila kita share benda berguna, Allah pun bagi ganjaran tak putus-putus dekat kita en. Mari mari mari!

~~(Agak ah entry aku lately pasal tudung je en)~~

Kenapa post status kutuk orang bertudung?

2011-07-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt (tak jawab dosa, kalau jawab dapat pahala :p)

So, I have always wanted to update this entry but never had the chance. So I squeezed in my time to actually post this.

"Kenapa kutuk orang bertudung"

So yeah itu satu persoalan di situ. Why baby why? I've seen people posted status on their facebook "Orang pakai tudung sekarang sebab style je" MasyaAllah. Kalau kau dah jahil sangat, jangan sampai membabi buta buat statement tak tentu pasal. Itu adalah urusan Allah dengan setiap hambanya. Who the hell are you to judge if someone is wearing tudung just for style and fashion? I wear tudung and I have my style. So whut? Tidakkah kau fikir bila orang baca status kau, boleh beri kesan yang cukup besar kepada mereka? Kalau nak tegur, tegur elok-elok. Tidak perlu buat status dan kutuk kami yang bertudung.

Kau tahu niat dia ke? Kau tuhan ke? Kau nak marah sangat kenapa? kau jealous dia lawa pakai tudung, kau tak pakai kau tak lawa? Tiada siapa marah kau nak pakai tudung atau tidak, tapi di sini ingin ditegaskan, menutup aurat adalah WAJIB. Faham-faham sendiri sahajalah. Even if seseorang tu mula pakai tudung just sebab style dan fashion Malaysia zaman sekarang, so whut? Allah tahu apa yang terbaik buat hambanya. Eh kau ingat orang pakai tudung ni sesaje je ke? sampai ke mati pakai tudung tapi tak tahu apa-apa? Bila seseorang yang pada mulanya pakai tudung hanya untuk style, lama-kelamaan akan timbul rasa keinsafan dalam diri sendiri untuk cuba ubah niat pakai tudung kerana taat kepada Allah, niat ikhlas semata-mata kerana Allah swt.

Tidak rasa malukan anda, anda mahupun anda mengutuk orang pakai tudung tak tentu pasal. Kenapa nak marah sangat orang pakai tudung ni? Kenapa nak marah sangat? Yesss, aku tahu, sebab kau rasa annoying gila tengok di facebook ramai bebeno en pakai tudung lilit sana sini sampai nak tercabut leher pun ada. Kau rasa annoying bila orang ikut trend dan style? Kenapa tak marah lelaki-lelaki handsome di luar sana yang cuba tiru style kpop? Kenapa tak marah mat-mat dan meminah rempit yang beralih arah daripada merempit dengan motor kepada fixie? kenapa tak marah mereka-mereka yang mula main lomo, konon nak style sebagainya sedangkan lomo dah lama ada? Kenapa tak marah mereka yang beli dslr camera sebab memember lain ada seorang setiap satu? Kenapa nak marah kepada kami yang cuba untuk berubah, selangkah mendekati tuhan kami, iaitu Allah swt. Kau tahu ke apa niat kitorang pakai tudung? Apa pun niatnya, itu adalah urusannya dengan Allah swt.

I have a friend yang dulu memang seksi gila, post gambar dekat facebook memang nampak habis semua gunung, lurah, longkang, kolam air, takungan air dan sebagainya. Now Alhamdulillah dah bertudung. Even if dia bertudung untuk style ke apa (wallahualam) itu adalah urusannya dengan Allah, Allah sahaja yang tahu. Korang nak sibuk buat apa? Daripada tambah dosa mengutuk orang yang cuba untuk menjaga auratnya, baik cermin dulu diri. Oh korang tak pakai tudung, tak ikut trend lah? Aha memang bagus ah, trend fixie, trend dslr, trend ambil gambar dalam toilet pavillion semua korang ikut. Bagus, bagi tepukan.

Tidak dapat disangkal, ada kekurangannya orang pakai tudung ni yang menyebabkan korang kutuk like "pakai je tudung, baju singkat" Daripada kutuk begitu, baik mendoakan semoga Allah buka pintu hatinya dan kita juga untuk betul-betul menutup aurat mengikut ajaran sebenar. Kan kita nak dapat pahala atas dunia ni untuk bekalan hari akhirat. Ni tidak, bukan je dapat dosa kutuk, dapat dosa sebab diri sendiri tak tutup aurat pulak tu. Aku tidak sempurna, aku tahu, tapi percayalah, bila nak pilih baju, dalam hati rasa sangat takut dengan azab Allah, selalu fikir, aku tutup aurat ni dah sempurna ke? Betul-betul mengikut arahan Allah ke? Macam mana kalau aku mati dalam keadaan yang tidak sempurna bila tutup aurat? Even aku masih tidak sempurna sekarang, tolong sama-sama mendoakan semoga terbuka pintu hatiku ini, moga aku dapat menerima hidayah Allah, menjadi kekasihNya, yang sentiasa dipeliharaNya daripada segala keburukan. Bukan mengutuk.

Insya-Allah semoga mereka-mereka yang hanya pakai tudung sebab style tu akan berubah niatnya ikhlas semata kerana Allah swt. Sama-samalah kita muhasabah diri sendiri, tegur-menegur kalau ada yang silap supaya dapat diperbetulkan. Doakan semoga kita semua akan lebih berusaha untuk menjadi hamba yang taat.

CONTEST : VINTAGE STYLE

2011-07-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

Evening people!
So yesterday, a friend asked me to join a style contest online. I had never join a contest before so this is my first time! I am just trying my luck. The rules are to get as many likes as you can as participants.

So I am trying to be optimistic here! Could you help me by voting my photo? Ask your friends to help me by voting too! Tell me privately if you vote so that I could thanked you guys properly and personally :D I am quite embarassed to ask each of one from my friends list to vote :/ so I posted on twitter, two of my facebook accounts and now blog! So keep voting voting and voting! :')

Here's the guide
1. Like this page --> http://www.facebook.com/pages/Miss-vintage-Shop/137107643026564
2. Like my photo, I am participant Number 23 --> http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=164484620288866&set=a.163914790345849.38350.137107643026564&type=1

I am so thrilled to get all the positive comments regarding the style. Thank you to Syuha for personally posted a picture of me on her tumblr! :') Love you baby x
http://syuhafaizal.tumblr.com/post/7610597570/meet-nadiha-3-and-i-do-wanna-be-like-her-muah

SO KEEP VOTING KEEP VOTING!

Not stealing nor being stolen.

2011-07-08T14:37:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt
How are you guys doing everyone? :')

So, at last sports day has ended last wednesday which meant we could focus on our studies and trials and finally, SPM! This is dreading me, seriously. I don't think I have enough pressure in me to push me forward and boost up my level of study and rajinness .______.

Allamanda lost in fourth place (last place) in sports day, but managed to be the Top 2 for overall curricular activities throughout the year 2011 just by 1-point! Imagine, 1 point and we were in second place. Though It's a bit frustrating, but me as the vice prez for Allamanda house was really proud and I was really sure, all the members were too. Thanks to our hardworking prez, Koman for all your ideas, inspirations, hard work, times for all the preparations. I wasn't being a good vice prez, was I? Thanks to all our members, our marching members, the athletes, the juniors for cheering, supporting. Thank you so so so much!

Though, there were some issues going on between the houses teams, please remember that we are all friends forever, nothing could come in between us, you guys are the apple to my pie, straw to my berry, Nadi to my Ha. You girls completed me. I'm sobbing while writing this, 'cause this will be the final year of me enjoying sports day with friends, juniors and teachers. I'm ending my senior high soon and will make another step forward to college years.

With this, I would like to say a few words. No one is stealing no one. May be, the fact that our athletes, and other athletes from other houses backed out from their original houses and went to other houses instead. No one is stealing no one. I would say, those were such cowards to stay and lose with their teams. They fear to lose. They would go to the one who always win, because they were longing for wins. They didn't have the spirit to do their best for the sake of their team and despite losing or winning, they would always be there, just being there with their teams and face the reality together. I am proud to say that, even if Allamanda always get the fourth place in sports day, our members are always there, just being there, cheering and supporting.

I am thankful for this year's winning and for all the hardwork from our athletes, you know how much Didi loves you :') ♥

Allamanda, Jacaranda, Camelia, Evergreen We are girlfriends forever ♥

A porn post (halamak!)

2011-06-24T16:27:00.000+08:00

This will be only a quick and short post. (well, I hope so!)

I wrote a porn line in my english essay for my half-term exam. Yes, I did. Not really emphasize on porn nor did I write about orgasm or sexual organs but still led to porn.

I wrote a porn line and Madam Nani marked it as awkward. Awk-bloody-ward.
I regretted on even wrote the very first plot from the beginning. So please pardon me for my awk-almostpornline-ward, Madam Nani. I will try to think of some other, inspired and petite plots to begin with.

Till then people, miss you guys lots! x

Expectations

2011-06-07T19:09:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone! How are you guys doing? I'm doing really great except the fact that I got extra tanned skin thanks to sukbel. Okay, snap. I wasn't always this polite when writing on blog. I have never been polite. Yes. Ne-vah. What are you expecting? ..

So today I would like to say something about expectations. seriously, most of you had had expectations on someone. someone you loved, something valuable, or just something random. I will share my story here out of many examples.

Remember the post below when I posted about the camp I went to? Well, here it goes. Someone I met at the camp told me over IM that he was so jealous of all my photos, the way I edited it and he had never had a thought of me being a violinist. Ha. That was the respond to the first impression that I gave him during the whole-week-camp. I was being real mess, I had no voice to talk, I wore stupid top and only Red crescent t-shirts, and never-ever-ever wore jeans (well, that because I hadn't bring any..) So whenever people bumped into me, I gave them the expressions that I'm ugly (true fact) I'm a mess, I'm a kampung girl from Kelantan and will never get on the same level like those from outside Kelantan.

After what he had told me over IM the past few days, I had a thought. I told myself that this guy had no high expectations on me. What I meant was, this guy had never put any high expectations on me seeing me in that condition with tanned skin, tracksuit, jumper, converse shoe. He hadn't expected me to be the other, much cooler way, the way I am on facebook (here, I would like to say, I am ugly in real life) with my pictures, and me being a violinist. I would say, he had expected me to look slightly worse on facebook than what he saw on my facebook. I have always give people wrong first impression. Like, really wrong through my appearance and normally for second impression, they have always expected me to look real dumb with stupid outfit. But I didn't though. I am cool, I am smart, I am fun to be with, I laugh a lot, I dress up to kill (big fat liar)

So I gave him the wrong first impression. I have always enjoyed having to appear more than what people expected so that they won't underestimate me in the end. It's cool to know that people's expectations or impressions on you are wrong. It's great to know that your level are much more higher than their expectations. So the conclusion is, for me, it is okay to give people wrong first impressions though some people say, first impressions are really really really important. C'mon people, this is life. I enjoy this way, and then I crashed their expectations with something they would never thought of. Wasn't that really cool? And then, those people would turn their heads on you and would be able to smash their heads that not everyone was as bad as what they had imagined nor expected. I would never say that I wasn't being the real me in real life nor on the net. I am me, it's just that the impressions I gave them were wrong.

Muka hitam, semua hitam

2011-06-05T10:20:00.002+08:00

Akhirnya sampai jugak ke rumah! Alhamdulillah. seminggu tak jumpa rumah, tak jumpa bilik, tak jumpa toilet, tak jumpa shower, sedih kemain okay. Pergi camping macam tak pergi. Mandi hari-hari jugak. kalau dulu pergi camping 3 hari, dua kali je mandi. ni hari-hari. Jangan cakap okay jangan cakap. Eventho sukbel tahun ni tak best macam tahun lepas (orang kata lew) still happy bebeno ni! Banyak betul pondok-pondok (crushes) Time nak balik pun sempat lagi jumpa pondok baru. Budak Maahad pulak tew. hikhok.

Paling best, jumpa aweks korea. Eventho tak rapat dengan aku (sebab aku pemalu) and rapat dengan orang lain, k aku jealous bebeno ni, tapi boleh lah. Kenal jugak lew kan :> Juniors aku pulak boleh pergi menggedik dengan abang senior semua. okay okay, muka lawa, cun pulettew boleh lew. lek luuuuuuuu. Sikit tak heran bukan handsome sangat pun :> sesuai lah dengan taste kau tu ngehngeh. semoga bahagia adik-adik :)

Banyak benda nak cerita, tapi tak boleh nak cerita tsk tsk. eksaited bebeno agaknya :) Tak perlu cerita panjang-panjang, ni list crush kitorang :>

J MALAYSIA
GK
J KOREA
SPAIN
BNB
MR POWER
MR INCREDIBE
PB
IG
SEULONG 2AM
NOH HUJAN

cukup lettew setakat tu. Nama-nama crush hanya dapat ditulis dalam shortforms sebab senang untuk mengumpat. Mana dia tahu kan kita tengah cakap pasal dia. Hikhok :> Dalam banyak-banyak crush, satu pun tak tersangkut dengan aku. okay. okay. okay. sedih ni! Mintak facebook aku pun tak, email jauh sekali. Aku je ke sana ke mari pergi mintak. Mak oii, tak malu betul -________- Ah kisah apa aku, member je pun semua lek luuuuuuuu.

Aim aku ke sukbel sebab nak jumpa abang Korea. so yessssss, I found him! memang obses gila shit punya. stalk dia 24 hours, tak jumpa dia memang akan rindu and guess whut? Kitorang tidur dalam surau sama time khemah banjirrrrrrrr :> kauhado kauhado? rugi pulak tak pakai selipar dia time dia tidur tu. tsk tsk menyesal tak sudah lagi ni alahai. This is my J ♥

Abang korea saya ni memang sombong gila tahap gaban -____- menyampah lah ai tsk tsk yang paling tak puas hati, abang Noh Hujan baik dengan abang Korea saya! Siap pakai jacket abang Korea saya. It should be me, it should be me! Untunglah jadi Noh Hujan, boleh kawan dengan abang Korea, awek Korea, semua Korea. terkensot lah hati macam ni. Saranghae J ♥

My pwetty Jee Won-ah. She's so sweet and dia suka Big Bang! haha :p Tu nasib aku tak keluarkan segala ilmu kpop yang aku ada haha

This is Mr Seulong 2AM haha stalk dia gila habis sebab muka dia macam Seulong 2AM. Ong Ajibaem! XD

Abang Brunei, adik Brunei, and Akak Philipines heheh :p keluarga Brunei nampak je macam ni, tapi $$$$ penuh di dalam poket okay! :>

Nampak tak tu? nampak tak nampak tak? okay bukan abang hijau, but abang Putih. That's our GK! Serious dia handsome, mula-mula memang menyampah tengok dia, rasa nak terjun lombong pun ada. Lama-lama okay lah pulak, makin tengok, makin macho, makin tengok makin.. okay dah diam. Go leader go! Nanti kita lepak sama okay GK

Abang photo yang memang dah menyampah selalu amik gambar kitorang, memang takde muka lain selain muka kitorang. Hampeh. Macam kita tak perasan lettew abang photo selalu lari bila nampak kita x)

Abang Domo yang sesat dari mana pun tak tahu. Abang Domo, ada orang minat abang Domo ngehngeh :p Dia perasan dia handsome, tapi memang handsome pun, tapi tak sehandsome abang Korea saya, tapi boleh lah hahaha :p

Boleh nak nangis tak sebab rindu Sukbel? Boleh nak nangis? kbye nak nangis xoxo

NOTE:

GGG: Geng Gila Gege
GG: Geng Gege
GTS: Geng Tong Sampah
BG: Budak Ganu
J Malaysia: Jason from Perak
J: Abang Korea
SPAIN: Budak Selangor
BK: Budak Kambing
BNB: Budak Nak Basuh
FA: Budak takut kalah piala FA
MR POWER: Abang pakai spek
MR INCREDIBLE: Abang pakai baju incredible
PB: Pondok Brunei
SD: Sek Dulang
AZ: Adik Zaim/Abang Zaliza
Seulong: budak MRSM PC
Noh Hujan: Abang Noh Hujan yang pakai skinny

Muka ketat #punmoleh

2011-05-24T21:09:00.005+08:00

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai
Yes yes yes yes yes! Dah lama jugak aku berceloteh sana sini nak buat cover segala bagai dengan aku main violin and nyanyi bla-bla-bla, alhamdulillah siap jugak wohoooooooo!

Aku pergi rumah Teesha yang terlampau besar (kereta sumpah banyoks) and we did a cover in her room! ce teka ce teka lagu apa. Atototot :') It's Light Writing by Liyana Fizi. Kitorang ada ubah sikit melody and tempo so hope you like it! This is my first cover with Teesha Z. (the most awesome acoustic guitarist) and we will be performing on Teacher's Day! Watooooot gempaks gilew kan kan kan x) Sorry muka aku ketat semacam, macam baru lepas minum kopi janda, penuh kedut and excuse me for my bad-figure teeth haha lolz. I know right, that's why I'm uglaaaayhh. Suara pun sumpah macam hape tak sedap gila siel
-______- tapi kan, sebab aku tak malu, aku nak kata suara aku sedap jugak ;p

Kalau korang suka video ni, "like" post ni bebanyak tauuu! :) Kalau korang extra baik, view video ni on YouTube and "like" okay! Really hope you do so :)

This cover is especially for those people who have been encouraging me to pursue my violin lesson. Love you guys x

This is the link

Best regards and xoxo

Teesha Z. & Didy R.

p.s I rewrite the violin notes myself by listening to the original song by Liyana Fizi. Sorry for the wrong notes

Tahniah ah

2011-05-23T22:29:00.004+08:00

Tahniah ah sebab kau buat aku nangis. Tak memasal pulak aku nangis sebab kau. Biarpun takde lah setsot sana sini tapi still..

Untuk pertama kali dalam hidup aku, aku harap kau mampos. Aku seriously harap kau mampos, jangan kacau hidup aku lagi. Aku dah delete dua-dua account kau, aku unfollow kau kat twitter. Mampos ah wei nak kata aku sensitive tahap udang pun. suka hati aku lew sebab nya kau memang penyampah. Maaflah aku bodoh. Maaflah aku tak faham apa makna hipster. Maaflah aku tak faham apa makna Δ yang aku rasa takde apa maksud bagi aku pun. Dah aku rasa memang takda maksud lain yang tersirat mahupun tersurat.

Kau ni kenapa sebenarnya? Kau ada masalah ape dengan aku? memang mampos ah jangan harap ah aku akan cakap apa-apa lagi. Memang patut ah kau macam gila talak dekat awek kau sendiri. Bagus, aku harap ex kau kembali dekat kau lah, kawan. Aku doa yang terbaik.

Aku macam tak sangka jugak lah kau perangai macam ni, wahai seseorang itu. Maybe dengan aku je kot. Semua anggap kau baik semacam, tapi aku tak tahu kenapa, kau macam suka sangat jadi sarcastic gila dengan aku. Benda itulah, benda inilah. Yes, kau bijak, kau memang pandai. Entah, aku just harap kau dua orang boleh get lost cepat-cepat. Aku tak pandai macam kau kan kan, mana kawan dengan orang pandai macam kau do. Cikgu semua pandang kau, mana pandang aku ni kan. Semoga kau bahagia, berjaya dunia akhirat, kawan. Dah memang confirm pun kan, takkan budak pandai merempat tepi jalan. Lain lah macam aku.

Semoga bahagia korang dan jangan kacau aku lagi sebab aku dah penat sangat dah.
Tengok lah satu hari nanti, biarpun aku tak berapa pandai, tapi usaha tu tetap ada. Semoga aku dapat kalahkan kau nanti.

p.s Aku taknak kau mampos. kbai. nak sambung nangis

Reply: carutan untuk minah bertudung urban

2011-05-20T20:50:00.001+08:00

http://www.loveydoveydoo.com/2011/04/carutan-untuk-minah-bertudung-urban.html

Hai kak. Dah habis dah mencarut? ke nak mencarut lagi. silakan silakan. Okay dah. Diam

Okay, kak. Kalau pasal yang pakai tudung macam "Hana Tajima, berselimut, sedar lah sikit muka Jawa" tak puas hati baca sini

Dah, beres? okay akak. Akak ni, bikin mengundang lah kan. Mencarut tahap maksima. Nasib ada agama lagi, sedar pulak nak ke neraka. kk tapi kita sebagai Hamba takkan lah aim nak ke neraka ye dak? Agama jangan buat main, syurga neraka pun jangan kk.

Ramai jugak yang terangkat jugak dengan post akak ni. Ada yang terasa, ada yang cebih balik, ada yang iyekan, ada yang marah sebab rude sangat. Fuuuuu #punmoleh Wahai hijabers sekalian, biasalah tu kalau orang dah marah, habis semua nak keluar. rude tak rude belakang cerita. So kita terima pandangan orang, baru orang terima pandangan kita. so lepak chill lah k hijabers? :') Taknak marah-marah lagi

Aku suka post akak ni sebab sentuh pasal orang bertudung tapi tak tutup aurat. Alhamdulillah even before akak post lagi, aku dah pastikan yang aku tutup bahagian dada semua. Cuma zaman dulu-dulu, jahil lagi memang tak kisah ah kan. Maaf -___- True lah kan, cuba fikir, kalau uolls pakai tudung, tapi pakai lengan pendek, tak ke malu tu nampak bulu-bulu lengan semua? Ada pulak yang pakai tudung tapi rambut terjuntai dekat belakang. Fuuuuu style wempitz weng weng lah ni. Wempitz pun nak pakai tudung jugak kk tapi at least ikat lah rambut tu, masukkan dalam tudung ke anak tudung ke, baru orang tak kata kita ni jahil. Aku bagi setempek atas muka, kau jahil tahupun nak marah tapi mentaliti tu rendah sangat beb. Jangan nampak diri kita ni buta agama sangat sampai tak tahu.

Sanggul tinggi-tinggi pun tak boleh jugak. Selalunya orang yang pakai tudung Ariani tu seriously uolls kan muda, kenapa nak pakai tudung macam tu? yess, sebab senang kan. Kalau aku, baik pakai tudung bawal, lagi selesa :') Dah lah sanggul tinggi, nampak sangat nak tunjuk rambut tu. Cuba uolls fikir, orang sanggul tinggi ni mesti lah rambut panjang kan? Kira orang yang sanggul tinggi ni eventhough pakai tudung, tapi orang boleh tahu rambut setakat mana. No point lah akak oii pakai tudung. Ada pulak cerita sanggul sebab pakai bun palsu//wig. Kan dah tahu hukum menyambungkan rambut. Oh tak tak, tak sambung, tempek je. Aku penampo karang. Kalau nak pakai wig//bun palsu baik tak payah pakai terus lah akak. Sama je. Kau pakai ke tak pakai ke sama.

Bukan sebab aku ni dah pious sangat, nak komen orang pakai tudung bagai "macam lah kau perfect sangat Nadiha pakai tudung" tapi sebagai peringatan untuk diri sendiri dan juga orang lain agar tidak dicaci oleh insan-insan yang melihat. Orang tak kata apa, tapi dalam hati ya Allah berbakul-bakul. Kalau uolls menyampah aku buat post stock good-good ni, haa jangan baca. Biar jadi peringatan untuk aku sesorang je. So insya-Allah, kita masih tergolong dalam kalangan orang yang soleh//solehah.

NOTE:

Maaf kepada sesiapa yang rasa "elehkauberlagakalimsemacamjekan"
Sekadar peringatan sesama sendiri. Hope tiada yang kisah :')
Setiap orang diberi peluang untuk berubah kearah yang lebih baik. so lepak chill.

Tak gentle ah bro

2011-05-20T19:49:00.000+08:00

Kau tahu dude. Aku dah penat dengan kau sebenarnya. Kau suruh aku text kau, kau suruh aku call, lepas tu kau cakap "eh text kau later bye" apobondopunyasialshityangkaubuatdekatakuni

Dear dude, aku pun takde masa nak call kau. Aku tak contact, aku yang sombong. Masalahnya bila aku call, kau memang taknak cakap dengan aku pun. Kau kenapa? Kau rasa panas macam nak mati ke kalau cakap dengan aku? Sebenarnya apa motif kau suruh aku call kau ni? Kau nak buat aku nampak macam perempuan terhegeh-hegeh ke? Fyi, aku ada ego kk. Kau kalau dah tak contact aku, tak contact ah. Apedehal nak mencanang sana sini aku sombong. Rasa best eh bila post dekat wall aku macam tu. Aah memang aku sombong, aku kan ~~cantik~~, mestilah aku sombong. pui setempek aku bagi dekat kau.

Kau dah lah member aku tapi jangan ah buat macam ni. Kau rasa aku takde perasaan ke. Kita kawan je lama tapi kau tak tahu langsung aku macam mana. Fyi dude, aku paling susah nak call orang. Aku selesa call orang yang aku kenal rapat, yang aku kamceng, yang aku cakap aku ko, yang aku boleh cakap sesuka hati. Kau pulak dah buat macam ni. Mengundang jugak lah bro. Senang cerita bro, kau jangan kata aku sombong tak text tak call tak apabagaishitjadahharam tu kk. Tak gentle ah bro.

Kau panggil aku pukimak?

2011-05-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

Hai perempuan. Kau panggil aku pukimak? nasib aku dah unfollow kau, kalau tak memang nahas kau, famous free free je kan kalau aku printscreen tweet kau yang terakhir tu. Kau ni dah kenapa? Aku RT tweet kau pun tak boleh? kau pun RT jugak tweet tu kan. susah hidup kalau nak guna twitter tapi nak maki orang tak tentu pasal. Apesal? kau ingat aku lahap sangat nak follow kau? Apehal? kau rasa kau cantik? weh tulis nama sendiri pun berterabur lagi. Kau perempuan kan, ada ke letak B. kat situ. Binti lah bodoh.

Kau memang silap hari ni panggil aku bitch pukimak betina tak pasal-pasal. Ada aku kacau kau ke? kau terasa apehal? oh baru aku tahu sebab aku salah faham tweet kau kan. Meh aku tunjuk apa yang aku salah faham yang buatkan kau tu nak maki tak tentu pasal sangat. Ingat cantik lah muka kau tu? #fuuuuuuuuuu baik kau diam sebelum berterabur gigi kau

So ceritanya bermula bila aku sedang sibuk merepek-repek di twitter yang ketika itu sedang hangat trending topic nya --> #thatswhyursingle so aku ternampak lah seorang perempuan ni punya tweet. Aku ingatkan dia RT orang since nampak sign atas tu RT (nama someone) bagai tu. Haaaaa so aku pun RT lah balik dan tambah lah #thatswhyursingle. Dah nama pun kau RT orang, confirm lah aku ingat kau takde kena-mengena sebab aku pun suka RT tak pepasal ni. Boleh pulak dia balas ni?

Aku pun apo lagi. Berasap lah kan #fufufufufufu nak marah ni. Kau memang silap orang nak maki. Aku PMS hari ni. Oh kau bodoh kan. RT pun kau tak tahu ape bende. PMS jauh sekali. PMS means P-R-E-M-E-N-S-T-R-U-A-L-S-Y-N-D-R-O-M-E. kau install masuk dalam pale otak kau yang kosong tu sebelum nak maki. Lepas tu aku pun mulakan proses penyiasatan. Aku bukak twitter budak ni. Aku nampak tweet ni. Hah sah confirm korang bertweet sesama sendiri. Tapi apakah yang kau pergi letak RT kat depan tu? Kau reply jelah. Dah rasa jatuh cinta sangat dengan perkataan RT tu yang sampai bukan RT pun kau nak taip RT jugak? #fuuuuuuu mengundang nye minah nieewwww!

Jadi kawan-kawan sekalian, uolls rasa wa salah faham disebabkan apa? Wa tambah #thatswhyursingle macam tu sebab apa? sebab Wa ingat memang takde kena-mengena dengan lu bodoh. Susah nya orang ni hidup kalau sesikit nak pukimak orang. Fuuuuuuuuuuuu hebatnyewwww. Takutnyewww chayewwww. Pukimaks pukimaks pukimaks sanew siniewww titew takowttt minah wempits pukimaks titewww t(--t)

NOTE:

Jangan main suka hati RT orang kita tak kenal nanti jadi macam cik Nadidot ni
Muka cantik perangai --- eh silap, kau tak cantik poooongggg :>
Kalau salah aku, memang aku akan mengaku salah. Masalahnya bukan salah aku kalau aku salah faham bila dia yang memang tak betul somewhere begitu
Uolls budak bebaik, jangan nak ~~berpukimakss~~ sana sini tau :') sayang yeyuolls

Siapa kata tak comel

2011-05-11T20:07:00.000+08:00

THE REASON WHY I HAD ALWAYS DENIED IT

Whenever people complimented me, saying I am cute, I am beautiful, I am pretty, I am gorgeous, I didn't know how to react 'cause I had always thought of those people who would go all coo-coo and said "oh em jay, perasannya minah ni. Puji sikit dah thank you macam diva" I am scared of that kind of monologues they had in them. Seriously, I did.

Yes, I'd act shooo gedik and said thank you thank you macam artis whenever people complimented me, because not all have said that I'm pretty. Not at all freakin times. Not all like my albums up to 400 likes. I have never get 100 likes in thirty minutes after I uploaded my photo on the internet. So let me be in my own world. For once, to let me believe in myself that I look pretty, that I am beautiful, and no one could deny it. People told me that I am beautiful, and yes, I am beautiful in my own way. I am beautiful..

I met a lot of beatiful people on the internet. They are really beautiful and gorgeous in their own special way and praise to Allah who made us all whom we are today ♥ :)

They are a lot of beautiful people yet to be met and I am seriously looking forward to it :)
The pictures are all randomly picked so do not feel offended if you are not featured in here. May Allah bless you all, the beautiful people out there
And please, always remind yourself, no matter how you look, you are really beautiful. Alhamdulillah

Keindahan Pop? Apewtuwww

2011-05-09T17:02:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum (sebelum nak kata apa-apa, kena bagi salam)
Hari ni saya ada peperiksaan. Peperiksaan kertas English Language. Dua pulak tu. Saya tak sempat nak buat section B essay 50marks. Terus skip ending. Rasa nak nangis. Tak tahu apa reaksi Madam Nani bila correct paper. Perhatian kepada anak-anak Madam Nani, anda dinasihatkan supaya berada lebih daripada lingkungan 10 meter. Nanti esok pergi sekolah dengan kepala tiada. I wanna get an A in Madam Nani English class! Enuff. Enuff. let baigonbibaigon #amboiomputeh

Hari ni juga saya mendapat tahu satu berita. Berita yang sangat kelakar gihlewz plahtipussss. Selama ni kita post gambar dekat facebook kita, kutuk sana sini sinun, mencarut habis dalam twitter sebab max247 penyebab segala kekacauan (termasuk geng gila gediks gulew gulew) ghupew-ghupewnyew, salah seorang ahli max247 ada dalam friend list facebook kitew.

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

Lawaknyew, sukew gilew. Kitew kawan dengan artis. #kauhado
Balik sekolah, terus search ____ ____ Oh. em. jay. nyah. Memang dia budak max247 wakakaka~ Kau artis hado aku kisah? kitew wasew diew dah tengok photo walls kitew, penuh dengan gambar group diew, kalau bacew boleh pengsan jugak sebab ramai kutuk diew. Kehkeh.

Weh bos, sini wa mau cite sikit. Kitolang tak kisah lu semua nak buat group ape jadah semua, tapi lu semua satu je silap. Gembar-gembur sana sini, debut (korang debut kew) bawah nama kpop malaysia. fufufufufufufu memang silap besar lah kan! memang silap besar! Geng-geng lu jew yang support lu, tu pun semua buta kpop original. nama lagi kpop. Korean pop. apew jadah pergi Keindahan Pop?! lu cite sama wa. Habis group-group uolls kena bash #kesiannyew Ada jugak yang terpaksa tukar nama sebab sama dengan nama boyfriend aku dari SHINee heh~ heh~

Takpew lew, asal korang bahagia, membew membew wa, like page korang, sebab nak bahan korang banyak-banyak in the end. seriously the best solution is, korang keluar dari industri musik, and debut again as a fresh group with fresh image without plagiarising any styles or genres. korean-pop fanbases are worldwide. I repeat, woooooorrrrllllldddwiideeeeeee.

So, satu jelah silap korang. Korang debut as kpop group Malaysia. We don't have any terms like kpop Malaysia as K stands for Korean. Betulkan fahaman korang dulu. Nasib lah lu member dalam facebook wa, boleh jugak stalk-stalk apa yang kitorang kutuk supaya sedar diri sikit. Kau kata kau tak kisah? Kita tengok setakat mana lu tak kisah bila seluruh kpop fans Malaysia benci kau. Suruh member pavi lu support lu forebah. Kita bukan member. Lu delete wa? #hadoakukesah tapi serious kesian tengok kau dibenci :'(

NOTE:

I have warned you dude, that kpop fanbases are the largest in the world. Do not mess around.
Sooner or later, you will think about the haters too. no matter how you say you don't give a damn
Maaflew, kitew sukew gunew bahasew euww niew. #Harharhar
Aku kurang ajar? Aku cibai? Aku suka kutuk orang? Kau rasa kau hebat sangat Nadiha? --> Ni blog kau ke blog aku. Salah pulak aku nak bagi pendapat. Yess aku sarkastik. Tengok bawah ni, dan fikir :)

http://sparklingawra.tumblr.com/post/5252745159/malaysian-rookies-plagiarize-kpop-idols-suju-2pm

Kurang ajar

2011-05-01T13:21:00.001+08:00

Pernah jadi kurang ajar atau pun pernah dikurang ajarkan? #Apekebendepunyasoalanakuni
Okay dah diam. Tak payah jawab. Kenapa post ni title nya kurang ajar? ce cite ce cite.

Ceritanya begini. Disebabkan sudah lama jugak wa tinggalkan requests wa terbengkalai begitu, tanpa diselerenggara, serabut pulak wa melihatnya. Jadi wa pun approve semua ___ requests yang ada. Okay okay, jom semua jadi kawan aku. hiksss. Wa ni baik orangnya, biarpun sangat sarkastik dan mulut memang tiada insurans, tetapi hati wa baik. Alhamdulillah :p Jadi wa dengan senang hati buka semua profile yang wa approve, then copy and paste ucapan terima kasih (dah kata wa ni baik)

Selepas beberapa hari, adalahlah %^#%$# hamba Allah ni, dia comment wall post terima kasih wa tu. Bukan nak berpura-pura friendly, bagitahu nama ke apa ke kan. Kalau gambar dia cantik macam gambar wa, wa tak kisah lew bro dia nak menyombong tak tentu pasal. Masalahnya, stok gambar 90 degree dari atas bro, lepas tu edit ala-ala wempits. #terimakasihjelew. Sini wa bagi contoh stok-stok muka tak lawa mana tapi sombong tak tentu pasal.

Me: Hiyaa, thanks :)
Minah Sombong: welcome
Me: I'm Didi. hbu :D
Minah Sombong: S___ C___

"S___ C___" sepatah je? takde emoticon, takde soalan friendly?

WOI PEREMPUAN. LU KALAU LU PERASAN LU CANTIK, LU DIVA, LU FAMOUS, LU PUNYA SIBLINGS DALAM FACEBOOK 3 KALI SCROLL PUN TAK HABIS, LU JANGAN NAK GATAL ADD WA YANG TAK CANTIK MACAM LU NI.

Wa memang pantang betul kalau wa je nak make conversation, lu yang macam kapok ni buat menyombong. Weh lu rasa wa nak sangat ke kawan dengan lu dengan muka pun camtu? wa tak cantik? aaah memang wa tak cantik, tapi perangai wa ni cantik lagi dari lu yang 74325483246 kali hodoh dari wa. At least wa friendly, wa tak buat orang rasa awkward, wa try make conversation dengan orang. Wa suka kutuk dalam blog? aah memang wa suka kutuk benda betul kan, blog wa, suke hati mak bapak punya moyang wa lew. Lu kena bayar kew. Memang lu mengundang jugak, sebab lu berperangai diva, wa delete je lu. Sikit pun tak heran, tak rugi satu sen wa. Weh wa tauke lew, lu sapew? Ni yang wa nak ber-euw-euw dengan lu ni. Lu kalau buat perangai macam ni, lu add lew 72482346548 orang pun, takde siapa yang nak kawan dengan lu. Lu kalau gambar stok model, wa tak kisah lew nak menyombong ke hape. Ni haram jadah. Wa rasa wa lagi cantik. Aah wa memang cantik. fufufufu marah? #lantaklew.

NOTE:

Lu kalau muka tak cantik, tapi pandai hormat orang, friendly, lu boleh kawan dengan siapa pun.
Lu kalau muka cantik, tapi sombong tak tentu hala, lu memang tak lama hidup.
So marilah kita maniskan muka, biarpun orang tak nampak, tapi senyum itu sedekah!

Kita pun nak kahwin

2011-04-30T14:08:00.001+08:00

Amboi. kalau mak baca ni, sumpah kena bako.
semua pun nak cite pasal Royal Wedding, aku pun nak join sekali. Hihi
semalam dari pukul 12 tunggu live broadcast Royal Wedding. Oh em jay! Apa yang eksaited sangat nya orang kahwin? Oh em jay, kau takde feeling, kau diam. So rasa nak nangis tengok diorang. seven years of relationship. Oh em jay, just imagine. Kita tujuh minggu pun sebok nak berporeber bagai. Alahai nyah, tolong lew sikit. Kahwin dengan putera raja, tak lama lagi jadi queen. dari orang biasa, yang duduk dekat kampung, jadi queen. sabo jelew. Ni aku duduk kelantan ni, takkan nak kahwin dengan putera sultan Kelantan. oh em jay, putera katak pun tak lepas, deeerrr. Memang semalam aku tweet sampai reach limit, rasa nak tercabut ada je keyboard laptop ni. Yang penting, Prince Harry sangat lawak kalah usop wilcha. Biarpun muka kau ada bintik-bintik, tak cukup matahari, tapi takpe, kau je yang tak kahwin lagi. Sediakan form untuk kahwin dengan kau please, aku nak download banyak-banyak, lepas tu jual.

Kau kata tak romantik? perghh sebab kau punya boipren tak romantik kan. Bayangkan, nak kahwin ni oii. Muka William time tengok Kate, memang tak boleh nak cakap. Macam takde dah awekss lain selain Kate. Aku boleh bayang muka William slumberr je "Aku dah ada bini oii" Haaa bagus, sila buat proses miosis malam ni okay? Tak sabo nyah, anak-anak korang mesti 846242842843 kali ganda handsome dan cunnsss. Boleh lah tu aku cop satu untuk dijodohkan dengan anak ku pula yeah? Harry pulak gatal, expression ko ni semalam, macam nak je curik kakak ipar ko kan. Harry oii, Chelsy tengah tengok dari belakang oii.

Oh em jay, sweeeeeeeeeetnyaaah. Kita yang solo ni, gigit jari jelew. Disebalik semua kegembiraan ni, ada jugak orang tak puas hati dengan aku kan. Weh cibai, facebook aku, suke hati mak bapak punya nenek punya abang punya pakcik punya kakak ipar punya adik punya datuk punya anak punya moyang aku lew aku nak post status pasal William kew, pasal Kate kew, pasal Queen Elizabeth kew, pasal Harry kew. Kau susah apedehal? Aku ganggu pulak hidup kau yang sentiasa nak show off semua benda yang kau ada tu? apekepedehal. Naik menyampah pulew aku dengan kau ni haa. Kisah pulak aku kau pun menyampah dengan aku? bak kata omputeh, u ken go tu heyl la derr.

Time kahwin segala bagai ni lah segala fashion sense keluar. Best pulak aku tengok hats bagai ni. bentuk jam loceng pun ada. Oh em jay, sabo jelew nyah. Apa-apa pun, happy gila ohkayy tengok Royal Couple ni. Rasa nak nangis. Bila pulak orang nak tengok aku dengan pandangan penuh kasih sayang time kahwin macam William tengok Kate? k. Lambat lagi. jangan nak gatal. Have a happy marriage to the new Duke of Cambridge and the Duchess of Cambridge.

For more photos and the long list of guest invited to the Royal Wedding

NOTE:

Me: I wonder what's my future husband doing now?
Future Husband: Woi future wife, kau pergi study lah! Minggu depan exam!
Me: Baik bang.

Apa masalah?

2011-04-29T14:06:00.001+08:00

(K Andez, cibai aku nak gelak tengok gambar ni wakakaka!)

Hari tu Andez post status pasal ni. kk disebabkan terlampau banyak spekulasi, aku sebagai salah sorang yang memakai tudung ingin menyatakan pendapat. ceh ceh :p

Terlebih dahulu, wa nak betulkan sedikit apa yang salah. buat pengetahuan uolls, tiada lagi trend Yuna tetapi Hana Tajima. Walaupun Yuna dan Hana Tajima tu kira besprens, tetapi Hana Tajima lagi menonjol sekarang. Ewah.

So sekarang, wa nak cite lah sikit en. Dulu wanita-wanita, makcik-makcik, nenek-nenek pakai tudung bawal je. Bagi mereka yang memang dah pakai tudung, tahu lah apa jadah tudung bawal tu. bukan ikan bawal. Kenapa diorang bahagia dengan tudung bawal? sebab tudung bawal best, dan sebab dulu tiada Yuna dan tiada Hana Tajima. Kenapa mereka tiada? mengundang jugak soalan ini, kerana mereka belum dilahirkan. Yessss, tapi sekarang Malaysia dah sedikit maju, orang nak pakai tudung pun nak style jugak kan. Bukan orang yang tak pakai tudung je. Jadi apalah salahnya, kalau kita mengikut trend untuk lebih style? Takde lah diri terasa boring dan sangat lame. Bukan sebab nak tarik perhatian ataupun supaya 773284328 lelaki datang beratur sekali petik, tetapi sebab kita pakai tudung, kita ingin tutup aurat, dan kita masih ingin kelihatan style. Siapa kata tudung bawal tak boleh style? Tengok Cik Tati, kan comel tu :>

Bagi mereka yang pakai tudung tapi baju sendat bagaimana? Haa itu pendapat mereka sendiri. Kau jangan tanya aku, kau tanya mereka-mereka itu. Jadi, tak salahkan kalau aku yang pakai tudung ni nak style jugak? Kepuasan diri sendiri itu yang penting. Takde lah selekeh semacam orang tengok, yeshh walaupun aku memang lah mega selekeh. Mereka-mereka yang free hair, pakai apa pun tetap nampak style, tapi mereka yang bertudung ni, nak style pebende, dulu baju lawo-lawo pun takdek. Now dah ada, semua happy kan? Biarpun nak kata, perempuan sekarang memang hdgwidfwddewfgwf sebab mengikut trend, bagi aku no hal deerr, perkara baik bukan? Takkan lah kitorang ni tak leh nampak lebih baik dari sebelumnya kot? uolls ni kepoh betul lew. Pakai tudung style Yuna salah, Hana Tajima salah, tak pakai salah. Apekebendebetullew.

Lagipun, ramai pulak yang dari free-hair sudah bertudung. Macam member-member aku. solat pun penuh. dulu tak, kan bagus tu? Bukan nak kata, bertudung sebab nak ikut trend mementang trend Hana Tajima melanda Malaysia sekarang, tapi mungkin diorang ni fikir, dulu bertudung boring, susah nak style lah apebende lah, sekarang dah boleh, so yeah. Kita tak main dah legging bagai, sekarang zaman long-skirt dan kembali kepada vintage.

So bagi wa, tak salah kalau kita cuba style mereka-mereka yang style dan ubah diri kepada yang lebih baik. Dulu jeans ketatsendatrapatpan(cake)tart, sekarang dah lebih menutup aurat. kan best tu tengok? cantik pun cantik. Fikir lah sendiri, tak kisah lah nak tiru style siapa pun, yang penting diri sendiri selesa. Kalau taknak style kita ditiru orang, duduk dalam rumah dan style depan cermin.

NOTE:

Mak-mak sekarang pakai tudung Ariani tu, ikut trend jugak.
Kita pun suka pakai tudung bawal hikssss

Jualikang

2011-04-27T16:38:00.001+08:00

Orang macam ni memang patut kena bako kan Jae? Aku sumpah tak tahan orang macam ni
kadang-kadang sedih pun ada. macam lu sorang nak spm. macam lu sorang nak jadi doktor. macam lu sorang nak kaya. macam lu sorang nak masuk universiti. macam lu sorang ada mak bapak. kenapa hidup macam ni. kalau lah aku hidup tahun 80's dulu pergh takdenye orang yang hebat-hebat macam sekarang. Korang makan apo je hah? tapi macam tak best pulak lahir tahun 80's kang tuooo, tak dapat lepak depan entrance pavi ngehngeh :p

Ada sesetengah ni memang lah pandai, baik pulak, tapi satu je slack, dia memang takde ciri-ciri berkhidmat untuk masyarakat betul. Serious aku cakap, aku ni tak pandai mana, result pun cukup-cukup makan je, tapi alhamdulillah, aku masih ada sikap tanggungjawab tu. I don't care lah uollz nak umpat-umpat belakang wa ke apa, sebab wa selalu membebel dalam kelas, suruh orang sapu kelas, buang sampah semua, but hey, takkan semua nak harapkan aku? aku yang melangut sapu sampah, buang sampah korang jugak, uolls? wat lek, baca buku physic, baca buku bio, buat addmaths. Haa memang, sebab wa kan pandai gila, tak study pun takpe kan. (Amin, aku pandai)

serious lah, wa taknak cakap siapa-siapa, kalau wa bagitau nama pun, bukan lu lu tu nak ambil kisah. memang mengundang jugak kadang-kadang, tapi wa ingat satu je, Allah nampak. Insya-Allah kalau tak berjaya sekarang, wa akan berjaya dalam lain bidang. Mana kita tahu kan? :) Wa senyum bukan main lebar kan. hihi. ni buat uolls jugak lah, tak semestinya dalam hidup ni, memang 24/7 belajar je, tak ingat dunia, kena jugak enjoy okay! Maybe ada pendapat lain dari wa, tapi wa rasa, teori semata-mata memang tak boleh jadi jugak. wa nak seimbang dua-dua. Insya-Allah, wa mungkin takkan jadi doktor macam uolls yang pandai dalam kelas wa ni, tapi wa boleh jadi insan yang berguna, mungkin wa dah merantau ke negara orang sedangkan luorang masih dalam hospital hadap pesakit sama. Insya-Allah nothing impossible. cewah, omputih! Apa-apa pun, semoga classmates dan wa akan berjaya dalam spm nanti! Fighting fighting

So uolls, yang mengalami nasib sama macam kita ni, jangan sedih-sedih k! Lobuolls xx

Demam parah

2011-04-23T17:57:00.000+08:00

Aku demam. Tak boleh nak buat apa. Demam tahap maximum. Nama demam ni, demam Bieber. weewitss. Aku pun nak jugak kan demam Bieber bagai ni oh em jay, nyah!

Aku paaaaakkk uoollz yang pergi, oh em jay, jeles gileww okay nyah. Biarpun aku bukan sorang Belieber, jauh sekali gilakan dia, but hey, bukan senang dia nak datang Malaysia yang hotsss ni uollz, dah la kicik, tersepit antara Singapore dengan Thailand. Sabo jelew.

Eh, tapi ada cite tak best lew lepas concert Bieber niew. Ce cite ce cite. Apehal ni uoollz, lepas concert je, terus nak bash-bash si Bieber ni? Dari semalam lagi kot, kat twitter. Oh em jay, udoh-udoh lew uollz, jangan nak jeles lew dia pilih orang lain time OLLG tu, bukan uollz. First aku tengok, memang terkejut jugak oh em jay makk, tak tahan maaaaakkk, lucky nyeww diewww. TT-TT

Paling best, bila dekat news feed aku, sibuk pulew yang tak pergi concert ni post status

Yang korang nak bermaharajalelakan Bieber ni kenapa. Dia pun manusia jugak macam kita. Jangan nak agung-agungkan sangat lah
Bieber? Alah tak heran. Dia pun manusia jugak.
Bieber pun manusia. Apa yang dikecoh sangat kalau jumpa dia. Umur pun baru 17

Oh em jay, mak nyah oii. Kau tak pergi kau diam sudah okay? Memang dia manusia jugak, ada orang kata dia alien? Dia memang 17, siapa kata dia 71. Tapi uollzz, ce beza ce beza, dia punya 17 dengan kau punya 17. kau famous ke? Kau buat world tour ke? Kau duit berjuta-juta ke? Kau ada awek nama Selena Gomez ke? Kau ada 9 juta followers dekat twitter ke? Ada orang tulis buku pasal kau ke? Ada orang buat movie pasal kau ke? Tak kan, tak kan, tak kan. So kau diam la kalau kau tu tak layak langsung nak compare dengan dia. Cuba matang la sikit, jangan nak benci je dengan kegembiraan orang lain. Yesshhh, aku bukan Belieber, jauh sekali minat dia. Wa biasew-biasew jewz, tapi happy betul tengok Beliebers lain yang memang hardcore. Minat tak semestinya sembah dia. Minat jew kot deeerr. Macam aku minat kpop. Apedehal orang selalu kata aku macam dah menyembah artis kpop ni? oh em jay, diorang pun takde agama, aku nak sembah ape pulew, nyah.

So, sebelum nak bash orang yang tweet dia minat gila Bieber, dia sayang Bieber, dia pergi concert Bieber, dia excited tengok Bieber live, cermin dulu diri, kau dah jumpa ke dia kew? Rumah dia sebelah rumah kau kew? Dia teman kau main masak-masak time kecik kew? Macam tak jew.

NOTE :

I am not a verified Belieber. I am a verified Kpop Hardcore Fangirl :>
Sooooo happy for the luckiest girl whom Bieber had picked out randomly during OLLG! I would die to be her.

poreber lew sangat

2011-04-21T17:25:00.000+08:00

Kita bako je orang macam ni. Kita bako! kita bako!

Lahanat betul, merosakkan makna forever je. Baru dua minggu sisterr, leklu, sapkok (hisap rokok) lu, kaikup (pakai makeup) lu. Mentang - mentang dia ada boypren. Ewah, kau ingat kau sorang je ada? Aku pun ada, tak cakap jew. ~~Tigew jutew kaliyy gandew semaaad dari kao nyew~~. Made in Korea lagi. Lu ada? Lu nyew setakat entrance Pavi nye stok, wa tak cite lew kan.

Disebabkan aku single, so aku punya suka nak kata apa, sebab aku tak terasa. lalalala~ Ada lah seorang hamba Allah ni, mak aih, setiap bulan tukar awek. Asal aku stalk facebook dia je, awek lain, asal aku stalk je, awek lain. Nak kata handsome? zZzZ Tak terkata lew kan. Bila orang kata dia playboy, nak tacing - tacing. Aku panas betul lew orang macam ni. Bukan playboy lew tu? kk, prihatin boy. kau prihatin pada insan-insan cun yang single kan. Waklu derr, setiap kali awek baru, lu post kat status lu I love you bagai. Ewah, macam best lew tu? Aku suka betul mereka-mereka yang kekal dari dulu sampai sekarang. Mana kita tahu, esok, lusa, tulat, minggu depan, tahun depan apa jadikan, atau samada diorang memang betul akan kahwin atau tak, tak kisah ah. Kira okay lah tu, dua tahun pun masih orang yang sama. Ni tak, dua minggu dah bertukar oh em jay!

Baru dua minggu kot, nak forever pale otak kau buat apa? Eleh, jeles lettew dia ni. Ewah, aku pulak jealous? Macam tak lew kan. Sikit pun takde hal lah. Kadang-kadang terfikir jugak aku, nanti kalau aku dah sesuai untuk kahwin dan aku tak dapat lagi cari boypren, aku nak suruh mak aku carikan. Yang hensum, penting tu, lepas tu kaya then agama. Tak percaya, tengok buku teks form 5. Hiiiks. Macam best kan bercinta lepas kahwin. Semua halal wuwuwuwuwuw :'>

NOTE: Tiada kaitan dengan yang hidup atau yang telah mati.

Cari duit

2011-04-20T21:37:00.000+08:00

Aku dah miskin. Siyes, tak tipu. Takde duit. Nak beli Vans 5 pasang camno?
So, disebabkan terlalu miskin, terpaksa menyara anak 10 orang, manakala Heechul hubby pula masih busy dengan shows dan sangat penat, SMENT sangat tamak, income ciput nak bahagi dengan 13 ahli Super Junior, jadi aku terpaksa buka bisnes sendiri. Ewah.

Heechul hubby must be proud, yesh, ai no.

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Apa yang saya jual? hihiks

Bukan salah abang korea

2011-04-16T17:37:00.003+08:00

Deeeerr. kau pedehal deeeerr. Aku minat kpop. aku punya hal lew deeeeer. Ada aku paksa kau minat?Macam tak jew kan.

Kau kalau dah jealous, kau tak sehandsome abang korea semua, kau jangan nak mencapap boleh?
Kau marah sebab semua status dekat facebook, gambar dekat blog, semua gambar abang korea kan?
Bukan gambar kau kan? lek lek lu deeer. Kau Justin Bieber? Ataupun kau ni Super Junior?

Meh sini, rapat-rapat, ceq habaq mai kat hangpa-hangpa yang tak tau.

Korang perasan tak kenapa kami-kami warga kpop ni memang selalu compare artis korea dengan artis melayu? Macam ni lah senang, kalau ceq bagi kat hang Fasha Sandha dengan Megan Fox, kau nak yang mana? Cakap tu baik-baik lew deeer. sama je dengan kpop. Kalau artis Malaysia ni, boleh menari, boleh compose lagu, boleh ada music video yang views nya 20 juta, memang sumpah aku tak layan kpop do.
Ni tak, sibuk sangat nak masuk AF dengan mentor bagai. Undi sampai habis kredit, lepas tu bukan boleh buat album pun. Haa memang tak boleh buat sebab suara kau bukannya sedap, and pasaran dekat Malaysia ni tak berapa AND kitorang memang tak minat kau pun.

Ini bukan perihal "weh, malu la sikit, kau orang Melayu, taknak tolong orang Melayu, bila nak maju" haaaa aku akan tolong bila artis Melayu, pakai baju cukup kain, tak pergi parti, tak minum arak macam bukan Islam, tak pergi clubbin, tak buat perangai menyetan macam dia takde agama. Rakyat Malaysia boleh fikir lew. Eh brader, kau kena bayar ke kalau kitorang suka? Jangan nak kata sangat lew, kengkawan entrance Pavi kau pun suka korea jugewwwww, tiru style Bigbang jugewww. Ingat aku tatau lettew -.-

Jangan nak bias sangat, nak asyik salahkan kitorang kalau kitorang minat kpop. Misal kata, ada concert Siti Nurhaliza dengan Katy Perry dalam satu masa, kau nak pergi yang mana? Misal kata, ada fanmeeting Shahir dengan Justin Bieber dalam satu masa, kau nak pergi yang mana? Mesti Si Perry dengan Bieber kan? Deeerr, samalah kan, cuma masalahnya kitorang tak minat Bieber dan Perry, Kitorang minat SNSD dan Bigbang.

Artis Korea ni tak original? haaa memang tak original pun, nosejob sana sini, eyelid-job sana sini. Fufufufu, artis Malaysia majoriti original, tapi kalau dah buat plastic surgery, mak aihh, tak sedar esok lusa nak mati. Senang cerita, Korea ke Malaysia ke, sama je. Terpulang masing-masing nak minat siapa. Kitorang tak kacau kau, kau jangan nak ~~menyundal-nyundal~~ dekat sini.

Oh!
Ada statement kata, "Ada lelaki Malaysia muka macam Korea kan , tapi ada lelaki Korea muka orang Malaysia? takdak kan , so bangga laa sikit"
Phewwww, banggewww gilewww :3

Tapi kan awak, ada satu soalan, Ada lelaki MELAYU muka macam Korea? Half korean-malay ade lew. sekarang kan 1 Malaysia, lelaki Malaysia tu, Cina dengan India boleh jadi kan? Aku pernah jumpa yang Cina ni. pergh macam Jaejoong siot *o*

Note:

Kan artis Malaysia ni famous, tapi kenapa eh, kalau keluar shopping, tak perlu menyamar, pakai topi and shades bagai macam artis Korea? :) Hihihi xoxo
sokonglah sesiapa sahaja yang anda suka, jangan kisah apa orang nak kata! :D

Need not to be said

2011-04-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

I was feeling down. I was trying to reach out with my tiny little fingers to a point that turned out to be illusion. I wished I could slowly faded away in the thin air. I was tired. Tired of all the dramas I thought I loved to be part of.

I was tired of being the daft ones. The slowest. The stupidest. The one that people thought would never succeed. The one that people thought could never do it.
I thought I could handle it. I really thought so. I have to work hard, I said. But I didn't. I was still dreaming without trying to do something to make it to be true.

Sadness.

Loneliness.

I was lack of confidence. Low in self-esteem.
I was tired of getting all the pieces of me, trying to attach it back, and getting it broken all over again. I was too scared of being compared. I have yet to succeed in my life. The big success, seemed to far to be true.

During those painful times, I would always think of him. My superman, I would say. The urge of texting him kept hitting me and my innocent nerves but I held it back. No way. He's dead, the little 'me' said.
To be true, since the day he passed away, I've only checked on his facebook twice. The second time was the most painful memories. The posts on his wall from that fucking girl annoyed me, broke my heart, I couldn't handle it. I felt like stabbing her on her face, choked her dead and burnt her head

It should be me who posted that. It should be me..

I couldn't even look at his pictures. Just not yet. Sometimes, I would say, I miss him so much and there would be those fucking girls who tend to miss him so much too. My post would be flooded with comments from those who tend to be his bestfriends when he was now dead, saying they missed him so much.

Bitch, mine are incomparable.
It's been six months. I wished I could just moved on. Having to talk about him to friends without getting my heart fluttered, Having to remember all the memories with him without feeling the hot tears rolled down onto my cheek, Having all the good times without thinking how it would be better if he's still here.

I am tired.
I am seriously tired
Tired of missing.
Tired of being compared.
Tired of waiting..

Flirty Fishing

2011-03-30T20:55:00.000+08:00

I joined a Young Doctors Programme for two days where the participants went to hospital, experiencing the doctors experiences, meeting the patients and all sort of stuffs.

I was in a group with my other four girls and a boy from different school.
I called him by the name Adi.

He had always called me. Never been anyone else in my group.
He called me Nadiha. That was awesome. No one calls me Nadiha.

So, what I wanted to say here was, a boy asked for my phone number. My jaw dropped, I was taken aback, amazed, stunted, the feeling mixed. I was never a pretty nor beautiful girl in school. I am the most sedo girl who wear green braces and glasses. I am girl full with ~~noobism~~ inside meh!

Did you really think I was going to give him my number?
Hell no. I shut him up by giving him my facebook account instead. Happy, boy?

Ape ni derr?

2011-03-27T19:04:00.000+08:00

Wa emo. wa rasa wa dah jadi pengikut setia tangkap leleh. Asyik nak emo semacam tak tentu hala. Pms agaknya. Hari ni berapa haribulan?

Semalam wa study. Wa study chemistry pulak tu. Wa jawab soalan. Asal wa jawab je salah, asal wa jawab je salah. Wa nak marah ni. Sumpah. Wa rasa buku ni salah. Wa nak marah. Wa makan kitkat. Wa jawab lagi soalan. Salah juga. Wa tak boleh sabar lagi. Wa rasa nak nangis. Wa waklek.

Bila wa nak marah, wa tahan, wa nak nangis, wa tahan. Terbuku dalam hati perasaan tu. Lepas tu, semua benda serba tak kena. Wa nak marah. Wa pergi iron baju. Mp4 wa buat hal. earphone wa buat hal. wa nak marah ni. Wa masuk bilik. Wa tengok baju merata tempat. Wa ambil, wa baling. Wa nampak hanger, wa ambil, wa campak, patah dua. Wa nampak phone, wa ambil, wa baling. Tak patah, masih hidup. Wa ambil mp4, wa baling. Masih berfungsi. Wa ambil earphone, wa baling. sekarang dah jadi nyawa-nyawa ikan. Wa kena beli yang baru nampaknya. Baru satu bulan earphone tu. Wa nak marah sebab wa dah tak boleh dengar lagu. Ganas kan wa.

Wa ambil bantal. Wa tak boleh tahan lagi. Wa nangis. Wa nangis sebab wa campak earphone wa. Wa ambil phone wa, wa bertwitter pasal feeling wa. Wa nangis lagi.

Wa tak kira. Wa masuk tandas, wa tengok cermin. Lebam. Wa gosok gigi, wa nak tidur tapi tak boleh. Hanger merata tempat, baju pun sama. Wa ambil, wa simpan. Baru lega hati wa nak tidur. Wa main dengan phone wa, wa bertwitter lagi pasal feeling wa.

Wa bukak inbox. Wa baca text arwah Hakimi. Wa nak nangis. Dia kata, dia rindu wa. Wa pun rindu lu, brader. suwer. Wa tidur. Wa mimpi, wa tidur dengan Hakimi. Haram. Dalam mimpi, halal agaknya. Dia peluk wa. Taknak lepas. Wa rasa dia rindu wa. Wa pun rindu lu. Mak bapak wa waklek dia tidur dengan wa. Wa tak buat ape-ape dengan dia. Kalau tak, dah jadi mimpi basah. Wa taknak. Nanti wa ada dua jantina.

Wa tak tahu kenapa. Wa rasa wa stress sangat wa tak boleh jawab soalan kimia. Wa rasa wa nak pergi study lepas tu nangis, lepas tu study, lepas tu nangis lagi.

Salam bitch

2011-03-21T19:54:00.000+08:00

Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila member wa tengking wa lepas wa tolong dia
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila member wa avoid wa sebab orang lain taknak bagi dia kawan dengan wa
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila orang pandai tunjuk bagus sangat depan wa
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila wa jadi kuli batak dalam kelas wa sendiri, bibik tanpa gaji, buang sampah setiap hari
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila wa tengok budak-budak pandai kelas wa tengah study, padahal wa tengah sapu kelas
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila budak pandai tapi perangai cam fak
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila Mrs Chan selalu lebihkan budak pandai tapi tak layan pun wa
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila orang dah buat salah dengan wa tapi taknak mintak maaf
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa bila asyik wa je kena minta maaf

Lu rasa apa perasaan wa
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa
Lu rasa apa perasaan wa

Butterscotch, Aime pendek, Aime putih, Ayin
kirim salam fak

salam sayang,
Nadiha Bitch

serupa tapi tak sama

2011-03-17T21:36:00.001+08:00

Hai. Nama wa Nadiha. Wa tinggal kat Kelantan. Wa noob orangnya. Oh, tidak dilupakan wa ni seventeen. Wa cantik orangnya. Wa pakai braces. Dekat sekolah, wa memang ~~hodoh~~, tapi dekat luar, gugur iman pak ustaz. Wa tak tahu apesal wa tulis macam ni. Wa rasa, wa nak tunjuk hebat kot. Lu agak-agak?

Cuma satu wa tak puas hati. Kenapa orang-orang yang berumur seventeen, macam wa lagi famous dari wa. ce cite ce cite. Wa tak cukup cantik ke? Wa tak cukup baik ke? Atau wa tak cukup promosikan diri wa ni? Ce cite ce cite. Nak kata wa pandai nyanyi, wa memang pandai. sedap dengan tak je. Nak kata wa pandai modelling, photoshoot tu tak ada lah pulak, tapi self timer je. Kira okay ape, dari wa guna henfon wa yang tak cukup sifat tu, wa duduk atas katil, wa angkat tinggi-tinggi fon wa, paras 90 degree, wa amik 60 keping, pose sama, wa letak dalam fesbuk. Tak ke meluat?

Mari sini rapat-rapat wa bagi contoh.

Contoh pertama:

"fried eggs, fried eggs, fried eggs, today is fried eggs, yesterday is thurs eggs, the day after yester eggs is wednes eggs"

say whut?! Lagu macam ni pun ada ke dalam dunia ni. rubbish, macam sampah euw euw. Lu cakap sama wa, lu baru thirteen, korek hidung pun tak cukup dalam lagi, wa seventeen, asal nama lu ada dalam trend selama empat hari empat malam. Lu thirteen, wa seventeen, tapi tak pernah sekali pun nama wa ada dalam trend list worlwide. lu cakap sama wa, lu suara sedap sangat ke?

Wa tak puas hati. wa seventeen. jatuh maruah wa bila budak hingusan yang tak kenal dunia lagi dah ada dalam trend twitter. wa pun ada dalam list, lu tengok lew sendiri.

Contoh kedua.

Ini lagi wa tak puas hati. Suzy, lu sama umur dengan wa. lu memang lah cantik, tapi ~~cantik wa lagi~~. Cuma satu je yang wa malu, wa sibuk bagitau orang sana sini sinun, lu kakak wa, padahal lu boleh jadi wa punya fren. Bagai ludah ke langit, jatuh ke muka sendiri. Lu translate lah sendiri, suzy. Wa cukup kiciwa. Lu seventeen, tapi lu dah boleh peluk sakan dengan Baby Taecyeon masel ketul-ketul wa, lu boleh main kejar-kejar dengan laki wa si Soohyun tu, lu siap boleh kiss diorang lagi?! Lu memang lew. Wa jalan pegang tangan dengan laki pun belum, lu dah kiss Taecyeon muscle ketul wa? Memang lew, memang wa tak puas hati. Wa nak marah ni.

Contoh ketiga:

Haaa ni siapa ni? Ni si beaver tu. Iyew, si beaver. Hari tu, birthday dia. wa tak ada hadiah nak bagi kat dia. So wa cakap, wa nak menipu dia. Dia tanya, tipu apa. wa cakap, dia comel. Ha ha. -.- Dia seventeen macam wa. walaupun dia baru je mimpi basah (dengan wa) tapi tak dapat disangkalkan, kejayaan dia memang daebak. Artis paling kaya derrrr, de poloh de jute harta dia tapi sayang, derma sejute jew kat jepang? Dekut lew lu ni. Nak bawak si Gomez pergi melancong lettew. Lu hati-hati, Gomez bukan leh cayew.

Konklusinyew, wa seventeen, tapi duit pun wa takde. Jangan kata de poloh de jute, de poloh hinggit pun wa kena mintak mak. Life is cruel. kbai.

Celaka

2011-03-16T11:31:00.000+08:00

Macam ni kan layan aku. Padahal aku dah tolong, cuba settlekan masalah kau dengan bestfriend kau tu. macam ni kau balas kan.

Breathe in. Breathe out. Hold your tears there. Breathe in. Breathe out.

Kau tu lelaki yang ada kelas. Kau tu lelaki yang tak pernah guna bahasa melayu sampah. Kau tu lelaki yang jaga standard. Habis kenapa kau menjatuhkan standard kau hari ni depan aku. Tak pernah lagi hampir setahun kita kawan, kau cakap hoi dekat aku. Weh apetah lagi.

Boleh kau balas "kau nak apa?" lepas aku sent text yang aku ni concern pasal kau yang tengah sedih sedangkan selama ni kita tak pernah ber-aku-kau.

Breathe in. Breathe out. Thanks, Pet.

(sober)

Kenapa?

2011-03-16T05:10:00.001+08:00

Semangat berkobar-kobar bagai seorang ohlaragawati yang ingin memecut terus ke garisan penamat menamatkan segala kekusutan, merungkai segala persoalan

...

OH GOD

SUFFOCATED

NO AIR

Kenapa aku dah mula menulis begitu? Ini sangat memusykilkan. orang lain buat memang best guna ayat-ayat macam nak merobek jiwa ni, tapi kalau aku, haram lew.

Muntah terkeluar anak tekak.

Semangat nak buat kerja sekolah, last-last tersadai. skype dengan Haikal. Memang best skype dengan dia sampai pukul dua pagi (uff sekarang dah lima pagi) tapi langit tak selamanya cerah. Ku sangkakan panas sampai ke petang, rupanya ribu petir di tengah hari. Apa jadah aku merepek ni -.- Baru ku tahu di sekeliling ku begitu ramai yang bijak atau lebih sedap didengar, kepandaian tinggi sikit dari aku ni. sikit jew, tak perlu banyak banyak lew.

Dia budak lompat. Bakal engineer. Handsome pulak tu.

K. potassium mode is ON

Terasa diri ini kerdil. Aku yang bodoh kah atau dia yang terlebih pandai? Aku yang tak tahu kah atau dia memang keturunan google? Aku yang malas kah atau dia yang terlampau rajin? Aku yang noob kah atau dia yang terlalu advance?

Dalam hidup ni, boleh dikatakan, Alhamdulillah aku boleh buat apa-apa je yang selama ni yang memaksa aku buat, tapi tiada satu pun perkara yang aku boleh gelarkan diri aku ni sebagai sifu. Setakat belit-belit selendang, buat video, english lintang pukang boleh lew. Itu pun ada yang lebih sifu. Bak kata omputeh, Jack of all trades, Master of none. Hang fikir lew sendiri apa jadah nya tu.

Nak kata aku malas, memang aku malas pun. Nak kata aku rajin, tak lew pulak. Rasanya ada something yang tak kena. Mungkin urusan aku dengan tuhan. Ya Allah.

"All you need is hardwork" itu yang mereka kata, tapi kenapa si pandai-pandai di sekeliling aku ni, tak bekerja keras pun, lepak chilzZ je kerja, malas pun tiga kali ganda dari aku. Entahlah, mungkin sejak azali mereka ini pandai ataupun aku je yang lambat sikit. sikit jew.

Kenapa malam ni aku touching dengan Haikal pasal dia pandai? okay, sebab aku rasa aku ni bodoh. Tiba-tiba rasa terhina, rasa ~~kicikkkkkk~~ itu macam. Bila nak hilang perasaan ni? Macam syaiton. Kau tengah hasut aku iyew. siap kau.

I skippin ingelish, u no.

2011-03-14T00:24:00.001+08:00

Khas buat awek-awek sekalian yang obses dengan anak Tajima tapi tak tahu macam mana nak buat stail macam dia.

zaman sudah berubah, semua ikut stail dah. so jangan nak kutuk sana, kutuk sini. semua ada identiti masing-masing. Tak salah cuba stail baru. Eh, kau buat rambut cam abang korea, aku tak bising pun?

Jadi marilah kita sama-sama, mendengar dan muntah lepas tu dengar dan muntah balik, lepas tu teruskan mendengar sampai muntah keluar anak tekak sebab ingelish aku memang broken habis sampai satu tahap kau rasa nak gigit pelvic girdle kau. Jangan gelak sangat, dengar je apa sifu Didi nak ajar ni.

Sebelum tu, kita tunjuk lah sikit BTS atau lebih manja dikenali sebagai behain de sin. Gambar macam ~~puaka~~ semuanya. Maaflah.

Ya ya ya saya tahu saya comel. skippin ingelish pun takpew, asalkan comel. Ha ha lawak -.-

JADI

Tengoklah betapa comelnya saya. Weh, ingat ambo make budu, ambo tok reti skippin. Ceh, see the leg la brader.

You can also, put this video on your blog or facebook. spread the style of the fashionistas who started all these hijab things in Malaysia especially to the beginners. Welcome to the club! Oh baideway, baca info dulu sebelum apa-apa, Tijah oii. kbai, enjoy.

Menangis? Pun Boleh

2011-03-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

Menangis? Gembira? Pun boleh. Hari ni 1st Midterm exam dah habis. well untuk aku, dan tiga geniouses yang lain sebab esok kitorang ada neuroscience tournament atau lebih tepat "So You Think You Can Spell Scientific Terms" okay macam nak terjun tingkat empatbelas je baca nama tournament tu. Ni mesti si Hanna Jafri punya pasal, bagi nama macam nak pergi dance competition sebab bapak dia, Prof Jafri Malin yang handle tournament alah ni. Aku syak kau sorang je Hanna. Takde orang lain. kau je, sumpah. suwer.

Jadi kitorang habis awal exam, dengan last paper, chemistry. rasa macam nak drop sekolah, tunggu orang datang meminang je lepas jawab soalan chemistry tadi. Mrs Izatun kalau buat soalan, memang level nak suruh orang gantung diri lepas jawab. K aku serender. Malas nak cakap apa, tunggu result je, harap bukan grade yang memang macam orang tak pernah belajar chemistry. Love you Mrs Izatun. Muah Muah. Jangan failkan saya iyew? (dengan mata bersinar-sinar)

Jadi bagi yang habis exam esok, gudlak untuk korang. Fighting-fighting. Malam ni aku nak tutup phone, kalau korang text tanya soalan apa yang keluar, aku tak reply. Esok aku bangun, on phone "eh kau tanya soalan? sorry lah, dah on the way pergi sekolah" setan kan perangai. waddefart beder. syering is not keyring et oll.

Biology semalam lagi teruk. Memang rasa nak bunuh mereka yang telah menyumbang kepada kewujudan subjek biologi. tipikal. bukan mereka dah mati? oh. JADI KENAPA TAK BAWAK SUBJEK NI MATI SEKALI. oh malaikat tak tanya A+ ke kau dapat biologi time kau sekolah dulu dulu. okay so aku kena belajar jugak. tawakal kepada Allah. surat cinta untuk Bio; Kita kahwin secara paksa, atas desakan keluarga, jadi walaupun saya tak mengandungkan anak awak, sayangilah saya seadanya, sebagaimana saya rela dengan awak. klise bunyinya. okay ini lagi tipikal. bahasa melayu baku. klise = cliche sama macam website = laman sesawang. SESAWANG? shadap en godai. kembali kepada topik.

Kenapa saya kata Biologi semalam teruk? Uh paper 3 memang paling best. sejak bila ascorbic acid boleh decolourise dalam Experiment Vitamin C content? It's DCPIP. Bagus kan Nadiha. sejak bila ascorbic acid ada warna. Paling best; 17 MARKAH. Ibarat melepaskan 17 lelaki tangansedikit (hensem) yang sangat tinggi, kaya, pandai, dan beragama, bak kata orang tua-tua paling perfek sekali untuk dijadikan calon suami. Boleh bayang? Tak boleh, kau punya pasal lah. Dah lah, aku penat. serender bab-bab exam ni. Macam time tengah jawab soalan tu, kita tahu jawapan dia, tapi tak pandai nak bagitahu macam mana. (maknanya tak tahu la tu!) K bye.

Minah banjir dah lama tak pergi sawah

2011-02-25T19:23:00.001+08:00

Haha ni brutal. sumpah brutal. sebelum kita start belajar, buka mukabuku dulu, main like sana, like sini, tetiba ternampak satu page ni.

MINAH BANJIR SUCKS

okay menarik. stalk jom. nak tahu juga siapa Minah Banjir ni atau nama glemernye MB. bukan Menteri besar k uolls. Nak tengok jugak muka si MB since default photo dia blurr kan mukanya cam harem betul admin page ni haa.

OKAY

Nak termuntah tiga baldi tengok gambar MB. okay maybe itu stalker MB yang tag dan tunjukkan gambar sebenar MB. isk isk sekolah mana la tu kan. dah cukup tengok gambar, baca comment pulak. Memang nak terburai boleh tak isi perut ketawa macam sakai.

"minah SAWAH lah bhaiiiii"

"mimpi ngeri laa shiall tengok gambar nie"

"kenapa dyeorg lipat tudung macam paderi!!!sememeh"

"KAHKAHKAHKAH! LAWAK SIAL GAMBAR NI. BHAHAHAHAHA! MUKA SEKOR2 MINTAK KAKI JE! HAHAHAHAHAH!"

"dah bertahun tahun tak balik kampung jenguk sawah"

Hahaha ada ke patut "dah bertahun tahun tak balik kampung jenguk sawah" dah banjir, camne nak balik kampung jenguk sawah. hahaha comel boleh tak comel. Yang penting, orang yang comment pun dua kali lima. ber-euww-euww jugak bak kata Anwar Hadi. Bukan si MB tu sorang. Nak taip aku pun dia bantai 'aq' memang cukup lekat iqomah lah tu kan.

Ada pulak yang kata "pondan pun taknak ni". ewah, sah-sah dia taknak, nama lagi pondan kan. apa nye bengap sangat.

Ada yang berminat nak usha, pergi lah usha page Minah Banjir Sucks. Sumpah sakai page ni

Jangan terpedaya dengan keturunan Minah Banjir.

Banteras Minah Banjir, Minah Sawah, Minah Tsunami, Minah Taufan dan suku-sakat nya.

Memang sakai to the power 10

2011-02-24T23:26:00.001+08:00

Banyak. k banyak sangat benda yang jadi selama seminggu ni, tak sempat nak blog je lepas tu boleh pulak lupa. boleh nak panas hati tak?

mukadimah: mula-mula buat muka chubby lepas tu pissed off gila bagai. okay agak-agak macam dia?

Bermula dengan cerita tak puas hati yang pertama; Hari rabu ada program doktor muda sampai hari khamis dekat Husm. Disebabkan aku dengan tiga genius yang lain ada competition yang difahamkan akan diadakan pada 23 Februari, so kitorang ditarikkan diri daripada program tu. Memang dah empat orang tinggal kan, so bile orang lalu depan kelas je tanya "eh kenapa tak pergi" okay sekali boleh terima lagi. dua minit lepas tu, "eh tak pergi?" okay boleh terima. masuk kali ketiga "eh empat orang je? mana yang lain? kenapa tak pergi" okay boleh sabar. "eh buat apa kat sini, kenapa tak pergi?" okay boleh tahan "eh tak pergi ke doktor muda" okay ni memang aku nak marah &%#@^#$ nak ditambahkan perisa, cikgu pun datang siap bawak tentatif tournament segala bagai. salah sorang ni baca dengan khusyuknya, tetiba cakap "eh cikgu, ni 23 Feb untuk saringan sekolah rendah. menengah 3 Mac" okay memang aku pun cepat-cepat baca balik tentatif tu. okay memang 3 Mac. hancing $(*$&%$@^*%$%@@$%^&%$@! betul la haaaa, memang nak maraaah! disebabkan salah faham, kitorang ditinggalkan dan tak dapat join program doktor muda T-T okay maybe ada second trip. MAYBE. but still hello, it won't be the same without my 'gege' friends! You know what is gege yozz nigga? it means 'bising' or loud in loghat kelate. if you cannot understand me, google translate them please.

Paling menyedihkan bila stuck dengan genius, buat addmaths dan bio T-T okay Nadiha, balik rumah pun bukan kau belajar, so baik kau belajar sekarang time tengah ada semangat ni. Sumpah semangat terus hilang mengenangkan nasib yang tak dapat join program doktor muda dengan 'gege' friends, camwhoring kiri kanan depan belakang dengan mereka-mereka, mencuci mata cari student first and second year yang handsome dan sah-sah kaya. okay sangat sadis, hati dah patah kepada dua. okay dia mula retak. patah empat. okay patah lagi. okay langsung berkecai.

cerita yang kedua ... to be continued

ps: macam mana nak buat blog saya jadi famous? okay soalan sakai. go die. like please. okay double-sakai

balik rumah, check phone

2011-02-21T18:58:00.001+08:00

so I woke up this morning to the reminder in my mobile saying "first anniversary" I realized. The same date in 2010, was the day we started dating.

He's gone.

I came back home from school to the fact that I wasn't getting any of anniversary messages from him. I suffocated. I tried hard not to cry.

Thanks for being my bestfriend, the one that I could rely on every single time, the one that I could trust, the one that I could love with all my heart without hesitation, the one that had always been here, just being here and listened to me complaining and crying.

I realized that no one could ever compare to you. Not even them. Not even every single person in my family lists on facebook. Just two things that had been going on in my mind; that you really love me with all your heart all this while before you left, that you never lied to me when we were dating. Did you?

I'm hating myself for that, I seriously hate myself to the fact that you left with thousands of unanswered questions. You knew how I hate that. Today was the same day when you first asked me out. I had never thought of today, I'd be celebrating our 365 days together alone. Alone..

I guess, I'll be fine on my own, with my family and friends. I have crushes now, hope you're okay with it, boo. Watch me from up there, pray hard for my happiness, keep loving me, as i will always love you, as all i've been praying all this while for you was the same, even before you left.

I have a crush on this one cute guy, but never thought of dating. well, sort of.. he has the same birthdate as you :'>

So, happy supposed-to-be 1st anniversary. Rest in peace, I'll be fine, I promise.
I have all the korean boys around me, keeping me busy and fangirling and falling in love each day with different idols, and of course that one cute guy I have a crush on :'>

Don't worry about me, I'll be happy.

Al-fatihah
Muhammad Amirul Hakimi bin Huzaini

x

Mana satu ni?

2011-02-15T14:33:00.002+08:00

Persoalan : Valentines day or Maulidur Rasul

okay, Maulidur Rasul. on February 14th kitorang ada ceramah Maulidur Rasul whatsoever lah dekat sekolah. okay ceramah ceramah ceramah. sabo boleh tak -.- boleh pulak ustaz ni tetiba keluarkan berita bayi terbuang lah apa. tahu tak ustaz, terkensot okay hati kitorang yang tengok ni. Dah lah hati perempuan ni cepat sayu dan rapuh, nak marah boleh tak? Cikgu Rabiaah dah menangis sakan dah, Zubat pun sama, ceq still lagi duk mengucap. Tak cukup dengan gambar, ustaz ni tunjuk pulak video orang menggugur kan anak. okay tunjuk. yes tunjuk lah kak oii, tunjuk macam mana dia korek dari lubang vagina tu haaa. okay ba alif ba ya sakit la sakai -.-

Ceq phobia sikit benda yang keluar dari vagina bagai ni, especially anak kan so macam ceq tak tengok the whole video tu tapi first nampak la lubang vagina tu. omg, ustaz ni tak cukup dengan tunjuk, siap hurai lagi, dia guna spanar la, gunting la, apa benda. Astaghfirullahalazim, sakit boleh tak sakit. Cikgu pulak siap nangis lagi, okay fine. kejam boleh tak siapa yang gugurkan anak secara haram ni. sakit boleh tak sakai, sakit boleh faham ke tak. okay nak pengsan. kbye.

okay scene kedua. time ni masa sivik. cikgu sibuk mengajar di depan, aku baca akhbar metro. bagus kan tu? And then Cikgu disiplin panggil prefects. ingatkan nak bagi makanan free. rupanya suruh buat spotcheck. k bagus. malas boleh tak malas? 3 Bestari is our next victims yozz nigga. actually dah banyak kali kena 3 Bestari ni, tak serik-serik eh? okay malas nak cakap apa. Teka sikit, ceq kena spotcheck apa? okay dah, spotcheck badan. omg badan boleh tak badan? kalau pagi, ceq tak kisah noks, ni tengahari. hangpa fikir la sendiri. Nak taknak, spotcheck jugak. okay kita check badan, start dari kedua belah tangan, turun melalui celah ketiak .. okay pause, euwww peluh! k replay, turun sampai ke kaki, check celah kaki, perut, naik ke bahagian breasts dan 'in between' nya, bawah dia, belakang, okay settle dik. kbye.

scene ketiga, malam sabtu lepas, aku buat keputusan untuk berdouble sakai dengan menggunakan gambar hotstuff yang aku ambil dari website-website sebagai default photo facebook. Ada hamba Allah ni yang sangat lah hot, lepak chillz di entrance Pavi 24/7 setiap sabtu dan ahad, muka dia je. k tipu. Hamba Allah ni, selama aku add dia, sepatah haram tak pernah cakap dengan aku. Apa? Ceq sombong? hangpa ni, ceq punya la tegur dia, dia yang tak tegur ceq so bukan salah ceq la noh. Nak disakaikan cerita, boleh pulak dia IM ceq ni, "heeyy" katanya. ofcourse selepas ceq guna gambar kuku turqoise. okay ceq nak tergelak guling-guling 360 degree ni. Taknak kata sombong, kita reply lah 'hello' maybe dia dah tahu ceq ni guna gambar orang lain terus tak reply-reply dah. Kahkahkah, lawak biawak betul la budak hot ni. nampak sangat abang oii. terus ceq rasa, hang ni tak tahu malu. agak-agak ah sikit bang kok ye pun -.- @&^$(^(*$# Euwwwww, kthxbye.

sebagai tanda kenang-kenangan atas ke-euwww-an dan ke-double-sakai-an, tengok lah awek berkuku-turqoise tu puas puas. muah muah kuku turqoise <3

Daripada Yasmin anak Redzuan : "siapa kata perempuan pakai tudung tak cantik?"
Daripada Ustaz 'buang bayi' : Lelaki memberi cinta kerana mengharapkan seks, perempuan memberi seks kerana mengharapkan cinta.

Salam Maulidur Rasul.

Batal air sembahyang

2011-02-12T14:48:00.001+08:00

Ustazah ada ajar, kalau laki mahram dengan perempuan mahram bersentuhan tangan pun kira haram macam batal air sembahyang la kan. okay ustazah, saya kena solat taubat nasuha. Astaghfirullahalazim. Apa nak jadi dengan kau ni Nadiha, bersentuh sana-sini. sekarang tangan, esok lusa, apa yang kau sentuh pulak?!

Okay here it goes the story niggas, tadi bersemangat ni lepas kelas bio + chem, dalam otak penuh dengan lymph nodes, lymphatic vessel, subclavian vein, 3-methyl-2-ethyl-1-hexene apa jadah semua nak ke Karnival Jom Masuk U. hangpa tahu dak, ceq ni sekolah pun tak habih habih lagi, so ceq tak penah pergi la pulak karnival Jom Masuk U bagai ni, ceq pun pergi lah buat pertama kalinya hari ini. ceq ingat sikit ja pergi, dalam otak, tak tergambar pula lautan manusia dengan bau macam ndeudqohrfefby, yelah, sebab ceq ingat ceq sorang ja hidup dalam dunia ni, ceq kan forever alone.

Dugaan memang tak kenal tempat la, nak masuk tempat karnival tu pun dah ramai orang, tempat tu dah lah kicik itu macam, lepas tu berapa belas universiti ada, kau ingat budak kelantan ni 10 orang je ke amik spm. sorang tu besar mana badan dia, besar mana bontot dia, lebar mana pinggang dia -.- nak masuk pun macam berkurun lama gila. kalau dah masuk, nak pergi booth universiti pun macam ape ntah. disebabkan aku ni kicik itu macam, kita selit selit okay, pendek pulak tu, okay kita selit selit jugak. lepas tu boleh pulak la tersentuh tangan laki tu, tersentuh tangan dia ni. kalau handsome, aku sanggup do terpeluk dia pun takpe, ni muka cam %#@^*($@% rasa nak marah je. Hangpa ni sentuh sentuh tangan ceq, hangpa ingat free ka? Bayar lah! dah la bau sorang-sorang macam #$@!%*%$!^ memang boleh muntah tiga baldi.

Peringatan : Kalau nak buat karnival, sewa tempat besar sikit. ini kecik macam lubang tikus. Buat kasi besar, buat dekat padang SEKOLAH MENENGAH KEBANGSAAN ZAINAB 1. Jangan Maktab Sultan Ismail. Kalau nak buat dekat Maktab Sultan Ismail, sedia booth tok kadi. Biar depa carik terus jodoh, nikah terus senang. tak perlu isi borang UPU

FUFUFUFUFU

2011-02-11T19:11:00.005+08:00

Okay macam nak marah ni. Tiga juta schoolmates add dia nanti. lepas tu aku jealous, lepas tu semua nak usha dia, lepas tu semua bercerita pasal dia, lepas tu semua nak kenal dia, lepas tu aku pun terpinggir, lepas tu dia dah jadi topic hangat, lepas tu aku pun melepas. damn yoooooou.

Sudaaaaaaaah, jangan cakap pasal dia, jangan apa-apa pun. penat tahu aku simpan dia daripada pengetahuan umum. Aku taknak ramai kenal dia. K tamak, nak seorang diri, perangai hodoh. cam nak panggang hidup-hidup kan. Tapi macam mesti tak best, crush kita, semua schoolmates kenal. Homagad, tolong lah, rasa nak pengsan kayz! Kita dah cari habis jauh dah crush tu, bukan import Sultan Ismail College atau Ahmad Maher zZzZzZ ni jauh punyaaaa tau tetap jugak haaaa kau kenal. isk kita nak marah sangat ni uolls.

Okay hari tu lepak chilzZzZz kat blog Qayyum. Homagad, dia sangat funny kayzz macam forgodsake his blog is so oh-my-god-boleh-hillarious-lagi-tak-god-damn-it-nak-terburai-perut-gelak. ahaha, get that experession yozz nigga? memang best blog dia do. Lagi best, aku jumpa video Eeeeeewwww Anwar Hadi. amboi english dia trang tang tang laju bebeno cam keretapi, lepas tu keluar loghat kedah dia. Anwar Hadi punya accent macam american-tak-macam-ni-laju-nak-mampos-cakap-tak-terbelit-lidah-loghat-kedah-pekat-ligat. Now Anwar Hadi dah sampai Sydney, best semacam. nak jealous boleh tak? Kalau orang kelantan cakap macam tu perghh berbau budui doh -.- dasyat lah. Meh aku testing speaking, bau budu tak.

ItEwW cHukEwWwW TaRt aWaK GiLeWRrRrR-GiLeWRrRrR

Kenapa, mengapa, bagaimana

2011-02-07T21:05:00.001+08:00

WHY I ♥ THEM WITH ALL MY HEART

True men dance like this

True men call his girlfriend this

True men say this

True men rap like this

True men love his girlfriend this much

True men want his loved ones to do this

True men think of his girlfriend this

AND WHY I DESPISE THEM

True men doesn't love this

True men dislike girls who love this

True men hate girls who do this

True men don't catch this

True men are not desperate like this

True men don't look back like this

So, what do you think?

xxx

Hardcore fangirl

Macam mana ni?

2011-01-30T08:56:00.000+08:00

"Adik, kalau nak kahwin, cari yang dekat-dekat (kelantan) sudahlah. senang nak datang meminang. Nanti takdelah susah nak balik time raya. Sorang nak balik sana, adik nak balik sini. Cari yang dekat-dekat dah. lagipun kita tak ikut adat sangat, orang luar, kalau nak meminang macam dah nak menikah. Membazir je"

Neneeeek, apa ni?! Habis macam mana dengan Hyun Joong, Dongwoon, G-dragon, TOP, Jungmin, Niel, Kikwang? semua made in Korea! Kat kelantan mana ada dorang semua bagai tu. Tak boleh jadi ni, nak kahwin dengan diorang please, please D;

confirm kalau kahwin dengan diorang, tak gaduh punya time nak balik raya. Dia mana ada nak beraya mane-mana. dia beraya kat kelate la. Makan nasi dagang, makan sate, makan budu, makan ulam, makan sambal belacan, makan nasi minyak, makan gulai daging. Haaaa, takde lah gimbap, atau segala bagai yang dia makan. Takde nya dia nak makan cili merah mentah-mentah macam makan keropok. serious ni, diorang mesti pakai baju melayu. habis semua makcik-makcik belakang rumah nak datang beraya. Tak ke bangga?

Tiada adat diguna pakai, terus datang melamar, nikah terus. amboi gataii. tak sabar-sabar ni. cuba bayaaaaaaaangkan, kalau Dongwoon datang kelate, melamar, uh-uh-uh-oooohhhh~

Okay kembali ke alam nyata, chapter perkahwinan tak habis lagi, spm tak habis lagi, jangan nak kahwin sangatlah kan -,-'

Tak dapat Dongwoon made in Korea, made in Malaysia pun jadi. Ehem-ehem ♥

Ehem-ehem baru

2011-01-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

Tahun baru, kelas baru, cikgu pun mesti ada yang baru. Nasib tahun ni baik sebab ada assistant teacher lelaki yang baru datang sekolah kitorang yang semuanya perempuan. Nampak gaya macam bujang, umur pun, ehem. muka fuh muda lagi ni. Masih bergetah pipinya. Yang paling best, aku first nampak dia, perasan dia kat sekolah, sebab hari tu, dia pakai baju warna soft pink. omg so masculine gitu! rambut pacak segala bagai la kan. Okay handsome gilo ^O^ eh takdelah handsome, tapi dia pandai menjaga penampilan diri. Tak cam cikgu lain, pakai main bantai je, asal pakai baju tapi cikgu tetap handsome kan cikgu :') hihihi. okay bodek kuat, penampo kang.

Nak dijadikan cerita, haa start dah ni cerita, hesh geram sungguhnya! Nak dijadikan cerita, assistant teacher ni suka pakai vest, knitted vest, sweatshirt kan. Tetiba pulak, seorang hamba Allah ni, yang selama ni tak pernah-pernah nak pakai vest tetiba pakai. okay, ni tahun kelima aku skolah situ, tak pernah tengok dia pakai vest. Like zomg, semua students tengok je dia. okay cikgu, sangat handsome. Auww mintak autograph! Takpelah, saya tahu, mesti cikgu taknak takhta cikgu sebagai cikgu paling handsome di sekolah dirampas. Takpe cikgu, cikgu tetap feveret lah senang cite! Ada je cerita pasal cikgu, hotstuff bhai. best kan jadi hotstuff sekolah perempuan ni. Di mana-mana ada mata memandang. wewwiitss.

Oh balik kepada assistant teacher tadi, omg, semua students macam terbeliak bijik mata tengok cikgu ni, tak berkelip langsung, tengok je dia. Fuhh memang habis gaya lah cikgu ni style. pewwittss, hari tu cikgu ni pakai sweatshirt, dalamnya pakai kemeja and tie. omg sumpah nampak macam korean highschool boy! awkawkawkawk! Style habis okay assistant teacher ni. dia mengajar english you, pelat mat saleh gitu. Serious, saya taknak tersyiok dekat cikgu sendiri, cukupla saya adore style cikgu. Auww, laga pipi skek.

Satu je macam isk isk, suara dia. omg, macam suara Ella you know. kembar dia kot. memang bukan serak serak basah da ni, serak serak kuyup. Like zomg, suara dia you. Macam ni lah senang cite, first tengok dia, semua macam nak pengsan segala bagai sebab style dia handsome habis, tapi bila dia keluarkan suara je, kembali ke alam nyata. Suara cam Ella tak Ella, yang penting style! Cikgu sekolah saya semuanya handsome handsome (di zaman muda) :) Long live cikgu!

Geli sampai muntah berbaldi-baldi

2011-01-08T16:14:00.001+08:00

Disebabkan banyak sangat nak story story dengan uolls, aku malas nak buat entry asing-asing. kita gabungkan, biar meletup. Biar semua terasa. okay berniat jahat. astaghfirullahalazim. Mula-mula cerita pasal kisah terhangat di pasaran. biarpun dah lama, tetap hangat ni. dekat sekolah, asyik gosip je dengan orang belakang, dengan teman sepermainan, semua la gosip. senang cerita, tambah dosa bergelen-gelen. Tahu tak pasal apa? pasal awek si Anu ni. jeng jeng jeng.

First aku kenal awek dia ni, first stalk blog dia ni, sebab kan si Anu famous sampai ke twitter trending. 200000 crash blog awek dia ni dalam satu malam. hebat tak? memang hebat. yang tak bestnya, bila aku scroll blog dia, panjang betul, empat kali scroll tak habis lagi ni, nampak di sebelah kanan blog, link-link love story dia dengan si Anu ni. Memang banyak category kot kisah cinta suka duka awek si Anu ni dengan si Anu ni. perghh, aku mula-mula tak rasa apa, macam err err la sikit. ingat takde orang perasan, start sekolah, gosip la pasal ni. rupanya member aku pun perasan! siap menyampah. euwww, perlu ke tulis semua kisah cinta tragis tu dalam blog. like, simpan je la, jadikan bedtime stories untuk anak-anak nanti. dalam entries, semua kalau boleh nak selit text dari si Anu ni. like okay fine -,- Bagi aku la kan, simpan je untuk jadikan sejarah, bercerita kisah cinta kat anak dan cucu. Macam nak tumpang glamour sangat je dia ni, tak tahu la aku sorang je ke rasa camtu, atau ramai lagi. tapi senang cerita, awek si Anu ni, agakla dalam bab menunjuk dia bahagia dengan si Anu ni. Entahla, aku pun tak tahu betul ke tidak, tapi jaga la si Anu ni baik-baik. Orang ada cakap, jangan nak menunjuk sangat kisah cinta kita kat orang, sampai orang tak berkenaan pun tahu, satu dunia tahu, boleh buat bahan kakak sayang. Nanti lama-lama putus, baru menangis tak berlagu. si Anu tu pun dah kaya, rumah sejibik, tanah sejibik. wow $.$

Okay ini lagi nak story, pasal junior. baru seminggu sekolah, budak-budak form 1 tak sedar diri ni dah start tunjuk belang kan. Adik-adik ni nampaknya perlu diberi pengajaran supaya sedar tempat korang kat sekolah menengah paling low sekali. Eh nak marah? eh sukahati akak la dek, akak senior, akak punya pasal la nak cakap apa pun. adik-adik yang tak berapa nak cerdik, korang algebra pun tak belajar lagi, jangan nak tunjuk pandai. sedar diri, sedar diri tu sedar sedar! haaa geram aku. hahaha okay jahat perangai akak senior ni. aku tak tahu kenapa korang kalau nak cakap dengan senior, perlu panggil 'awak' eh awak, awak kawan kita ke? tak kan? saya tak kenal pun awak. penampo karang. dekat sekolah rendah, korang nak berlagak sombong, hidung tinggi klcc, akak tak kisah dik. tapi ni sekolah menengah, akak yang senior sekolah. Tak kira laa kita sama tinggi ke, kau lagi tinggi ke, yang penting senior tetap senior. kalau dah junior ttu, junior la jugak kan. Oh yea, satu lagi eh, nampaknya kuasa senior sangat la besar, bila-bila masa je boleh sebar dekat blog and internet, esok jugak senior lain akan jejak korang. Tak ugut, peringatan bahawa sedar tempat anda di sekolah menengah. HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAH okay jahat perangai :P Jangan takut dengan akak yea! tegur-tegur lah akak yang comel ni. auwwww

satu lagi hot story. wah wah wah, banyak hot story ni uolls. patut set up satu web gosip haaa nyah. Hari ni hari kedua aku pergi tuisyen dengan kawan aku. selama ni aku tuisyen (paling lama sebulan) kat tempat tuisyen yang tak ramai schoolmates aku, kali ni ramai. penuh satu kelas. memang macam sekolah la kan. Time tengah tunggu parents ke apa en, gosip jugak la dengan Teah ni. kebetulan ada dua budak SIC masuk kelas Bio kitorang, so yeah. kebetulan dua-dua tuisyen addmaths sekali dengan aku, cuma hari lain. heheh nasib baik, hari aku tuisyen ramai budak Cina. auw auww. nak dijadikan cerita, si F ni couple dengan budak Maher ni nama si A. Tapi setahu aku, si A ni couple dengan budak lain, bukan si F ni. pelik la, main couple putus couple putus. Tak tahannya, si F dengan si A ni sangat la famous di SIC, Maher dan Zainab. sekolah lain rasanya famous jugak.

Dekat semua tempat tuisyen si F dengan si A ni ada, tuisyen yang penuh budak SIC, Maher, Zainab. macam mestilah semua orang kenal kan. Yang paling geli, diorang ni macam ada satu trend, nak couple dengan budak paling handsome/lawa sekali. Yang penting, yang semua orang kenal. lepas couple, seminggu putus, lepas tu couple dengan kawan dia pulak. euww like geli la, main pass-pass bf merata dekat kawan ni. semua dah merasa couple dengan si lelaki ni. tak ke geli, euw euww. Lagi best, kalau main pass around tuisyen jugak. minggu ni couple dengan si B. minggu depan couple pulak dengan si C kawan si B. tak ke geli. Oh my god, puh-lease. geli geleman. Yang si perempuan pun sama. main pass-pass. kejap laki D couple dengan si A. esok laki H pulak couple dengan si A.

Ya Allah, tolong lah. aku expect la, tempat tuisyen ni tak ramai golongan sebegini, rupanya ada jugak. so kebetulan, kelas Bio penuh, and teacher suruh buat dua kelas, geng ZGS semua pilih pagi, pasangan bercinta pilih tengahari. haa pergi pergi. geli la aku tengok. Maaflah, aku ni langsung tak kenal budak SIC ke, Maher ke, Sains Machang ke. Aku noob, tak macam member aku, satu SIC dia kenal, satu Maher dia kenal. aku ni noob, tak lawa pulak tu, budak kelantan semua tak kenal aku, aku ke kenal sikit-sikit. tak famous katakan. sejak aku start tuisyen ni baru kenal. tu pun, Aiman, Faris budak-budak bijak dari SIC. kebetulan tuisyen Addmaths sekali. dah la bijak, tak layan perempuan. :') Ni baru betul, salute lah! Tanyalah diri korang, korang tak geli ke, pass-pass bf/gf macam tu. semua kawan dah merasa si dia ni. Satu hari, korang boleh buat Alumni bekas awek si Anu ni.

OMG slumber waklu je aku kutuk. maafkan saya ya. sekadar berkongsi nyah-nyah sekalian.

2011 baham 2010

2011-01-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

Okay title ni tak boleh belah. semangat kesukanan masih ada. sudah sudah hentikan!Happy new year 2011! okay tahu entry ni sangat la lambat. basi dah. pekehal, suka hati lah. Baru balik dari camp, semangat pun berkobar-kobar lagi haaa! So entry kali ni perihal 2011 resolutions ;D

1. SPM 9A!

InsyaAllah dah taknak main-main. Trial SPM mesti 9A. so senang mintak scholarship, senang mintak course. takdelah dia bagi course yang tak laku. huahuahua. Scholarship penting untuk ke Oversea! Amin amin amin. So Nadiha, ada 11 bulan lagi nak SPM. so jangan nak main-main sangat lah. jangan nak online sangat!

2. Jumpa Aalfie

Aalfie, bogoshippo~ Rindu betul, jangan risau babe. I akan tuntut christmas gift I okay? tak perlu balik Malaysia. Tunggu I siap-siap kat Edinburgh kay? jangan nak mengada pergi travel tanpa I do! Penampo karang

3. Cari boyfriend

Haaa part ni paling best sekali. Nak cari boypreng. Yang hot gitu auwwww. kalau abang korea lagi best. mesti handsome, mak aku mesti restu. hahahaha :p paling penting, kena la gila kasut macam aku. aku taknak doe boypreng selekeh, baju dah smart, tetiba pakai selipar je. warna-warni pulak tu. geli aku sioooot.

4. Part time job

InsyaAllah lepas SPM, nak partime, cari duit untuk menampung kehidupan aku nanti. nak g shopping sana sini. Top wishlist mestilah KASUT! nak beli kasut sampai lebam

5. Solat penuh

Tahun 2011 bermula dengan aku diberi cuti tanpa gaji. yea memang cuti tanpa gaji, Harap tahun ni aku boleh solat penuh. Banyak dosa dah ni aku buat. Takkan aku nak mati dengan penuh dosa. tak mungkin tak mungkin. InsyaAllah kurangkan dosa!

6. Makan makan makan

Yang ni wajib. Tahun ni aku nak makan benda yang sedap sedap semuanya! mesti sedap, aku nak Nutella Snack ada dekat Malaysia! bila ada, aku nak pergi serang. beli banyak banyak

7. Film camera

disebabkan ramai bebeno yang nak dslr bagai ni, mari kita kembali ke jalan yang benar. aku lebih interested dengan film camera. lagi berbaloi baloi. Nak kumpul duit, angkat satu camera pun jadi la noks

8. Jumpa semua kawan facebook, myspace, twitter di Malaysia

Fuhhh, dah masuk tahun ke-5 aku dengan social sites ni, so banyak orang yang aku kenal dalam internet. Alhamdulillah la, semua nya baik-baik. ada yang jahat macam setan tuih tuih. aku tak hingin nak kenal. haha okay perasan baik sangat la tu! grrr. Sesungguhnya, ketahuilah aku nak sangat jumpa korang! Tunggu aku habis SPM tauuuu ;)

sebenarnya banyak lagi 2011 resolutions, tapi benda yang remeh-temeh. Takkan la aku nak list semua kan. tiga kali scroll pun tak habis ni kalau nak list semua. So insyaAllah akan dapat capat azam tahun ni. Amin. SPM 11 bulan lagi, syllabus form 4 entah ke mana. pening pening pening! scholarship nak dikejar!

So aku harap, kalau aku dah tak boleh joke dengan korang tu, maafkan diriku. Kalau aku kuat touching ape jadah nya, maafkan diriku juga! Hidup makin susah sekarang, korang taknak berjaya, korang punya pasal, nak main sampai mati pun aku takkan tanya, tapi hidup aku, aku nak berjaya. Aku taknak orang pandang rendah lagi. okay tetiba entry emo semacam. dah, sebelum semua nangis, Happy New Year 2011!

Tahun baru, azam baru, entry baru, baju baru, diri yang baru, boyfriend baru! Aikkk, boyfriend baru? -,-

HarimaubahamGaruda

2010-12-30T02:59:00.000+08:00

Terima kasih kepada mama sebab dia menjerit tadi, aku tersedar dari tidur. Haha! Dalam keadaan mamai, keluar bilik tengok mama tengah tengok match. abah pulak tengok kat dapur. bagusss, bila da banyak sangat tv ni memang macam ni la. Aku bukak twitter and start spazzing, spamming timeline followers aku dengan hashtag #harimaumalaya. memang boleh patah jari dibuatnya. Aku tweet cepat nak mampos sampai laptop hang, twitter crash, dashboard stuck, like 3 juta tweets seminit! Ya aku tahu, hardcore kan. memang memang. Biarpun #harimaumalaya tak dapat masuk Trending Worldwide and Indonesia punya hashtag ada 3 yang Trending Worldwide, aku tetap bangga sebab ni first time aku bersorak untuk Pasukan Bola sepak negara. selama ni buat cebih je, HAHAHA. jangan nak gelak aku sangat la, korang pun sama kan. ngehngeh :P

Siapa yang follow twitter aku tahu lah, aku malas nak cakap banyak. Cuma congrats untuk pasukan Harimau Malaya yang telah membaham Garuda. biarpun agak kecewa kalah dengan Indonesia, tapi macam yeah win-win situation kan? aku tahu! Guess what, Khairul Fahmi Che Mat -- Yo abe kelate tu la, yang jago goal tu hooo, trending worldwide for a few hours! HEHEHEH! Jarang-jarang anak Melayu dapat masuk Trending List tu. Mana tahu Katy Perry tengah online, dia tengok. haaa tak pun Lady Gaga. sudoh lah Abe, Lady Gaga minat ko Abe! Hahaha habis Tom Cruise dengan Brad Pitt semua tutup kedai, sebab ore Kelate boleh masuk Trending list ni. Hahaha! Bila pulak awek Khairul Fahmi Che Mat nak masuk trending pulak ni?

PS:// Thanks to Indonesian Tweethearts yang trend Congratulation Malaysia. Now pukul 2:08 am, still lagi trending. Orang Malaysia tak banyak guna twitter. kuno betul, warga Indonesia yang katanya tak sekolah tu la yang guna twitter. tsk tsk. -,- Anyway, congrats to both countries ♥ Malaysia Boleh!

Welcome home, AFF Suzuki Cup. Welcome home.

Saya sudah berpagar!

2010-12-28T15:27:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum. Nama saya Noob binti Dork. Middle name pulak Ugly. so It's like Noob Ugly Dork. haaaa macam tu lah. Pakai braces, pakai glasses, lagi nak suruh pakai apa. aku rasa tudung sekolah tahun depan, aku kene lipat dari eyebrow, bahagian atas tudung tu biar sentuh dahi. biar bulat, macam pakai Hijab. okay tak?

Dah berapa tahun delay, sebab pergi goverment hospital. memang bodoh kan. Ni aku pergi private, first time pergi, terus boleh pakai. cepat kan? ya aku tahu. Mula-mula cuci gigi and everything. lepas tu terus pakai. Time nak pakai tu yang best. dia macam letak something around mulut, so mulut aku terbuka je. Aduh, memang luas boleh mulut aku. Haa makin luas mulut, makin banyak cakap. Aku tahu kan. Aku nak buat warna-warni braces, macam rainbow. tapi ni first time, so yeah kita guna warna merah dulu. Kang sakit jantung pulak mak aku tengok gigi aku. Warna-warni sangat tak boleh jugak. Nanti nak tukar ah, warna purple or biru. Macam comel kan? now aku boleh sengih luas-luas, tetap nampak comel. tak macam dulu, tak comel tapi macam drakula. okay ye aku tahu. kthxbai

Baju buruk 2010

2010-12-24T17:57:00.000+08:00

Okay disebabkan 2010 dah nak habis en, and aku pulak takde dirumah on new year's eve ni sebab berjuang untuk negara dan bangsa *ececececece so aku ambil keputusan nak post segala baju buruk yang ada pada tahun 2010 yang aku baru jumpa. ngeh ngeeehhhh. Menyampah mak noksss. Oh sebab shoot ni malam, so kita pakai shades ya noksss, kang mata i jadi merah tau uoollss. I tak pandai photoshop bagai, so tak dapat reduce red-eyed tu nanti. so taknak bagi mata aku nampak macam orang kene pendarahan dalaman tak dapat dikesan dan berbuat apa-apa, so kita pakai shades okay uoolls. okay uoolss is so Danial Yahaya. He's my inspirasion nyah! Muah kiri, muah kanan. kalau baca blog dia, confirm gelak sakan rasa nak bom laptop.

Disebabkan sifat menyebok aku yang tinggi, aku pergi selongkar laci-laci baju kakak aku, dan jeng jeng jeng. Jumpa jumpsuit ni! well, aku pernah bagitahu arwah Hakimi yang aku nak jumpsuit, sebab teeeeeeet. Haha, jumpsuit yang aku harapkan pula seluar, tapi yang aku jumpa dress. nak buat camne, bersyukur je lah. so buat pertama kali nak try pakai. Jeng jeng jeng, lawa tak aku pakai. Macam Diva gitu uollss.

MAYDEY MAYDEY! SILA GUNA SUNGLASSES ANDA SEBELUM ZOOM GAMBAR NI! MUAHAHAHAHA

sebab apa? sebab baju ni macam bola disco, bling bling like led. heheh. Tank top ni kakak aku beli kat Dublin. zaman zaman dia tak kahwin lagi, aku pun pelik, apa jadah pulak dia belikan aku top ni adoh, kalau nak pakai kat kelantan ni, elak kene pancung dengan Nik Aziz je. so aku save baju ni untuk kita pergi UK okay uolss. alaa Ulu Kelang je ngeh ngeh :p sumpah ni first time pakai tank top ni. macam cool semacam je kan. Jacket tu pulak, kakak aku beli dress, and jacket tu pulak free, sekali dengan dress la kan. dia gemuk so dia buang jacket ni, aku kurus, so aku muat. aku amik. hahahaha comel kan?

Ini pulak ala-ala ketua mafia abad ke enam belas. so oldskool nyah. zaman-zaman Saloma dulu, klasik nasional. ni sesuai pergi dangdut ni. sumpah aku hot noksss dalam kalangan sugar daddy yang ada. muahaha :p Blouse tu baju turun temurun. Mula-mula mak aku pakai, lepas tu kak long aku, lepas tu aku. sampai terkoyak haa baju tu, sanggup lagi aku pakai. mak aku pun bising sebab pakai baju berlubang kat bahu, hahaha. okay lawak =,=

Perasan tak, cuti sekolah je, malaysia jadi sejuk. woaaahh sedap tidur do pagi-pagi. tu yang aku bangun pukul 11-12 je kan. adohh elak kene tazkirah pagi je. disebabkan Malaysia sekarang sejuk, so kita pakai sweats okay? hohooo, ni sweats mak aku ni, baju kait. haaaa aku suka baju ni sumpah, tunggu mak aku ringan tangan nak turunkan kat aku je, sebab aku nak betul baju ni. hahaha :p dalam tu, aku pakai cardigan. ala-ala cardigan Hyun Joong dalam BOF. sumpah semat do. Yang warna-warni stripes apa jadah tu, oh tu maflr, okay aku tak pandai eja. bengap yang amat -,- Itu pun hadiah kakak aku, jauh from London tak silap. sebab aku ni pakai tudung, and Malaysia panas yang amat, summer sepanjang tahun, so takde chance aku nak pakai. dalam rumah pun jadi la.

Jeng jeng jeng. Ni baju baru beli, time kat KL hari tu. hohoooo, ala-ala vintage sikit kan? aku nak betul baju ni, mengamuk-ngamuk dengan mak aku. mak aku pun bagi duit. miahaha. okay baju ni sangat comel sebab ada bunga-bunga vintage. I like! Bangle dua-dua belah tangan okay. kalah mami jarum do. nasib tak sampai siku. alaaaa RM10 je dua bundle tu. ngeh ngeeehhh Times Square baby, Times Square.

So sesiapa yang view blog aku ni je, dapat tengok full photos, sebab aku takkan upload dalam facebook. Maybe dalam page, tapi kalau personal account tak kot. tengok dulu okay uolls? plus yang ni semua original, tak edit lagi. Dalam proses, edit cikai-cikai je. Hadoh apesal la aku takde bakat langsung bab mengedit ni. rasa nak tikam je diri, tolong tolong! Okaylah uolls, gelak la puas-puas tengok aku posing-tak-jadi depan selftimer camera ni. waktu malam pulak tu, gelap gelita =.= elak keluar hantu je tsk tsk. Farewell 2010, Hello 2011!

Maria kata Hijab Chill noks

2010-12-21T14:55:00.003+08:00

Apa? Maria Ozawa kata Hijab Chill?! Ewah, Maria Ozawa tu siapa? okay dah diam. Bukan Maria Ozawa okay, ni Maria Elena, awek Malaysia, bukan pornstar, pakai Hijab noks. okay cun. dah jealous :/ Hari tu semua orang sibuk-sibuk pasal Maysaa, aku pulak tak pergi, hampeh okay hampeh. kalau tak boleh jumpa Sue Anna Joe. tsk tsk. okay sadis yang amat. Time stalk stalk blog Anna, tetiba nampak Maria punya Hijab tutorial. Omgosh, she's so pwetty, so knock out in the head, I know right, This is so lassstt yeaaaaaaaar. Haha okay lawak. Kebetulan, aku pulak baru beli shawl baru, ohyeah Hijab time muahaha.

Disebabkan kejakunan aku dalam pakai Hijjab, buruk jadinya. rasa nak tikam 14 kali. sebelum tikam, nak gelak guling-guling 80 kali dulu kan. okay so disebabkan aku baru je buat photoshoot *konon* ni beberapa minit yang lepas, khas untuk entry ni, so agak gila sikit, dengan baju baggy, seluar baggy, hijjab pun ala-ala je kan -,- memang hampeh tak cun, rasa nak lempar dalam laut. Baju ni favorite dikala sejuk, pasal apa? pasal bangun pagi tadi macam ada snow kat Malaysia ni. mak aih sejuk bebeno! sweats satu lagi tak jumpa, so pakai yang ni je lah. muahaha. Okay here we go girls!

Fewwiitt okay rasa nak maki je tengok muka. okay maki maki. Haha. Ohooi lepas tu baru tahu yang Maria ni cousin HunnyMadu. OMG, patut Maria famous semacam okay. Muah muah I kipas panas you Maria! 8D Kalau you panas, call call i, I kipas tau. Lepas tu semalam ke hari tu eh, bertumblr bagai, reblog gambar dia ni, omg tak tahu la dia orang Malaysia ke apa en, but ohgod, she's so pwetty. okay apesal aku jumpa orang cun cun je ni, rasa sangat jahil aku. pergi shrink kat satu corner, then duduk diam diam kan kan.

Ini dia Maria Ozawaaaaa! Opss, Maria Elena. Heheh, sumpah dia cun. so ahmazingly nuts, wanna meet you!

Ini pulak Dian, terbang khas from Egypt. Hahah! She's so pwetty 8D

Anyway, enjoy Hijab Chill noks! Maria kata That's so last yeaaaaarrr ♥ Muah kiri muah kanan.

So what now?

2010-12-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

okay so hari tu pergi window shopping sana-sini. window je kay. kisah. oh well, anyway berjaya jugak pujuk mama beli sunglasses untuk aku. ingat nak beli Ray Ban ke Ryan Ban ke aku lupa pulak dia punya brand. KAY NOOB. Okay aku tahu, agak mahal tapi yeah aku berjaya membeli Paul Smith punya dengan harga RM15. okay tahu fake. so what kalau fake, bukan dia bahaya pun do, bukan dia boleh buat mata buta. lain la kalau phone China boleh buat telinga meletup. okay KISAH. whatever, sangat cool bila aku pakai. Cepat mintak autograph

Tak cukup dengan sunglasses, nak glasses pulak. okay rabun. nasib la kedai tu pakcik aku punya, dulu buat RM50 je kena bayar, now aku tak sure la sebab power aku dah naik. 100 je pun, okay kecoh. Ingat nak beli yang frame BESAR punya kaaann, tapi okay sebab mak aku nanti bising, finee, pilih kicik sikit. Nak spm nookk tahun depan, kena NOOB sikit, baru junior hormat. Bakal gegar sekolah dengan result SPM ni kot. okay tipu.

Duit ada, tapi terfikir nak beli iPhone ke, dslr ke, kasut 5 pasang ke. nak beli semua ada lah dalam RM6 - 7 riban jugak. okay takde duit, dah diam. semalam pergi Mid lagi, belanja abang. okay bleehhh, ingat nak tengok movie tapi tak jadi. family sibuk borong TV kat Jusco, aku melalut sorang-sorang cari Starbucks and Big Apple. okay so aku cari Big Apple dalam directory tu takde, tapi apesal aku nampak orang bawak beg Big Apple bagai ni. okay sadis, kene cari. cari punya cari tak jumpaa, starbucks pun aku lupa kat mana. okay kecoh. dah tu mom call suruh naik level 2. aku kat level G dah, okay taikk, naik tu just nak tunggu aku and turun sama-sama level P2. okay bodoh. hangin. macam apa? macam babi. okay mencarut.

Belek-belek photo mag ni, baca free, okay nasib bangla tu tak sound. haha belek-punya-belek, aku nampak camera ni. sumpah murah, sumpah sumpah aku ada duit sekarang! lupakan DSLR lomo on, film camera on! Yehaaaa, uh aku nak camera ni, ada pulak makhluk-makhluk tu yang sibuk nak camera ni jugakk pffttt -,-
okay kecoh. sumpah kene cari camera ni, Yeaaahhhhh pemburuan bermula!

Bila awak nak balik

2010-12-11T02:12:00.001+08:00

Okay Muhammad Amirul Hakimi bin Huzaini, tiga soalan untuk awak;

1) Awak tak rindu saya ke
2) Kenapa awak pergi tak bawak saya sekali
3) Bila awak nak balik

satu je Hakimi Huzaini, satu je saya mintak;

TOLONG BALIK CEPAT.

Janji tak marah, serious akan makan ubat kalau sakit, serious akan dengar cakap, serious tak degil, janji.

Just please, tolong balik..

Fake atau original?

2010-12-10T00:11:00.001+08:00

semalam keluar dengan T. First meet ni, serious tapi layan macam kawan sekolah, macam hari-hari jumpa je do. lama jugak la tunggu dia, sebab dia from Rawang nak pergi Mid, pergh lama jugak tu. First nampak dia, aku ingat dia jalan sambil tutup mata. sumpah sepet do. memang anak Cina la dia ni, mak dia yang pelik, mata besarr je, kau sorang je sepet T oii. keshiioonn, takpe takpe, yang penting cool. blackberry di tangan, kat bahu, beg dslr. perggghh Made in China marii aweekk ni, sumpah jumpa dia, aku takut jugak ni, mana tahu mak aku spy, ingat aku keluar dengan laki ke en. berjaga-jaga jugak aku ni, kalau dia tiba-tiba muncul depan mata, aku sumpah akan suruh T keluarkan IC, takut mak aku was-was dengan jantina T. yo laa, rambut ala-ala ulzzang camtu do, gaya pun cam pergghhh.

pergi second floor, eh, jumpa Yaya Tedd do. alololo, dari kelate jumpa kat mid eh penolong ketua? kahkah. mak dia pun macam terkejut tengok aku, ingat aku budak KL. lol budak KL ape nye, kelate mari nii. mula-mula pergi makan, aku da la lapar do. sejam jugak la lepak situ do, makanan da lama habis, bercerita je lebih. wahwahhh :p Time tengah makan, nampak do mamat ni handsome !#$^$$@%*(%@!$^%# sumpah, aku makan, aku tengok dia. berselera do. muka dia macam Mamal je hihiks.

lepas tu lepak around GSC nak tengok movie ape best, tetiba pulak T mengadakan sesi mengenalpasti sneakers mane original and fake. weewwiitt best do jalan dengan T. asal jalan je, dia pun cakap "okay ini fake" "tu original" "ini fake" "fake" "fake" "original" hahaa anjing betul. mula-mula tengok kasut orang tu, lepas tu terus scan sampai ke muka. aku pandang dia, dia pandang aku, aku senyum sinis, aku gelak. ahaha mampus la korang nak ingat ape pun, kasut tu original ke fake? nasib do converse aku original. haha :p

gelak 24/7 je kot dengan T. dia belanja aku aiskrim weeewwiitttsss, malangnya time nak balik, aku lupa nak restock film instax mini, so bila amik gambar dengan dia, film tu buat hal do. aku rasa sebab aku main bukak tutup bukak tutup kot, sebab tu film tu buat perangai. habis la T merajuk dengan aku, tapi still dapat amik gambar guna dslr dia do. Papepun, cepat datang rumah aku T. aku bawak kau pergi Mines do! kita amik gambar banyak-banyak and kau simpan satu instant photo kay? ♥ sayang kau awek.

Puas hati

2010-12-06T00:38:00.000+08:00

semalam pergi Pasar Seni, kawan invite pergi join Graffiti Fest yang sepatutnya start pukul 8 pagi. Aku dengan Senoh yek yek je plan nak gerak pagi sebab ada banyak tempat nak pergi. Last-last terlajak bangun pukul 8. siap pukul 9. sampai Pasar Seni pukul 11. Terima Kasih kepada perkhidmatan super efision KTM kelas pertama kan? Bangang. asyik delay je doh. dah la satu train nak tunggu satu train lagi setengah jam campur delay ape benda. kalau ramai? kene tunggu satu lagi, habis satu jam la? gilo kerja camni.

Sampai Pasar Seni ingat penuh la orang rupanya haraaaaamm -,- Sikit je kot, setakat budak breakdance sebelah boleh la, macam tak best kot. kalau penuh la baru meriah. aku baru la berangan nak tengok orang buat graffiti ke en pfftt -,-' Ni la yang sempat aku amik, maafla kawan, salahkan orang ramai sebab tak muncul. eh ke aku yang pergi awal sangat? -,-'

Muka Senoh pun dah panas semacam, aku pun ajak dia pergi BB terus. tak sempat pergi Sunway jumpa Kaa dengan Afu. sedih gila ni do. Memang panas semacam muka sebab RM2 melayang camtu je. tapi takpe, at least tengok jugak rupa -,-' lagipun bila lagi nak pergi fest, haram je bapak aku nak bagi pergi do.

Gerak Pavii. aku ni noob, Pavii pun tak tahu kat mane ya ya aku tau cam haram. tak sabar seh 5 jam lagi sebelum Hyun Joong Asia Tour start pffttt memang best laa tak sabar seh! naik Monorail, turun bb. memang selekeh doh aku pakai. memang cam sakai do. rasa nak bunuh diri je. tak kisah la en, sampai Pavi around 12, tengok-tengok dah ramai fans tunggu Hyun Joong, sakai do. 5 jam kot. da la panas semua kan, nasib la macam mendung time tu, no hal la kan. kalau aku do, aku siap bawak sandwich, nasii minyak, nasi impit, semua aku bawak, oh tidak dilupakan budu. boleh makan beramai-ramai

Masuk Pavi terus nak tengok movie. memang do tak sabar nak tengok The Social Network. puff gila best habis cerita tu. Kanak-kanak bawah 18 tidak dinasihatkan tengok cite ni, aku takpe, aku ada fake ID hahaha :P dah la duit aku kering, memang saje la kan tengok movie takde popcorn takde ape. -,-

sebelum Movie, jumpa Nyna. pfftt berdebar habis, cam nak tercabut jantung. first meet dia ni do! Awww, sumpah Nina cun habis <3 Love you Nina. siap bagi lollipop lagi do. ni mesti beli kat klcc. kahkah kantoi! XD aku ni da tak prepare ape en nak jumpa dia, ape lagi, aku bagi la gambar satu, hihi amik from instax mini aku ni. wooott. Simpan tau Nina. sayang do nak makan lollipop dia bagi hahaa :P Thanks Senoh amik gambar kitorang. sumpah Nina cakap banyak, ahaha :P nanti kita date lagi tauu

Movie habis around 4.30 memang setengah jam lagi la en before hyun joong sampai. aku dengan Senoh pulak nak terkencing. Muka dia pun da panas semacam je, aku ni nak cari toilet tak jumpa, excited sangat. Ramai gila kot orangggg siaaaall datang untuk Hyun Joong ni. -,- apesal semua nak jumpa laki aku ni. bongok. lupakan toilet, lupakan nak terkencing. tahan je la do. memang kene penyakit batu karang la jap lagi do. aku kisah pe, memang ni hidup dan mati je, tak jumpa Hyun Joong kali ni, memang tak dapat jumpa dia sampai bila-bila T.T

setengah jam tunggu, memang cibai. aku da la pendek, cina depan aku ni pun nasib baik pendek. pfftt! dah la duk sebelah stage, memang confirm dia tak pandang sini sial. Around 5 dia pun datang, fans semua da menjerit, kitorang yang sebelah stage ni memang tak nampak batang hidung dia lagi, jerit sama. buat-buat nampak la kan. camera da bersedia kat tangan, memang menggigil cam orang nak sunat do. lama jugak aaa nak nampak diaaa. last-last nampak rambut dia. Bah-bisss. memang aku tak terkata. semua dah menjerit macam orang gila, aku jugak memang senyap, diam tak kata ape. lidah terkelu. tangan sibuk amik gambar dia, tak sempat buat auto ape jadah, biarkan. memang blurr la gambar semua suka hati la. lepas neuron yang ada ni bersambung, baru aku menjerit sekuat hati. tak jerit nama, setakat 'AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA' je lebih. memang semput, sumpah do. orang belakang ni, sambil jerit, sambit himpit aku. lembu betul. aku ape lagi, aku jerit, aku himpit cina depan ni pulak.

Memang bodoh, aku tak kira, sambil jerit, badan menghimpit, tangan terus amik gambar hyun joong. memang shaking la dow, nasib tak terkencing je do. lepas tu memang rasa nak mati kene himpit, aku nak keluar, sian senoh tunggu lama-lama. muka dia memang panas gila da, memang takde mood. aku pun ye laaa, terus blah. Mak aihh, nak keluar pun susah do! orang himpit dari belakang. minah belakang aku bising aku nak keluar. eh nasib baik do aku nak keluar, kau boleh duk depan. sioddd, tak reti bersyukur. sumpah puas hati dapat tengok dia, dapat jerit nama dia semua. memang sumpah best best best aku rasa nak pengsaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan ♥

keluar tu, terus pergi toilet. cari senoh dulu, then contact Nina. dia pun sibuk nak tengok Hyun Joong sekali hihi sian do Nina tak nampak dia T.T kitorang terus rush ke toilet. memang nak terkencing gila. Toilet Pavi dengan KLCC memang la selalu buat aku kencing tak lawas. aku mana boleh kencing tak basuh. lap dengan tisu je, ingat ni beristinjak ke ape do. nasib aku bawak air mineral muahahaha :P

Nasib tak menjerit dalam toilet, siap melompat-lompat excited gila cerita kat Nina pasal Hyun Joong. Damnit, serious dia handsome gila. Alhamdulillah dapat jumpa dia jugak akhirnya :") dapat jerit nama dia pun puas hati, serious gila puas hati, dapat tengok dia semua. sumpah. Aku jumpa Hyun Joong, kau jumpa? hahaha :P

Hari Penuaan

2010-11-30T00:38:00.004+08:00

Whoooot ♥ Dah 16 rupanya aku ni. Haha rasa baru 10 tahun ececece :P even birthday hari ni, tapi tetap sama je macam hari yang lain. Birthday aku, boleh pulak tidur kan -,- Penat seeehh. Ohemgee, memang terharu habis ramai betul orang wish! Juniors, seniors, and friendss puiii. Suka ni! terasa pemes je harhar :P

Sakit gila doh tangan buat menatang jadah haram ni. 6 jam kot aku buat benda ni aja -,- habis lah, barang tak packing, esok ada meeting, then rush ke airport. Astaghfirullahalazim, Allah aku mohon dilambatkan sedikit masa. memang kene bangun pukul 6 lah ni nampak gaya -,- salah menatang ni la! gatal sangat aku nak buat benda ni. tahun lepas letak nama je kan, kali ni siap ada gambar. Camno, hebat tak? :P memang berpeluh buat benda ni aja T.T Sumpah, jangan tiru aku buat benda ni. Buat penat je. Terima kasih kepada semua yang dah wish! ♥ muah kiri, muah kanan :)

And yang tiada dalam gambar, korang tetap istimewa. sorry la tak boleh market dalam blog aku. serious penat ni, nanti aku update balik eh, aku letak gambar korang ♥ Alhamdulillah setakat ni dah 238 orang wish :)
Mama, abah, kakak, Nashira, Wahida, Alya, Teah, Iman, Alya Alfian, Eya, leya, Amir Jacob, Hanna Yasmeen, Stella Coe, Naj, Fatyn Syahirah, Abu Turner, Mely Bely honey, Cassandra, Arin Sofia, Farhana, Lala, Rozen, Wanie, Sis, Sasa, Zaty, Ainin Sofiya, Hazwani, Farah Francis, Kak Ain, Kak Izana, Aimi Ruzaini, NurHusna, Nana Hamran, Ainaa Mazelin.

Tidak lupa, kepada kembar-kembar ku yang menyambut hari lahir hari ni, whoooott ♥
IKHWAN SHAFIQ, IZZAH HANIM, FIRDAUS ISZEHAM, NANA HAMRAN, NURUL ASMIDA, NURUL FATIN ♥

Thanks jugak kepada beberapa orang tu yang siap wish dalam blog lagi; Nurul Asmida, Dodol, Akmal Lokman ♥ :)

Eventhough tak celebrate hari ni, takpe! Esok balik kl, pergi celebrate laaaa wehuuuu :P sesiapa yang rasa dia suka gambar dia dalam ni, boleh la Like :)

THANKS KORANG! SAYANG KORANG SEJUTA ♥ MUAH KIRI, MUAH KANAN

Budak-budak

2010-11-25T19:24:00.000+08:00

Budak-budak zaman sekarang memang tak malu kan. Ish ishh. ehem terasa ke? waharhar. Tadi sengaja sign in account facebook adik aku sorang ni. senang je nak tahu password dia. Nak tahu password dia apa? nak nak nak? Pffttt :P aku tidak menganiaya adik sendiri. Ingat yea TIDAK MENGANIAYA waharhar. Pergilah check message diaaa. Tengok apa aku jumpaaaa *drum rollsss

wakakakaka. gelak guling-guling aku. slumberr je kan adik aku mintak password. wahaharharrr malu la dikk oii. akak pulak yang kene tutup mukaaa *tutup dengan baldi. ohgoddd ape nak jadi dengan adik aku sorang ni. Tidaak tidaaakk *bunuh diri. Yang lagiii besssttt

Hahahahahahahahahahaahahhahahahahahahahahaa ohgodd *tarik nafas hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ape bengapnya minah nii, perlu ke cakap dia pandai mengira sikit-sikit je. Tercalar maruah! Adooooiii adik aku nii, tolong lah dikk, insaf, pergi solat tahjud sanaaa. Adik aku sikit-sikit penat, sikit-sikit penatt tuih tuih, kalau nama pemalas memang pemalas *macam cakap kat diri sendiri je. Eheeeemm. Yang paling best antara yang best best besssttt

hahahahahahahahahaha wakakakakakakaka kikikikikikikikikikikiki huhuhuhuhuhuhuh hohohohohohohohoho wahahahaha hak hak *sesaf nafas. Astaghfirullahalaziiiimm, sakit jantung boleh aku dengan adik aku ni. Memang tak bersalah gilaaaa kan. slumber okay cakap. hahaha I LIKE! adik aku memang extreme, macam aku ni. bagus bagussss :P I likeee you lah adik, muaah muaahh :"P fuuhh memang muka tak bersalah habisss. memang makan dalam nii. waharharhar!

Aku tanya diaaa, eh kenapa bagitau. tak malu lah doh! dia cakap eehh kene la cakap, kalau suka kene cakap. Takkan tak cakap, nanti macam mana nak tahu dia suka kita tak. amboi amboii pandai noh hang cakap. Tunggu besar seksokk tengokla tercalar maruah nanti! Hihihihi tak sabar nak tunggu adik aku masuk highschool, mesti tak berani jumpa dah mamat ni waharhar. Baik aku terjun lombong je laa ada adik macam ni, waharhar!

Ps:/ Jangan cakap kat diaa aku bukak account diaa, habis kene kerja dengan dia nanti. confirm merajuk habiss. senyap sudeeh! Eh nak likee? sila like like like ♥ Market habis

Sudah-sudah lah

2010-11-25T01:30:00.001+08:00

Ohooii orang-orang kampung. sudah-sudah lah tu solve puzzlenya, sudah sudah. Tidak perlu lagi -,- Bukannya apa pun. nak tahu sangat siapa Biru ni kenapa? ish ish kecoh je haaa. Biarkan dia tetap menjadi rahsia yang tak berapa nak rahsia dah. wahaha. Oh tadi baca blog Pet, perrgghhh memang pedas jugak kot entry dia sampai aku pun terasa ni T.T Dia kata senang kan nak berubah hati. lepas orang tu tak balas perasaan kita, kita pun eventually suka kat orang lain pulak. dah la tak kenal ape semua kan, boleh pulak suka -,- Okay Pet, disini saya mengaku saya terasa TT.TT Pet kalau dah perli memang makan dalam orang kata.

Senang cerita macam ni lah. sebenarnya korang dah tertipu belaka belaka ya orang-orang kampung. Biru adalah satu watak. Eh bukaan khayalan, memang real cuma exaggerate lebih sikit. Haha faham kan? Ingat lagi tak macam mana boleh jumpa Biru? ya ya dari kawan lain darah lain daging. seperti yang aku cakap, dia hanya crush. tahu crush? yang david archuleta nyanyi tu. crush crush crush? tak faham jugak? sila google ya orang-orang kampung.

Inilah kisah disebaliknya. Macam main game pulak benda ni, aku just cakap dengan member aku je dia handsome, macam minat. then kitorang chat chat chat. Aku saja nak bagi panas, aku cakap aku kene hapus bukti nanti dia tahu then berlakon la malu-malu sikit. Lepas chat dengan member aku tu, aku pun post la kat status pasal Biru segala bagai. Yelah, biar keadaan yang panas jadi mendidih pulak kan. Tetiba datang hamba Allah ni add semua kan. okay fineee.

Boleh pulak dia like semua post pasal biru, sejak tu lah dia tahu siapa Biru. astaga mamat ni -,- makin best pulak benda ni, so mari bikin benda mendidih jadi evaporate pulak. semua pasal Biru, Biru sana, Biru sini. Biru tak habis-habis. Bermulalah kisah pabila semua pun tanya siapa Biru, ada yang usik pasal Biru. okay orang-orang kampung chill chill! Ingin menghangatkan lagi suasana, aku pun post pasal Biru. Ewah tu yang uoolls sampai 76 orang like tu kan? wah wah waaahh, market habis kan!

Aku dah rasa nak stop semua ni, macam malas pulak nak ber-Biru lagi ni, lepas baca entry Pet, makin berkobar dibuatnya. So disini saya dengan rasminya mengisytiharkan, TIADA LAGI BIRU. Ada faham orang-orang kampung? Kalau tak faham, terjun longkang. crush adalah crush. itu perkara biasa. Aku pun crush dengan member aku. Crush sana, crush sini, crush berbagai-bagai. Tidak dilupakan Rashdan Rahmat yang sejak dari dulu famous di sekolah aku sebab aku asyik cakap pasal dia. Srnang cerita, siapa je yang keluar dari mulut aku ni famous sebab aku asyik cakap pasal orang tu je. Ewaahh, rasa nak tendang je kan minah ni. Riak ujub takbur habis! Zaman Rashdan Rahmat dah berlalu, zaman Biru mengambil tempat. sekarang Biru takde, siapa pula target lepas ni? adakah Baby Boy? wahaha. I looiikkeee,

Sesungguhnya, biarpun ada crush segala bagai, nama crush sentiasa ada di status dan post aku, tapi aku tetap dengan Hakimi Huzaini. *sedih T.T Semua happy dengan boypreng masing masing, aku ni? Lonelyyyyy~ I'm Mr Lonelyyyy~ Auwwhhh *kesat air mata T.T Kan best kalau Hakimi ada lagi, takde la aku nak ber-Biru segala bagai. otak aku pun dah Biru dah ni astaghfirullahalazim mengucap.

Dalam Tumblr ada kata;

Based on psychologic study, a crush only lasts for a maximum of 4 months.
If it exceeds, then, you are already in love ♥

Aku dengan Biru baru berapa hari kan? so lepaak la orang-orang kampung. Minum kopi, main dam lu. Dengan Hakimi Huzaini je, crush sampai setahun okay? Sweet kan. Ya saya tahu :P

Akhir lafaz, Selamat Tinggal Biru, selamat jalan Romeo. Silalah tengok dia buat kali terakhir, sebab dia akan nyah dari sini dalam beberapa saat. wahohoho

Siapakah Biru? *updated 24/11

2010-11-23T00:20:00.002+08:00

Ye ye aku tahu, korang mesti tertanya-tanya siapa Biru, macam mana rupa Biru, handsome sangat ke dia, dia buat apa, umur berapa, stay mane apa jadah haram tu la. Mesti la nak tengok jugak kan, sebab aku ni ye lah macam obses sangat dah dekat Biru ni -,- Status facebook pasal dia, astaga bila nak insaf. Sampaikan orang tiada kaitan pun tahu ni, apo kono ni jang? malu den D;

Sebab apa malu. Taik mesti la malu, sampaikan adik siap boleh post status dan slumber kata "oh dia senior adik tu" ohbitchy habissss. Tercalar maruah aku. Ape ni ape ni, semua pun dah tahu. Habis lah aku. Dalam hati aku rasa Biru dah tahu yang dia itu Biru kerana dia seorang je yang pakai baju Biru kat situ. dia takde lah lembab sangat seperti ape yang si tongoi Cam tu cakap. Dia bijak orangnya. Ewah! :P Tapi kan bila tengok-tengok balik, takda la handsome sangat, biasa je. Muka pun hm-hm okay lah, muka tiga suku haha! Alah boleh la setakat nak market hihiks.

Seharusnya Biru rasa berbangga sebab aku dia famous. seperti biasa orang yang cool, dan benda yang cool je ada dalam blog ni. Bila dia ada dalam blog ni, maksudnya dia cool. Ya aku tahu, sebab tu aku minat dia.
Orang text je tanya siapa Biru. Orang reply post je mesti kata, eh Biru lagi? senang cerita, memang yang rapat dan tak rapat dengan aku tahulah aku minat Biru!

Nak dijadikan cerita, lepas aku chat dengan dia, aku pun tergedik pulak nak stalk Biru. Ewahh mana tahu dia ada post status yang berkaitan aku ke kan. hihiks. Bukak je, PPPPAAAAMM! "___________ is in relationship with __________ like. comment." Aku rasa macam

Memang hantu betul. Dasar Cam tipu aku. kata dia single, taik jadah binatang haram apa single?! Sepatutnya aku percaya cakap Kiah, bukan cakap kau Cam. Aku benci kau T.T Aku tengok la awek dia. Pergghhhh, memang nak maki je

Tapi aku kene chill, buat apa yang aku suka. tak boleh maki maki, nanti hodoh. tak laku pula jadinya.

tapi nampak sangat over kan. so aku biarkan aja. dalam hati memang dah nangis dah ni T.T apelah nasib. kenapa Biru tak suka aku. Aku nak dia wall post aku tapi dia tipu. Bodoh. Kalau aku jumpa dia memang aku nak buat macam ni

Bukan dekat Biru la, dekat awek dia. Haha, buat dekat Biru buat ape, nanti takde chance la aku. Aku tahu Biru macam dah syak yang dia tu Biru, sebab tu dia cakap macam tu dekat aku. Bodoh. lelaki memang takda kerja lain selain beri harapan palsu? kalau dah tahu memang takkan buat, takpayah cakap la.

Anyway, post aku dah panjang sangat dah ni, tapi rupa Biru nya tak ada jugak kelihatan. Naaaahh amik, save, print, tampal kat dinding~♥

Eh? kenapa gambar macam ni? gilooo mesti lah macam nii, hamboih hamboihh. kalau tahu dek awek dia tak ke niaya. tapi yang paling penting, jangan tunjukkan bukti dekat dia. nanti dia tahu. Ya ya, maybe now Biru tahu aku suka dia, tapi aku tak mengaku, so kira tak la kan? Jadi untuk selamatkan rahsia aku yang bagai telur di hujung tanduk ni, aku edit, aku crop, paste, copy sana sini. penat tahu tak? So enjoy lah mencantumkan puzzle tu. Ni kerja cuti sekolah korang, jangan malas!

Update;

Wallaahh! ramai juga eh yang try nak solve puzzle ni? waharharhar, time solve tu kan, perasan tak ada satu part yang hilang? teka apa. Jeng jeng jeng, mulut dia okay! haha mulut dia market tu, tak boleh, kang memang sah sah dia tahu nanti. ni pun aku baik la bagi mata dia kan, kalau ikutkan memang tak boleh jugak! biar korang cantum muka takda mata, takde mulut. hidung je. Hahaa.

Okay, akhirnya ada seorang hamba Allah ni, yang memang bijak macam mak dia iaitu aku, sebab dia anak aku, so dia solvekan puzzle ni, and eventhough ada missing part tapi boleh jugak dia dapat original photo, profile facebook, siap dengan facebook awek dia sekali. Wah wah wahh, hebat betul! Lawan tauke ni -,-

Dia kata dia nampak status aku dengan Cam, so dia pun agak mesti Biru ni ada kat sibling Cam, and entah camno, dia main click click kot, Puufff! dapat original photo Biru. Astaga ape ni -,- memang hebat la kau ni Bat. Inilah muka orang bijak itu, beri tepukan. maaf takde hadiah -,-

Masih baru, taik pun masih hijau

2010-11-22T17:32:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, tepat jam 0030 21 Nov 2010, lahirlah seorang baby Tumblr yang diberi nama Omgdiddy. ye aku tahu sangat lah omg kan? awwwhh♥ aku dah janji dengan Mely nak buat Tumblr lepas final. Aku rasa final pun dah lama berlalu so, yeah. kebetulan nak tunggu sekali anniversary dengan Arwah Hakimi. Kalau boleh semua benda dalam hidup aku, aku nak biar ada kaitan dengan dia. kan kan kan?

so Yeah, sekarang baby Tumblr dah berumur sehari. Ewahhh, aku tak perlu breastfeeding dia. cukuplah dengan reblog dan beratus post. Tumblr can be quite addictive huh? -,- Habis lah. lepas facebook, ke Tumblr. lepas ni aku pun tak tahu aku nak menjelajah ke social sites mane lagi. Memang kuat jelajah la aku, bermastautin sana sini. Musafir katakan. Jadi sesiapa yang ada Tumblr, silalah follow okay? confirm punya aku follow balik. Bukan famous sangat pun Tumblr aku tu sampai terlepas pandang korang yang follow aku. Nahh url kasi besar punya. Takde yang lagi besar ke? ada, nanti aku buat sepanduk okay?

TUMBLR; OMG DIDDY!

Setiap tahun kahwin?

2010-11-20T21:16:00.001+08:00

Hari ni selesai satu lagi kenduri kahwin. Kali ni giliran Angah pulak. Tahun lepas Along, siap beranak ape dah minah tu. Cepatnya masa berlalu, aku pula makin tua, makin bongkok, makin rapuh tulang. Aduhaii, *menyorok dalam semak. Dah lah semalam tidur pukul 2.30 pagi, tengok drama korea punya pasal. Tahu dek mak aku, memang nak kene baling dengan selipar secara berjemaah, bertalu-talu pula tu.

Pagi-pagi lagi dah kene bangun. Sohai bengkak mata. Teringat pula post Dhan; Kau mampu? sumpah tergelak guling-guling tengok arnab tu. Sohaii mata sama dengan kau Dhan. Seperti biasa, nak bangun tu yang payah. Orang kata sebab setan selimutkan kita dengan kulit babi sebab tu selesa. Astaghfirullahalazim, seram pula aku dibuatnya. Digagahkan juga untuk bangun, sebab aku tak rela dengar mak aku membebel dan mengungkit salasilah aku daripada aku lahir sampai sekarang.

Cousin dari JB, Pak Ngah and cousin semua dah sampai. Meriah lagi sekali rumahhh. Yehaaaa. Cousin aku yang laki from JB ni, perghh mak aii rambut, macam landak pun ada jugak aku tengok mamat tu. Nak kata handsome, handsome Biru lagi. *oh sudah sudah, aku nak lupakan Biru. Aku ada jugak nak tanya, kenal tak Kiah ape jadah semua en, tapi maluu auwww :")

Lepas usha-ushaa, tolong lap pinggan, menyebok lah pula tengok orang berandam. Euwww geli makeup, tapi aku suka makeup orang. Sohaii gedik jugak aku ni haaa. Eh eh nak tengok semalam aku inaikan jari kakak aku? Ewahhh, boleh bukak kedai Henna ni :P

Dan akhirnya menjadi begini. Jeng jeng jengggg~

Part paling best bila ada dslr. wehaaaa memang aku guna macam hak aku la kan. Eh suka hati la en, bukan kene bayar. rezeki jangan ditolak orang kata. Boleh pulak lantik diri sendiri jadi photographer, siap slumber je cover photographer lain shoot. Perghh, nak kata aku hebat, tak hebat mana tapi memang hebat pun. Ewahh :P Bila dah ber-dslr, kene pose lah sikit en :P

Kebetulan, Along baru bersalin. Orang datang bukan nak tengok pengantin sangat, tapi lebih kepada cucu. omagad, kesian Angah -,-' selalu orang lebihkan Along. Alahaii. memang rezeki Sufya sangat murah okay, aku kira-kira ada jugak dalam RM350 makcik-makcik kasi hadiah kat orang baru dalam family. Tu pun baru separuh sebab separuh lagi bapak dia sudah ambil. waharhar. bagi Mak Teh jelah Suf oii :P budak kecik tak leh pegang duit banyak-banyak. Ewahh Mak Teh pun.

Omagadd, hari ni malam pertama diorang. pengsan -,-

Better late than never; ewahh

2010-11-20T02:10:00.000+08:00

Salam Aidiladha. Ewahh, baru nak update post pasal ni kan. Lembu dah beribu kene tumbang, pisau pun makin tumpul, daging pun dah jadi taik, baru nak bersalam segala bagai. Haktuihh. Anyway, pagi pagi lagi dah ponteng solat raya. memang ngantuk tahap gaban juga la ni. mata pun seperti panda, kalah pakai eyeliner macam Narsha.
Hari raya korban dah terkorban pahala sunat solat raya aku. Apelah nasib. Bangun bangun terus cari baby macam orang sasau.

Ya ya Mak Teh yang tak tahu malu. Mengalahkan anak sendiri, hamboih lawan tauke nampak. Lepas mandi, terus bukak almari pilih baju mana nak pakai. kakak suruh pakai kebaya, kebetulan memang aku nak pakai, aku pun iyakan aja. suruh dia iron, last-last boleh pulak terbakar -,-' shittiesss, dah lah baju kebaya peberet Arwah Hakimi tuuu. Memang nak angin je aku. Niat di hati memang nak sangat pakai kebaya, so biarlah redha dengan ketentuan Ilahi.

Tunggu punya tunggu, dah berkobar-kobar nak tengok lembu ni. Adik aku pun dah bising, so kakak aku pun bawak lah kitorang pergi tengok lembu. Ho yeahh challo bettey!

Eh eh, muka budak ni macam shin chan je kan. memang nak gelak guling-guling aku tengok gambar ni. Macam Upin Ipin pun ada jugak ni. Omagaadd. Memang sadis tengok lembu kene sembelih. Lagi sadis kalau tak dapat makan daging. Jadi, aku lebih rela sadis tak dapat makan daging. Balik rumah nenek, dah la panas. Dalam baju, memang dah rasa macam air terjun dahh, berpeluh punya pasal.

Ingat nak balik rumah awal, tak boleh jugak. Ada aja yang menghalang. Kene potong bawang pula nak masak dengan daging nanti. Memang boleh buat drama, dengan air mata segala bagai. T.T digagahkan juga, demi daging lembu yang tercinta. Siap je masak, terus sumbat sumbat sumbat tak ingat dunia. Balik terus sembelit, haa ambik kau. Lain kali beringat nak makan, kunyah dulu baru telan. Ni asal masuk dalam mulut je telan, asal masuk je telan. Patutlah sembelit -,-

Biru biru dan biru

2010-11-19T01:58:00.001+08:00

Sejam yang lalu, aku usha album kawan aku. Usha punya usha dicampur dengan tahap kebosanan yang melampau ingin mengusha abang kacak, aku ternampak pulak mamat ni. oh my gucci memang handsome habissss. I know, kawan dia kan. Dengan tak tahu malunya, terus comment. perrghhhh -,-'

Tapi sengaja la kan, taknak bagitau kawan aku. kita main tarik tali ewahh. tarikk tariiikk. Aku ingat dia bodoh, rupanya bijak juga. Boleh pulak tahu aku minat yang mana satu eventhough aku tak cakap. Oh My Gucci, bijak habis kau. Bila dah kantoi dengan member aku ni, memang tercalar habis maruah. dah takde kemaluan orang kata. Oh tidakk. Nak buat macam mane, masih taknak mengaku jugak walaupun dah kantoi. orang kata makin kita kata tak, makin nampak kebenarannya. disebabkan member aku ni dah dapat genetik bijak daripada aku, dia pun memang boleh nampak la yang aku minat member dia mana satu. Alahaii jang.

Dia memang handsome. Sehandsome Ridhwan Rahmat. Ridhwan Rahmat tu famous sangat, tak boleh. Kita ambil yang underground punya. selama beberapa minit, aku duk angau dengan mamat tu. Aku tahu nama dia ape, tapi untuk merahsiakan identitinya, kita namakan dia Biru. Perghhh memang best bila dah angau. Macam bercinta pula. Astaga. kalau boleh status semua pasal dia. ewahhh, gatal.

Bila dah ber-status, makin terserlah lah rahsia aku yang tak berapa nak rahsia tu. Member aku yang bijak ni pun komen dan like segala bagai. ape jadah pun aku tak tahu. Yang tak leh belah bila dia gelak. rasa cam nak sembelih pun ada, tapi aku batalkan niat sebab dia lah satu-satunya harapan untuk aku dekat dengan Biru. wah wahh, mempergunakan.

Aku tak tahu lah sama ada dia ada awek ke tak. Nak tanya terang-terang dengan member aku malu. So, kita guna cara halusss punya dan dia takkan sedar. ewahh bijak kan? Cover punya cover, akhirnya pecah juga rahsia bahawa dia dah ada awek T.T tuhan je tahu betapa hancur hatiku, omagad. Lepas tahu, terus post status kat facebook, aku benci biru. Serious aku benci Biru, dan awek Biru. Biru biru biru I hate you! :"( I'll be a house. When she doesn't need you anymore, I'll be your house. The one who will always be there. Ewahh jiwang T.T

curang depan mata

2010-11-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

Contoh boyfriend curang depan mata macam ni la; T.T takpe, nanti aku photoshop minah tu, letak muka gua sebab gua lagi cun dari minah tu kan kan. aku akan pastikan aku kahwin dengan Kim Hyun Joong sebab aku nak nama anak aku ada Kim kat belakang. waharhar. kalau dapat anak lelaki, mesti handsome betul macam seseorang tu. kalau dapat anak perempuan, perrrgghhh, kalah Hayley Williams. Ya ya aku berani jamin sebab muka gua pun dah nak dekat dengan Hayley Williams. auwwww. Demi masa depan anak-anak, aku buat tak nampak je Hyun Joong kiss betina ni 8|

Aku tahu Hyun Joong sangat handsome, sebab tu ramai berebut contoh nya seperti seseorang itu. waharhar. bile dah handsome, kawan baik dia pun mesti handsome contoh nya Kim Jae Joong. wah wah wahh, kim jugak kan? dan bini Kim Jae Joong juga adalah kawan-kawan aku. kenapa kawan-kawan? sebab ada dua orang perempuan ni perasan dia bini Jae Joong. ops silap, binis bukan bini. macam bunyi ikan bilis pula. Uhh laparrr T.T anyway, I tak perasan okay, I memang bini Hyun Joong. waharhar :P

Untuk memastikan keselamatan daripada peminat-peminat husband I yang saik-ko-ji itu, chatbox telah diremove. ewahh bijak kan? memang, memang bijak. sebab drama ni jugak lah, I merajuk dengan husband I. dia jauh di korea, I di Malaysia. mana tak cemburu? I pun lari dari rumah. sanggup dia balik Malaysia, pujuk I balik uolssss. Tak percaya? Ini buktinyaaa, paparazzi yang amik gambar ni, siap ada yang translate hangul husband I. Hebat kan?

Tiru macam saya

2010-11-16T23:48:00.004+08:00

Hari ni last paper. Hari ni juga last day sekolah. Bila exam habis, semua tertanya pasal result. Ada yang lek luuhh, baru habiss, nak fikir result dah. Ada yang perghh mati la result nanti. Tak kira apa reaksi, yang penting exam habisss. hihiks

Tapi yang paling tak best nya, time exam je, cikgu mesti melalut sana sini. beri amaran sana sini, konon nak bagi semangat tapi sebenarnya ugutan secara halussss. Heh, ingat saya tak tahu ya cikgu? Lupakan akuan bersumpah palsu itu. Tahun depan tandatangan Aku Janji sekali lagi. Aii memang kumpul banyak dosa la, main Aku Janji ni. Oh lupa pula, Aku Janji ni adalah salah satu akuan bersumpah yang disediakan oleh sekolah yang mewajibkan pelajar-pelajar menandatanganinya. macam bodoh tapi boleh buat bahan.

Bila dah tandatangan, memang tak dapat diselamatkan kecuali score dalam exam. untuk score, tak perlu baca buku segala bagai. Aku ada contoh terbaik punya. Masih segar dari ladang, tidak basi dan tidak punya bahan pengawet. memang original, bukan barang Cina. Jeng jeng jengg.

Ini contoh terbaik setakat ini. senang kan? tak perlu baca segala bagai atau mintak soalan spot sana sini. Langsung terus dari dalam buku. Inilah resipi serta bahan perisa yang perlu ada untuk lulus Test Pertolongan Cemas. Ingin saya tegaskan lulus. ewah ewah, ape? budak zs je buat camni. alahh, tunjuk ustad la pulak. Korang punya lagi extreme kan? yea aku tahu aku tahu. aku dah bomoh meja korang, siap boleh nampak lagi korang buat kat skrin tv auww. yea yeaa, senang cerita, satu meja, satu skrin tv.

Anda jangan tertipu yea. Ini bukan lah fenomena biasa berlaku di kelas 4 Bestari kerana kami sangatlah baik. Tidak meniru buku segala bagai. kami cuma mengamalkan nasihat yang diberikan Jabatan Pelajaran Negeri iaitu untuk Lihat Sebelah. kami Lihat Sebelah, tak tiru. hanya untuk meng-sure-kan jawapan. kalau tak betul, kita padam. Ye tak? ewaahh.

Eh, siapa budak ni yang jadi model ni? baiklah, oleh kerana identitinya terpaksa dirahsiakan, nama sebenar tidak akan dinyatakan disini. cukuplah sekadar nama panggilan manjanya KOMAN haaa, korang tahu tak siapa? tak kan, tak kan? satu sekolah tak kenal siapa KOMAN ni, so tuan punya gambar, rahsia anda selamat.

Kadang kala, oleh kerana keadaan sangat berbahaya, kita tidak guna buku. kita guna cara ini

extreme bukan? ya aku tahu, tapi best. lagi best kalau kene tangkap. memang nak kene pulas telinga dan mendapat sebutir telur. Seperti biasa, terbaik dari ladang, dan warna kulitnya adalah merah. Nak lagi best, anda boleh cuba tukar-tukar kertas. hebat bukan? ya saya tahu. benda yang hebat je ada dalam blog ni. waharharr.

Eh? nak tahu jugak siapa orang di atas. Alahai, kepoh. Seperti biasa, identiti sebenar terpaksa dirahsiakan, cukuplah dia dikenali sebagai YUJAE. Haa, tak kenal bukan? ya aku tahu, kalau kenal tak kata la pulak identiti sebenar dirahsiakan.

Rasanya cukup setakat ini dahulu. Ingatlah, meniru tangga kejayaan.

A sneak peak into my wardrobe

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Ahaaaaa, hari ni rasa nak tunjuk wardrobe aku je, wahehehe,
eh bukan apa haaa, mane tahu, kot kot ada baju ceq yang sama dengan hanggg, boleh kita hangout pakai baju sama noh!
Ni first time ceq tunjuk wardrobe ceq, so hang hang dan hangg, bertuah noh bulehhh tengok apa yang ada dalam almari ceq

anywayy, kat sini lah semua baju yang selama ni aku pakai
yang korang ada puji, ada kutuk tuuu, haa haaaa,
kalau terasa nak beli pun boleh HAHA! XD
tapi serious lahh, wardrobe aku lah paling murah sekali,
kalau orang rompak pun, memang dapat berapa sen je
sebab semua baju aku beli dekat junksale kot, Jeans jelah tak kan
wahehehe,

Terasa nak tambah lagi laaaahhh bajuuu, herrrr
nak keluar lah nanti beli bajuuuu, oh oh! plus birthday Koman nanti nak celebrateee, haa boleh pergi sekali
wahehehe :P

okay sini ceq tunjuk satu satu apa ada dalam almari ceq noh

first ni cardigans, I've a few cardigans, not really fancy, but I just love my cardigans ♥

These are all my dresses, I've 4 dresses. Tak cantik pun en? -,-' Urghhh, nak beli lagii D:

ni pulakkk, Jeansss, wurghhh memang buruk jeanss, ni pun ada aku curik curik dari orang wahehe, Halal noh?

rows of tops, sekarang jarang seh pakai top, tak tahu kenapaaaa, ohh each of my top worth RM10! :D

eh eh, ceq pun ada sweatshirts! hahaaa, :P keliur pulakk tengokkk dalam cerita korea tu kan, orang pakai sweatshirtsss weheeheee,

Ni pulakk blouses, fuhhhh siap koyak pun ada, tapi jugak aku buat tak nampak, dan aku ambil langkah orang lain juga takkan nampak kesan koyak tuu, so aku pakai jugak haha, mama marah tapi ceq kisah paa?

Ini pulaaa tudung ceq nohhh, ceq sangkut elok elokk ni hahaa XD macam-macam colour ada, boleh jual dah ni -,-

Ni bahagian bawahhh, dalam kotak tu ada barang barang tak gunaa -,- oh, can you see my baby polaroid there? heeee ♥ *takde film seh D: malass restock

andd last but not least, box full of bags :D semua bag ada dalam nii, Happy beli baggg (Y)

Almari korang pulak macam mane? wahwahwah* :P

Kan best kalauu .. hmph!

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Perghhh best kan jadi adik Kevin Woo nihhh,
perghh suke hati je nak suruh Dongho call segala bagai,
esok nii tweet suruh Alexander belanja dia makan pulak la nii,

like befriending with SNSD, mesti SNSD boleh ajarr dance step HOOT~ -,-'
Taikkkkk la pulak bile aku fikir balikkk, lepas tu hangout dengan Hyun Joong, omo omo omo
NI TAK BOLEH JADI! That's my husbandddd D:

Okay Deanna Woo, I'm keeping an eye on YAAAAA! DX

ARGHHHHHH~ jealousnyaaaaa, Kevin woo, please be my brother too D:

Hardcore habis!

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OMG OMG OMONA!

28 persons like my "I KNOW RIGHT," post!

OMG, terharu habis!

Thanks guys and girls

OMG, you lot are truly amazing readers!

I might not know which one of you are my true-readers *that's because you never leave a blogwalking message on my chatbox T.T

but I really want you to know

YOU ARE THE KING AND QUEEN OF MY HEART!

I love my readers to bitssssss ♥

My blog might not be as famous as others with around 1K+ followers

but what I have now, I'm more than grateful.

I might have haters and lovelies reading my blog

whoever you are, thanks so much.

You know without you guys, I'll never gonna make it!

I'd never thought I have such a bunch of cool readers ♥

SO THIS IS FOR YOU FOR BEING SUCH LOVELIES TO ME!

A FANCY CROWN OF MY HEART!

Ps : please leave your blogwalking message with your blog url on chatbox,

so that I can stalk! :)

I know right,

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Sesungguhnya, daya resistance sangatlah lemah untuk menolak jodoh-jodoh yang datang

Aku tak mintak, diorang yang berebut kan aku

Siap buat music video, dance steps and everything, Yeah yeah I know, satu-satu yea sayangss?

Jangan salahkan ibu mengandung lah kan :P

"Nak text Nadiha ke taknak"

"Ish, mane Nadiha ni tak sampai-sampai lagi, aku dah handsome dah ni nak date dengan dia"

"tak dapat jumpa, tengok dari luar rumah pun takpe, oh Nadiha!"

"Handsomenye aku, padan sangat dengan Nadiha tu, Goodbye Key, Taemin, Jonghyun, Onew!

She's mine!"

"sukanya nak bagi bunga kat Nadiha! berdebar-debar jantung ni!"

"Nadiha, tunggu Abe Key lamar Nadiha lepas Red Warrior menang"

"Nadiha mesti suka hadiah ni!"

"Oh Nadiha, awok dah curi hati ambo"

"Teddy bear ni lagi besar dari Nadihahahahaha"

"nak ketuk ke taknak, agak-agak mak Nadiha kejar aku dengan batang penyapu tak?"

Fancy fan-girl-ing ?

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OH YEAH!

I'm a proud Miss A biased and Miss A_Suzy! ♥

MISS A_SUZY! ♥ ♥ ♥

Help me ?

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Fancy to help them spreading the news ?

click on the photo below to direct you to Bean-Buckshee Store!

www.facebook.com/bean.buckshee

We've rebranding the store, and now more stocks are coming such as accessories and bags

For now, we've only started receiving orders for long-necklaces.

All are below RM 30

Happy purchasing, gals ♥

More info, email us at littleecogreen@yahoo.com