Assalamualaikum wbt.

I have a pet and it's a horse. My horse is a male and obviously, he is taller than me which made me feel so secure. My pet is friendly to everyone though. He likes to be called cute and handsome. I don't know why do I have to call a horse handsome? Gosh, my horse is a psycho it is. He is special because you can never have a horse like I do. He is such a special pet because I love him. That made him special, really. He doesn't stay at my backyard or anything. He's living really far away, thousands of miles away in a cosy and beautiful place without me. I wonder if he's missing me cause I'm missing him so bad. Its been a year now since I first have him as my pet. I never thought that he would choose to be my pet instead of others. I wonder why. Since my pet is a male, he surely had had a girlfriend. Well, his girlfriend was a horse too. With a long hair it is. So beautiful, I'm so jealous.

In 8 minutes time (Now: 2352) my pet will be officially seventeen years old. He's older than me though.. but who cares. He's my pet and he should know where he stands! Lol. I wanted to celebrate with him though but lots of things happened since yesterday and everything is going really awkward between me and my horse. I wonder why. I was feeling down since yesterday, I just want to talk to my horse but he surely won't listen or worse, he will reply me gitu-gitu je. So better don't or I'll get hurt. I don't know why my horse is being such an insensitive pet! I'm your owner, how could you?!

God knows how much I love my pet. I could have a hedgehog or a hamster as my pet but I don't know why I got you, a horse, as my pet! Gosh, it's so hard to take care of you, to give you good food. You think you're such a star, do you horse?! Oh my, this horse.. acting like a boss.

But

Horse, I really want you to know that despite everything I tell you that might hurt you, being such a pain in the ass, being so clumsy and stupid, being such an ugly owner, I love you, pet. It hurts so bad that I can't show you how much I love you because it will be really really awkward. I wanted you to know so bad that I really want you to be with me all the time but it hurts to even think that it won't happen. I seriously want you to understand by explaining but you don't understand me and I did mess it up yesterday. I wonder why is it everytime I try so hard to put people's feelings first before my own, I still end up hurting them twice as bad. Sometimes, my horse likes to be around me, sometimes my horse doesn't. What should I do then?! I just want to stop being such a shameless girl, such a shameless owner who god-knows-whoever-reading-this-are-calling-me-a-slut-right-now show so much affectionness to you, my dear pet. I'm such a shameless girl, and I can't handle myself.

Happy birthday to my pet, horsie who is officially seventeen years old today. If you ever read this, which I know you don't, won't and never will open my blog to read this which is really awkward to see a horse tapping on keyboard and scroll down my blog... I want you to know that you are special.

and happy birthday to arwah Hakimi who should have been twenty if he's still around.